CHAPTER 15

"Bella, please I'm begging you, please talk to me." Edward said frantically, while chasing after me through the hotel lobby.

"Leave her the fuck alone Edward, you've done enough." Vicky said, while blocking him.

"What the fuck have I done for her to give me the fucking silence treatment, huh?" He argued.

At this point I had enough of him and just wanted some peace, which he wasn't helping me with, so I exploded.

"You want to know what the fuck you did? Well why don't you go fuck Tanya since all you have done with me is play me and lie to my fucking face like I'm some stupid idiot. Oh and while you're at it, say hi to Tanya for me, will you?" I said and stormed toward the elevator which was open for me to get in.

It's been a few weeks since everything went down with Edward but I still refused to talk to him. I just really didn't want an explanation from him since it was pretty obvious what had gone down between him and Tanya. Since I had caught them I've been writing a lot of new songs. Not all of them were sad, some were very deep and soulful and I really liked them. I had even been talking with Aro about making a new album; but I wasn't sure that I wanted to keep working with Edward, since it was just too much right now.

We are almost finished with the tour and at this point, since it was just like an introduction tour to bring me in and all, and the public had been great with me. The girls and I have also been talking a lot and between sound checks and traveling they've been on my ass about one of our constant security guys, Jacob and how he just can't take his eyes off of me. I've also been talking to him a lot and it turns out that he's from La Push, the reservation that's on the beach like two hours from my home town.

We are currently on our way toward our last venue here in Germany. I was really stressed about playing here since Germans are great fans of Tanya and I didn't want to disappoint them. A few hours later, I was in my prep room crying my eyes out. Alice was trying to comfort me but it was no use; I was a snotty, wet mess. After a few minutes I decided to grow a pair and just get this last concert over with. Two and a half hours later I was singing our last song, a cover we'd made from the song 'Running up that Hill' by Kate Bush.

"It doesn't hurt me.
Do you want to feel how it feels?
Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt me?
Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?
You, it's you and me.

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware I'm tearing you asunder.
Ooh, there is thunder in our hearts.

Is there so much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You, it's you and me.
It's you and me won't be unhappy.

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
Say, if I only could, oh...

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems.

C'mon, baby, c'mon darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience, oh...

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems.

And if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems."

And the crowd went crazy and then we were finally done. We were going to go back home and I couldn't be happier for the much needed, up-coming break.

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