A/N: Okay, so the James family, I know Haley and Quinn have like a bunch of siblings but I just decided to have the James family as Quinn, Haley, Taylor and her mother and father. All will make sense in this chapter, haha. Also: Thank you othuser and tilkingdomcome for reviewing! Thank you!

Disclaimer: I do not own One Tree Hill yadda yadda yadda.

Warning: Mild use of strong language and lingering round sensitive issues...

"Baker, come on. Sleep for mommy. Come on..." Brooke said as she yawned. Quinn walked in smiling at the sight of Brooke and her son. "You know Quinn, this is gonna be you in nine months. So, you should train." Brooke handed her friend Baker, she sat down on the couch just as Jude began to cry.

"Wow, Brooke I've never seen you so exhausted. Where's Julian?" Quinn said as she rocked Baker back and forth. Brooke picked up Jude.

"He's working late on the tv show. Aw, shush baby. They're a handful I'll tell you." Brooke said as she watched Quinn cradling Baker to sleep. "Quinn, you're going to be a great mother." Quinn smiled as the sleeping baby and then grinned to Brooke.

After half an hour both boys were sound asleep, they made their way towards the living room.

"Brooke, can I ask you something?" Brooke nodded."When you found out you were pregnant...did you feel like you weren't...you know...ready...for all of this? Did you ever regret it?" Quinn asked nervously.

"No, I mean, when I found out I was pregnant, it was a miracle, the doctors told me I could never have children. I was ecstatic and I knew, having children with Julian just...felt right." Brooke looked at Quinn's panicked face, "And judging by your facial expression, that wasn't the answer you expected?"

"I've just been thinking about all of this...for a long time and I'm not ready. I love being an aunt, but having a child, that's something I can't do. I can't! Child birth is something I do NOT want to do." Quinn replied angrily.

"...So...are you suggesting...having an abortion, Quinn?"

"I've been reasearching, I've been pregnant for two weeks, there's obviously time." Quinn said as she played with her hair.

"Quinn, you need to think about this...throughly. Are you sure about this? Listen, whatever you choose to do, I'll be on your side, just...think about this, because once you do it...you can't reverse it. Okay? I...I should sleep now. I have too much information to process in one night." Brooke began to make her way to her bedroom, she stopped at her heels and turned back to Quinn who was still sitting on the couch...playing with her hair. "Hey, are you still helping me set up mine and Julian's housewarming party tomorrow?" Quinn nodded with a smile, she had forgotten all about the party Brooke had rambled on about for over a month, she was in no mood to party, but she would play along, to support her friend. When the door clicked, Quinn looked on her phone where she missed 17 calls from Clay and over twenty text messages from him. She deleted them all without reading a single one. As Quinn walked to the guest room, she peeked into Baker and Jude's room.

"I can't do this. I'm not Brooke or Haley. Heck, I can't even care for myself let alone a baby." She muttered to herself, walking into the room and laying in the comfy queen sized bed. Quinn harboured many secrets, secrets even Haley didn't know about.

**Flashback**

The James family all sat down for dinner.

"Quinn, are you okay? You haven't touched your meal? Is it a boy? It's a boy isn't it? What have I told you about STD's I-" Quinn's mother, Lydia, began to ramble.

"Mom! I'm fine, just...you know. Admiring your food decor skills..." Quinn said nervously. Everyone looked down to the hamburger and fries that was on the plate.

"Are you-" Haley began to speak just as the doorbell rang.

"Cookies for sale!" A girlish voice was heard through the door.

"Oooh cookies!" Haley, Taylor and their mother and father all sqeeled as they began to run to the door. As they were distracted Quinn cut a huge chuck of her hamburger and put in the empty can of ground beef that laid in the trash. She spread out her fries on her families plate, leaving her with a quarter of her hamburger and just a few fries left on the plate. They all returned to the table with boxes of cookies as Quinn pretended to eat the rest of her hamburger. Haley looked at Quinn's plate.

"Wow, how long were we buying cookie for?" The whole family laughed as Quinn faked a smile.

"You bought a load of cookies there, dad." Quinn said, changing the subject.

"Well, your father couldn't decided whether to get those Thin Mints or those Caramel DeLites. He got both at the end!" Lydia said laughing. Quinn chuckled nervously.

"Okay, I got homework to do." Quinn said as she got up as put her plate in the sink, she gave her mum and dad a hug as she left to go to her room. As Quinn got changed she stared at her stomach in the mirror. She turned to her side.

"Eurgh.." She muttered as she poked her stomach. In reality, Quinn looked like a healthy teenager, but that's not how she saw herself, looking back in that mirror she saw an ugly teen who looked like she was over 500 pounds. She hated the way she looked. Even though everyday at school, girls and guys would compliment Quinn, on what she wore, her hair and most importantly, her body. Her friends would constantly say to Quinn, "you're so skinny, I'm jealous!" to most girls, that was a compliment but to her, it was a constant reminder that everyone was looking at her..and her body, that angered Quinn and made her more and more paranoid. She had low self-esteem, she just wanted to be that perfect girl that everyone else saw, but she didn't.

**End of flashback**

Quinn soon fell asleep, shuddering at the thought of her when she was a teen, no one knew about her insecurities, that was a sensitive issue, it was a more 'keep it to yourself' type situation, a situation that she was in no hurry to share.

A/N: Okay, this story is getting dark. I know abortion and self-esteem issues are a very sensitive, but that's part of the storyline for this fic. I think I should really space these situations out and write some fluff. Haha. I think dark situations make some good writing and remember...when there's a problem between a relationship there's always an epic reunion with cuteness, that's what I believe! Aha, next chapter next Tuesday, Clay and Quinn will face each other at Brulians housewarming, dun dun duunnn...DRAMA.

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