Chapter Two

As they drove home Sheldon continued rambling, and Leonard pretended to listen. He wanted to ask Sheldon if he had any feelings for him, but he knew he couldn't. If he ever wanted something to work out, he would have to take it slow. You can't push anything with Sheldon. Especially something like this where he's completely inexperienced.

"And I was thinking, maybe if the protons—" At this rate Sheldon was never going to stop. Leonard pulled into his parking spot in their building's parking lot and climbed out of the car. Sheldon did the same and continued to talk as they entered the lobby and started walking up the stairs. He didn't stop when they got to the second floor…third? Nope. Fourth? Still nope. Sheesh, Sheldon can talk!

Leonard unlocked their apartment and let the taller man in. Sheldon stopped in the middle of the living room and turned to the shorter physicist. "What do you think? I suppose it could be different if you switched the—" Leonard stared up at Sheldon, how could I get you to shut up? he asked in his mind. Then it hit him. He had a plan. Not a very good one, but it would do.

"But I was thinking about it earlier and—" Leonard reached up on his tip toes and put his hand on the back of Sheldon's neck. His words slowed, but he didn't stop talking completely until Leonard pulled him down into a kiss. Sheldon was caught completely off guard, even though Leonard gave him a pretty big warning. Surprisingly though, Sheldon didn't pull away immediately, must be a routine panic attack, Leonard thought. After a second, he noticed that Sheldon seemed to relax a little bit. That could be promising… Leonard felt Sheldon lay his hand lightly on Leonard's back. His touch was electrifying, it made Leonard lean closer into the taller man.

Leonard knew he shouldn't have kissed Sheldon, but he wanted Sheldon to shut up more than anything. And now Leonard was…enjoying it. This kiss was so much more different then the other one, this one was intentional and passionate. This was a real kiss. And even with as little experience as he had, Sheldon was a pretty good kisser.

Sheldon finally pulled away and stared at the shorter man, dumbfounded. He was probably dumbfounded with himself more than he was with Leonard. Both men had thought it was impossible for the theoretical physicist to ever do anything like that. Sheldon Cooper plus kissing just didn't add up. Leonard didn't care, though.

"I knew that would shut you up…" Leonard finally said after a long pause. "Goodnight." He walked past the speechless Sheldon and went to his room. Schrödinger's cat, he thought, the cat's alive.

Sheldon lay in his bed, thinking about what had happened. It had been an hour and a half since Leonard went to his room, but Sheldon couldn't sleep.
What the… that's what Sheldon was thinking when Leonard kissed him. He, again, didn't know how to react. He didn't know what came over him, but he had put his hand on Leonard's back. Why had he done that? Had he wanted Leonard to kiss him? Had he wanted to pull Leonard in closer? And then when he pulled away, Sheldon had just stood there like an idiot.
He thought about how some people described kisses. The 'sparks flying'. Did any sparks fly with his and Leonard's kiss? He wasn't sure. They must've 'cause there's no way he would have reacted the way he did if there weren't any sparks. Goddamn those sparks.
Sheldon kept asking himself questions he couldn't answer. He wasn't sure how to find the answers. He wasn't really sure about anything at this point, and it was driving him insane. He frowned. He needed to know something for certain.

"Well, Sheldon, what's the problem?"

"I don't know, Penny! That's just it! I don't know!"

"Maybe you're in love."

"But I don't know anything about love!"

Penny laughed at his response. "Sheldon, Sheldon, Sheldon…" she shook her head. "You're a piece a work, you know that?"

"I've been told," he frowned.

"Look, I'm not really sure what to tell you. Just go through your day normally today and report back to me later, okay?"

"Report back? Report about what?" Sheldon questioned her. She rolled her eyes.

"You will report to me about, uhhmm, lets see… You will tell me how you felt all day, what you thought about, what you did, what you said, and all that stuff!" she told him. She realized she might have just signed up to be Sheldon's psychiatrist. Great, she thought sarcastically. But, hey! Maybe she could help him. She knew the classic signs of love, and she could give him advise. This could actually get fun!

"Fine," Sheldon agreed. She was a little surprised he didn't protest. "I'm sick of not knowing. I need answers…" Oh, he wasn't used to being the dumb one. Now it made sense to the young blonde woman. She felt a smile come across her face. Sheldon needed her help!

"I'm sorry about last night," Leonard told Sheldon as they drove to the university. "I shouldn't have done that."

"It's okay," Sheldon heard himself say. What? Good Lord, that's not what I was going to say! The truth was, he didn't really think it was okay. Sheldon had never liked anyone touching him, and the fact that Sheldon had let his roommate kiss him… it wasn't okay. Or was it that the way Sheldon reacted wasn't okay? Too many questions!

Sheldon had never been this frustrated and scared by questions. There was always supposed to be some logic to answer them, but not now! Sheldon couldn't find any logic in this, and he couldn't handle it. He wanted someone to tell him it was just chemical reactions, he wanted someone to bring science back into this!

"Let's play the table of element's game," he told Leonard.

"Okay." Sheldon was relieved by Leonard's response, science was coming back!

"Dude, are you okay?" Raj asked Sheldon and took a bite of his salad. Sheldon looked up from his tray of cafeteria food. He had been staring at for a wile, just thinking.

"I am…fine." Lie. Total, utter, complete, white lie. He was surprised he could do it. Usually he couldn't.

"Alright…" Raj was skeptical, but Sheldon ignored him. He didn't really want to talk to anyone, his morning hadn't gone to well. He had spiraled back into asking himself questions he didn't know the answers to. He was incredibly unhappy about it, too. Just then, Leslie Winkle walked up their table. Oh, god. Why her, why now? Just when I thought this couldn't get any worse…"Hey, guys. Hey, Dumbass," she snorted. Sheldon tried to ignore her. Maybe if he closed his eyes she would go away… "Dumbass?" she tried to get his attention.

"What?" he glared at her. He did not want to deal with her. Not now, not ever. She looked slightly impressed by his anger. She unscrewed the cap off her water bottle.

"Is he alright?" she asked Howard and he shrugged. "What's up, Sheldon? Did you get in a fight with your bestie over here?" she motioned towards Leonard mockingly. That's it. Sheldon couldn't take it anymore, he picked up his tray of food and stormed over to the trash can. He shoved the food off the tray and threw it up on the counter. He stomped out of the cafeteria without a word, but the rage in every step he took was enough for a million words. Everyone at the table was speechless. Then it hit Leonard.

"I've really screwed up this time," Leonard muttered under his breath and got up to follow Sheldon. The only reason Sheldon would have reacted that dramatically was because he was in emotional turmoil. And Sheldon in emotional turmoil was ten times worse than anyone else. Leonard had no idea Sheldon had been this upset, and it was all his fault. Leonard felt awful. He should have made 100% sure that Sheldon was okay before letting him out of the apartment. When Sheldon didn't understand something, his state of mind just got worse and worse. This was an all too perfect example.

A/N I hope you liked this chapter! I'm having a pretty good time writing this fic, I hope you are having a good time reading it.

One thing, after this rough spot with Sheldon this will probably get really cute. I just wanted to tell all of you that. I don't want people to think this whole fic is just going to be Sheldon freaking out! x)

Anyways, review if you want, I love getting them. Thanks for reading! Love y'all! :)