Chapter Five (just as a warning, this entire chapter is the kiss… in great detail, I might add) :P
Leonard had always thought that, somewhere deep inside him, Sheldon could be caring and…human. It was most certainly hidden under layers of impatience and lack of social understanding, and those walls were as stubborn Sheldon. But now Leonard knew he was right: Sheldon indeed had a human side. And that human side was currently kissing him.
Sheldon had opened his mouth a little bit, and at first, Leonard didn't know what to think. Leonard had thought that Sheldon would need this to go slow. In fact, he had been certain that Sheldon would wants to go at a snail's pace. Apparently Leonard was wrong. He hesitated for a moment, unsure of what Sheldon wanted. He decided to dart his tongue across Sheldon's lips, just to see how the other man would react. He had, after all, opened his mouth. Sheldon's whole body tensed. God, he's confusing sometimes.
After a moment, Sheldon relaxed again. Leonard pulled away for a quick breath, and Sheldon's hand moved down to Leonard's waist. The other one followed. Sheldon was almost clinging to the other man. It was like he thought Leonard might fly away if he let go. Which seemed a little…funny. Sheldon wasn't the kind of person to ever cling. But on the other hand, it was sort of nice. It was nice to feel like Sheldon really wanted Leonard to be there. Usually Leonard felt like he was in the way of Sheldon's routine or something. Now he was realizing that he was actually a part of it.
Suddenly Leonard realized another thing: this was what he had always wanted. Leonard had always wanted Sheldon to pay attention to him. He had always wanted Sheldon to acknowledge that the other man was there. He had always wanted Sheldon to care. And he had always wanted to break down Sheldon's barrier against people. Now he finally had.
Leonard had grown up in the weirdest of circumstances. Circumstances where his every move was overanalyzed; where any emotion was recorded; where he was practically a lab rat. And it had left him somewhat…hurt. It wasn't that he didn't get enough attention, it was that he didn't get enough love. His mother could care less about love. Hell, Leonard had such a lack of love that he had to build a hug machine! But now he had love. He had Sheldon, the one person he was sure no one would ever be with.
No one cared enough to put up with Sheldon. But Leonard had been putting up with Sheldon for years. Many times he had asked himself, "why? Why do you put up with Sheldon Cooper?" Now he finally had his answer: because he loved Sheldon. He had always loved Sheldon as a friend. Even with the crazy roommate agreement, and all those other annoying rules. Leonard had put up with all of it. He had never really known why he put up with it, he just had. And he became accustomed to it. He became accustomed to Sheldon.
The truth was, Leonard didn't know what he would do if he stopped living with Sheldon. No really, what would he do? He'd probably still have Thai food on Monday nights, and go to the Cheesecake Factory on Tuesdays. He'd still play Halo and go to the comic book store on Wednesdays. He'd probably still expect Sheldon to walk into the apartment on Saturday nights carrying a load of laundry. And he knew for a fact that he wouldn't go near Sheldon's spot on the couch, even if Sheldon weren't there. It just wouldn't be right. Nothing would be right without Sheldon there.
Sheldon was starting to freak himself out. He had scared himself with the possibility of this going terribly wrong. He had scared himself when he hadn't tensed up again when Leonard's tongue darted across his lips again. He scared himself when he mimicked what Leonard had done. He had scared himself when he actually pulled Leonard in closer. He was so scared. At this rate, he would be having a heart attack in seconds.
But Sheldon didn't know what other emotion to feel. He was enjoying kissing Leonard, yes. But he was terrified of it at the same time. It was too new, and Sheldon wasn't very good with new things. Most of the time he didn't even give new things a second thought, but now he had to. He wanted to. And, in a way, this wasn't that new. It was Leonard, and he had known Leonard for years. And the kissing wasn't that new, either. The duration of this kiss was new, though. And the tongue was new, too…
Speaking of tongue, Leonard had slid his tongue past Sheldon's teeth and then pulled back encouragingly. Sheldon didn't quite know how to react to that; he was quite clueless in this whole situation. He considered that for a moment. He was completely clueless. What did he usually do when he was clueless? Well, he experimented. This is an experiment! I can learn from this if it's an experiment, he thought. Suddenly he felt encouraged. Turning a social convention into something involving science always made him feel encouraged. He might not be experienced in the social world, but he's like a god in the science world. Maybe this wouldn't be too terrible after all.
Leonard wondered what had gotten into Sheldon, because suddenly he wasn't as tense as before. He leaned in slightly and copied the movement of Leonard's tongue. He wasn't that bad, a little sloppy maybe. But it was alright, especially for Sheldon. He was new to this whole thing, so it was a miracle that he was even willing to try. But he was, after all, an extremely fast learner…
Leonard found himself practically pressed into Sheldon's wiry frame as the kiss intensified. Leonard hadn't even meant to, but he had leaned into Sheldon so far that now Sheldon was having to lean back into Leonard. Now Sheldon's tongue was in his mouth, and Leonard was trying to get his tongue back into the other man's mouth. Hopefully Leonard had gotten it right this time and this was what Sheldon wanted.
It seemed to be what he wanted. One of Sheldon's hands was carefully wandering up Leonard's back and the other was keeping it's claim to his waist. The fabric of Leonard's jacket was starting to wrinkle in Sheldon's hands. It was another example of a new found side of Sheldon. A Sheldon that no one else had ever found before. It was a little odd…it was like Sheldon, but not. Leonard liked this new Sheldon…
This kiss, which had started out slower than the plotline of the old episodes of Doctor Who, was now quickly taking a deadly turn towards dirty. They were pressed up against each other, their tongues were going nonstop, and there didn't seem to be an ending coming soon.
Throughout the entire kiss, Leonard had wondered what Sheldon's limits were. Usually Sheldon despised touching, so why was he so suddenly loving it? Now it didn't even seem like Sheldon had limits! Leonard had one final test for Sheldon. He climbed into the taller physicist's lap and pressed his fingers into Sheldon's short brown hair. This was a very carefully considered moment: Sheldon could quickly become uncomfortable and push Leonard away, or Sheldon might just go with it…but which would it be?
Sheldon was getting too caught up in the experiment idea. He had gotten so wrapped up in mentally 'taking notes' that he didn't even notice that Leonard was now in his lap. Which also meant that… He's in my SPOT! If Sheldon thought this was going terribly wrong before, he was mistaken. What was happening now was going wrong. That's it, he decided, no more mixing of science and kissing. That's what got me into this. It's either one or the other. Sheldon hadn't been paying much attention to anything that was happening, actually. He realized that that was pretty dumb, especially seeing as how this was an experiment and he should have been paying close attention. Stupid, stupid, Sheldon…
So, now what would he do? He definitely didn't want Leonard to be on top of him like that, but he couldn't just shove him off. That would be a one way ticket to messing up their friendship, so that was a 'no no.' He decided to try to slow the kiss down in any way possible. He pulled his tongue back into his own mouth where it belonged and closed his mouth, careful to do all this slowly in order to not alarm the other man. Finally he untangled his hands from Leonard's back and Leonard pulled himself away from Sheldon slowly. They stared at each other for a moment and Sheldon finally said, "Well…that was interesting."
A/N I was rereading this chapter, and I was slightly afraid that people might think that this kiss was rushed into, but it's kinda supposed to be like that, I guess. Sheldon needed to get a clue, basically. And Leonard needed to have an 'ah ha' moment like Sheldon. :)
If you haven't seen the old episodes of Doctor Who, here's why I said that the kiss was slower than one of their plotlines: one 'episode' (plotline) would take about 6-8 actual episodes to finish. So, if it were slower than that, it must be REALLY slooow...
Anyways, I hope you liked this chapter (even if it was just a kiss the whole time…lol) Oh, and I think you should really hook up with that review button tonight… ;) Anywhooo, thanks for reading!