So, I may have another couple of chapters up tonight but I am not promising anything. Lets just say I got a lot of energy with seeing the beautiful Amy Downham on our screens today! :D Again its the waiting game for them being together and you can be sure to find a lot of tension and unhappiness in the next few chapters. Hope you like it. Leave your reviews.

Chapter 12

The first two lessons of the day hadn't really gone as planned for Tilly. She thought she'd be okay but somehow she felt like everyone was looking at her, even when they wernt she was still paranoid to people looking at her and talking about her. She couldn't consentrate one tiny little bit. She didn't listen to a word her teachers were saying and didn't even try and complete any of her work.

It was a total different side to Tilly, as everyone saw. She was distant to everyone who she normally interacts with during her lessons, she didn't put her hand up to answer questions like she did regulary and again she didn't complete her work which would normally be completed before anyone else.

All day Jen was just going through her mind, how she was possibly going to try get through to the young red head without Tilly feeling like she was just getting involved afterall she did tell Jen she didnt have the right to care anymore. It tore her into peices knowing Tilly didnt want to be comforted by her, which was never the case before Tilly always talked things through with Jen and Jen did with Tilly too. So now knowing Tilly didnt want to interact with her made herself feel even worse than she already did.

General studies was the worst, sitting with Ester. Even after telling Ester straight back at her house somehow Ester still didn't get the drift of not being together. And because she didn't know what Tilly had been going through the past week, with the sleeping at Maddies, the non-stop drinking and the pain she was going through Ester didn't stop asking questions and trying to touch Tillys hand.

FUCK OFF ESTER WILL YOU!Tilly shouted

''Tilly, don't you dare swear in my lesson again''shouted her General Studies teacher.

''And what the fuck are you going to do about it?'' Tilly stood and shouted back without even realising it.

''OUT NOW'' shouted her teacher angrly.

''Gladly''Tilly replied taking her things and leaving slamming the door behind her.

For Tilly this was big, and she couldn't of cared any less about what she had just done, it was the least thing on her mind. She headed straight to the common room and sat herself down. There was so much anger inside of her, more anger than she'd ever experianced. More anger now than to when she found out Jen had taken the job at the college. She couldn't control it even if she wanted too. She sat in the common room clenching her fists and breathing heavly.

Her teacher went next door into Jens art room and asked her for help, and with no questions Jen rushed out the door. She didn't know who she needed help with or why but she went anyways. Trying to catch up to the teacher infront of her who was practically running. Only to find her walking towards Tilly, the only person in the common room at the time.

Tilly didn't hear her coming behind her, and when she did she didn't no Jen was standing behind her godsmacked either. Jen couldn't belive it. How could anyone need help with Tilly? she was the most caring, nicest person Jen had ever met. But Jen thought twice about the way Tilly had been last night. Mabye the accidant has changed her for the worst.

''YOU GET UP'' Shouted her teacher causing Tilly to jump out of her skin.

''Any need to shout?!'' Tilly replied still sitting.

''I don't know what has got into you Tilly Evens but I mean it get up now'' her teacher said calmer.

Tilly stood straight up, this woman was really starting to get on her nerves. She didn't know weather it was still the alcohol causing all the anger and bad behaviour but at this moment in time she didn't care one little bit. This bitch getting on her nerves was the least of her worries right now. She just wanted to jump up and land a heavy slap across her face for just talking badly to her.

''I'll have you removed from this college in an instant if I want to'' said the teacher.

''Dont think you can do that, scare me! as if I am bothered. I will gladly walk out and never come back'' replied Tilly.

''Ok, we will see about that. Lets go see Mr Keeler shall we'' said the teacher.

''Guess what? I will save you the bother. I'm leaving and I don't want to come back either'' said Tilly walking towards the door with her back turned to both Jen and her teacher. Jen couldn't belive the language coming from Tillys mouth or the behaviour. She just wanted to set Tilly straight, knock some sence into her but the words just wouldn't come out. She was literally speechless.

''Maddie wouldn't of liked to see you this way'' her teacher tutted.

That was the final straw and Jen knew it also. Her teacher had no right bringing up her dead best friend into this situation. This had nothing what so ever to do with Maddie therefore her name shouldnt of even been brought up in the first place. Tilly turned on her heel and walked back to her teachers face.

''YOU have no right to mention her name alright? do you know something I have never liked you, your a bitch and everyone knows it! Everyone just pertends to like you to stay in your good books, but really we all hate everything about you your a snob and think your better than everyone else. So go jump on your high horse and go fuck yourself'' said Tilly.

''Tilly'' Jen shouted finally been able to bring herself to do so. She didn't want to because she knew exactly what she'd been going through and how much pain she was going through right now. But she had to stop her before it got to much.

''Leave it out I'm off'' said Tilly walking away wanting nothing more than for Jen to swoop her up in her arms and help her through. But how could she even ask that of her after everything?

Jen was gobsmacked. Never ever did she think all of this would get to Tilly so much for her to behave this way, towards herself and other members of staff, to get to far for her not to want to come to college anymore. Jen felt sorry for Tilly, she was hurt that Tilly couldnt carm herself towards her teacher, but Jen also couldnt help but notice the look in Tillys eyes when she looked her way, it was something she just didnt know what.

Tilly walked out of college just before break and headed straight to the shop. Buying two bottles of Vokda from her bank card and making her way back home to her empty house with the bottles in hand.

No! This wasnt the way she could get through the whole situation, but it could help. Whenever she got into a argument with Jen or with her family her friends were always there to take her out for a good night of getting drunk.

Within a second of getting in the house Tilly played the music high, hers and Maddies favorite song and opened the bottle immedietly. Angry wasn't the word for her right now she was so much more than that. The taste of Vodka wasn't even bad to her now, she was just drinking it like it was water, full glasses of the belt, one after the other.

Jen and the other teacher had to inform Mr Keeler right away about the situation which had just happened. And again he was shocked to what he was hearing. Tilly, his most brightest pupil, the one girl he could trust to go far in life, but now hearing she had left college and was back home. Mr Keeler knew Jen and Tilly were close with them both having a great passion for Art and with Tilly helping Jen out with the open day so he had her lessons covered until lunch and drove to Tillys house.

It hadn't even been 15 minutes and Tilly was already three quaters of the way through the full litre Vodka bottle. In the end, she gave up with filling up and started drinking from the bottle dancing in the living room, as well as a little bit of crying. The music was blasting, it was a miricul the tele hadn't exploded with the sound coming out of it. It was loud enough to burst her eardrums.

Jen and Keeler arrived in no time, and heard the music from his car. Both walking down the path together to the sound of the hurrific sound of music coming from the house. Knowing full well her parents couldn't have been home. Keeler knocked, once, twice, three times and didn't get an answer. Then moved his way to the front window and gasping at Tilly bouncing her way through the living room with the bottle of Vodka in her mouth. Drunk by this time, knocking paintings of the walls, ornamants of the tables, the laptop was faced down on the floor. The kitchen was a total mess. It looked to him that Tilly had just gone round smashing the place up as she went along. But of course that wasnt the case, anyone knows when you have so much to drink falling against the walls and making a fool of yourself is only normal.

Tilly didn't hear the knocks, or even notice him and Jen were standing knocking on the window. Getting onto her about the behaviour back at college was the least of Mr Keelers worries. He was now just interested in helping Tilly who was clearly in need of someone. Even now, being alone she was just getting more angry with herself and everyone else. It was scaring her how angry she was actually getting. She spun herself around once more to drink the last of the first bottle and flung it against the wall causing it to smash all over. Jumping up in the air laughing and giggling at herself. Then jumping up on the sofa to save herself from being hurt from all the glass without her shoes on.

More drink, thats what she needed. She couldn't see straight. The alcohol had really gotton to her. Drinking it so fast properly wasn't a good idea and wasn't getting rid of her anger but it was getting rid of the thought of her parents returning tomorrow with there daugher leaving college and leaving her dreams. Without thinking Tilly jumped down from the sofa onto the glass causing Jen and Keelers face to stiffen as she landed on the glass. She winced in pain at first but carried on walking over the glass to get the other bottle and a glass cup. Not a very good idea in her state, but she did anyways.

Pouring herself a glass full to the top and returning back to the couch. Downing the glass in seconds and flinging it towards the ceeling also wasn't a good idea. She was getting rid of her anger by smashing things which was hurting herself in the process and Jen was in tears by it. She couldn't watch anymore, she didn't have Tillys number to get in touch with her so she carried on banging on the door while Keeler was banging on the window.

Glass from the cup had made its way down Tillys top, so removing it and now standing on the coffee table with the bottle in her mouth Keeler also had to remove himself from the window with Tilly having no top on.

''You keep knocking on the window Mr Keeler, she might see you'' said Jen.

''I can't she's removed her top'' said Keeler.

Before long the music channel was on the break so Tilly turned down the music while she changed the channel only to hear the door being banged at. Without a thought Tilly jumped from the sofa and made her way to the door. Falliing and tripping on the way. She opened up the door and didn't care about the fact her head teacher and her lover were standing at the door. Tilly hid the bottle behind her back and tried her best to act sobur.

''Erm, something I can help you with?'' She slurred.

''We need to talk'' said Keeler glad to her finally opening the door before killing herself.

''Sorry, I can't my parents are home and we are in the middle of lunch, another time though'' Tilly quickly said not wanting to invite them inside and trying to shut the door. Only for Mr Keeler to keep it open. Then a sound from next door caught her angrly attention.

''You better keep that down young girl'' shouted the man next door.

Tilly just tutted and rolled her eyes.

The man went back inside and slammed the door behind him. ''Anyways, i best get back to my parents'' Tilly smiled trying to shut the door again. But again Mr Keeler stopped her and himself and Jen made her way inside also shutting the door behind them.

''What do you want?'' Tilly asked

''Look at the mess Tilly, your parents will be mortified'' said Keeler.

''Like I care what them think'' Tilly shrugged

Mr Keeler spend the next ten minutes trying to get through to Tilly about the drinking, and college, and cambridge but Tilly was only giving him one word answeres. Regulary drinking more and more from her bottle in the process. This was definitly not Tilly, Jen knew Tilly she was the most caring loving person she'd ever met and now she was just being so distant, so ignorant, didn't care about her health, didnt care about her dreams. It was horrible for Jen to see.

''I'm going to bed, I feel sick'' blurted Tilly

''Tilly, I have to get back to college we will talk about this tomorrow'' said Keeler.

''No need, I aint changing my mind'' Tilly ran upstairs and left the two downstairs.

''Jen, you have to stay with her until her parents come home, we can't leave her in this state'' said Keeler.

''What about my classes?'' Jen asked.

''I'll sort it'' replied Keeler

Jen just nodded and Mr Keeler left, shutting the door behind him. Jen was glad he'd asked her to stay with her. Now Jen had a reason to spend all day with Tilly and try get through to her. This is exactly what Jen needed, now she didnt have to make up excuses to Diane to spend time with Tilly, now she could be here without having to explain herself. Today Jen was going to do her best to get through to Tilly once and for all and she didn't care how long it took her.

Improvement was in Jens mind today.