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Chapter 13

Tilly hadn't been sick, she'd fell asleep against the toilet with her bottle in hand. As soon as she hit the floor her eye lids felt as heavy as ever and once she shut her eyes there was no opening them again. At least when she woke up she'd actually remember the events of today and would most definetly regret everything she'd done. Including drinking so much Vodka. She would definetly not be in a good way when she finally awoke.

When Jen got upstairs she stayed at the door and watched Tilly sleep for a couple of minutes before taking the bottle from her hands and picking her up. She placed her in bed and tucked the red head in bed. Jen loved the fact of watching her younger lover sleep, she'd never got to experiance any of this during the time she was spending with Tilly. It was always meeting up in the dirty shack or meeting up in the car for a little bit of fun. But until Jen had actually lost Tilly properly Jen never really knew how much she cared for Tilly.

Jen collected the bottle from the bathroom and took it downstairs with her, she instantly poured it out down the sink and pulled a black bag from the kitchen draw and placing the bottle inside. Next taking her own time to clear up all of the mess which Tilly had just made. She knew how Tilly would be feeling when she woke so decided to clean it all for her. After about a hour of clearing all the mess the house was finally back to normal.

After tidying up Jen decided it would be best to make Tilly something to eat for when she awoke. After seeing for herself Tilly hadn't been eating Jen was confidant in herself to help Tilly out as much as she could and she wasnt prepared to stop until she'd sucseeded.

Finally 3 hours after Tilly had fell asleep she awoke in her bed with the worst headache ever. And couldn't remember how she'd even got there. The last thing she remembered was being such a horrible person towards her teacher. She instantly regretted it as she sat up and held her head in her hands.

She knew she couldn't go on like this anymore, acholol was most definetly not the way forward to helping her solve her problems, it was in fact the worst way possible. She was just hurting herself in the process and being horrible to the people around her too. Her mouth felt like sandpaper so she jumped herself out of bed and made her way straight into the bathroom to brush her teeth before making her way downstairs.

''Jen, what are you doing here?'' Tilly asked shocked.

''Mr Keeler asked me to stay with you until your parents came home, incase you hurt yourself'' replied Jen standing up.

''Mr Keeler?'' Tilly asked confused.

''You don't remember anything then? I will tell you after your food ok'' said Jen.

Tilly just nodded, if she was going to get herself back on the straight and narrow she really needed to start eating something and now, feeling the worst she'd ever felt she actually needed it. So Jen warmed her food up and placed it on the kitchen table with some water and waited for Tilly to finish in the living room.

Tilly couldnt help but feel butterflies in her stomach, Jen was here, looking after her, cooking for her. It felt amazing, Jen was the one person Tilly never ever could get sick of being around and Jen felt exactly the same way.

While Tilly was in the kitchen eating she was instantly scared to what she might of done infront of her head teacher and the woman she loved so much. She hoped to god she hadnt said anything to give her and Jen away, but Jen would have been angry with her not looking after her and making her food would she? Tilly finished up her delishious food and washed her plate and slowly made her way back into the living room to explain herself.

''Look Jen whatever I have done. I am so, so sorry for putting you in this position I really don't know what got into me but before you tell me I just want you to know i'm sorry'' rushed Tilly nervously.

''Come on sit down and I will tell you everything'' said Jen.

Tilly nervously made her way to the seating area in the living room and sat a seat away from Jen so she didnt have to be so close. Being so close to the woman she loved alone could really make her do something she really didn't want to do. And so Jen began.

After Jen speaking for around 10 minutes telling Tilly what she'd done and what she couldnt remember Tilly felt humiliated, she really never thought she could have even come close to acting the way she did, while Jen was talking she was godsmacked all the way through. It was a terrible way to react. She didnt really care about talking to her general studies teacher the way she did but Jen that was different. ''I'm sorry I acted that way infront of you Jen I feel so bad'' Tilly lowered her head. ''You feel bad? what about your teacher and your neibour'' Jen laughed. ''Yeah, well Its not like I actually care about them is it?'' Tilly smiled.

There is was, Tilly obviously still cared about her, and she did nothing to hide it either. Surely this had to be some sort of improvement. Taking things slow was on Jens mind. She didnt want to rush anything, not when it came to Tilly, and that smile, the smile Jen had missed so much it was back, back where it belonged.

''So the glass?'' Tilly said looking around, ''I sorted it Tilly, I knew you would feel bad as it is never mind clearing the mess you made in here'' Jen laughed. ''Oh I'm so sorry Jen honestly'' said Tilly. Then her phone started to ring and it was the one person who started it all off. Ester.

What?

I can't belive you done that to me Tilly. And i've been trying to ring you all day

You shouldnt of pushed me so far should you, I told you over and over. I have enough on my plate without you blabbing in my ear 24/7 you annoyed me

Well there was still no need to go on the way you did it wasnt nice

Well I am sorry for going on like that, it doesnt mean i'm going to change my mind, and if you do it again I will warn you now I will do exactly the same yeah? Now cya!

''Are you having troubles?'' Jen laughed. ''Nothing I can't deal with'' Tilly smiled. ''Well, i'm sorry for taking up your time you can go now if you like I will be alright'' said Tilly regretting the words coming from her mouth. Really she wanted Jen to stay. Somehow, being here alone with Jen, seamed to take her mind of everything that was going on around her. ''Well i'd like to stay if its all the same. I want to be here for you Tilly. Your forever there for everyone else and you havent got anyone to talk to yourself'' said Jen. ''I have, I have loads of people around me, but somehow I only feel like I can talk to you without getting angry about them asking questions'' Tilly shrugged. ''Thats ok, at least now you know I am here to talk whenever'' said Jen.

''So the drinking? thats going to stop right?'' Jen got serious. ''Yep, no more drinking for me. Today talking to you has made me realise it's getting me no where'' replied Tilly. ''And the eating?'' said Jen. ''I know I know, god you sound like my mum'' Tilly laughed. Jen smiled, this was the first time she'd seen Tilly laugh in too long.

''Anyways what have you been up to lately?'' Tilly asked feeling a lot better than any of the past week. ''You know, same old stuff, nothing important'' said Jen. ''Well your just great aint you, your here to cheer me up yet you have nothing stupid to tell me'' Tilly smiled. ''Oh harsh now are we? Everyones been worried you know'' said Jen. ''I know, i'm going to sort myself out from now I promise'' said Tilly confidantly. ''Thats what I like to hear Tilly'' replied Jen.

This short conversation had been a success to both of them. Tilly was finally feeling a lot better for herself, ready to get herself back on the straight and narrow and Jen finally got the time to spend with Tilly without the tention and the arguments.

Jen had put on a movie for the two of them, just to sit and watch to pass some time away. They were close, real close and it felt great. Rapped up around one another like it should have always been, no regrets and nothing to scare them away from one another. Jens job ment nothing right now, nothing.

''Oh, before I forget Tilly. I am really sorry about Hellon the other day, it was totally out of order of her'' said Jen regretting bringing her name up instantly. ''Don't be sorry, I started it I was in a shit mood and took it out on her it wasnt her fault and it most definetly wasn't your fault'' replied Tilly.

After the movie Jen and Tilly spent another couple of hours just chatting, engrossed in what one another had to say. It felt amazing for both of them. Finally just been able to speak to one another without having a silly argument about the past. At least Tilly now knew she could talk to Jen when she needed to. It was just what she needed right now, the one woman she has only ever loved to be there for her. Most realtionships never last though friendship after arguments. But again after everything they have came out on top.

''So what happened with you and Ester?'' Jen asked.

''God, don't even talk about it! She is a total nightmare. I thought spending time with her would take my mind of you but she was like smuthering me completly. I just wanted friendship and she wanted a serious relationship. It was just exausing really. I thought she'd of taken the hint when I didn't like go futher or anything with her but she didn't'' replied Tilly. Jen just laughed. She'd been in the same situation herself, after the argument with Hellon, Hellon had tried texting her multiple times over and over again asking if they could go out? or if things had already been taking further. Maybe Hellon should meet Ester they would make a perfect match.

''So what about you and...'' said Tilly not knowing her name. ''That wasn't anything, I just got talking to her the night me and Diane saw you and well, she's forward and annoying'' Jen laughed. ''She should meet Ester perfect couple'' Tilly smiled. ''Honestly, it was just what I was thinking. ''What time does your parents get home anyways?'' asked Jen. ''Tomorrow afternoon I think'' replied Tilly.

Tilly decided she'd cook something for herself and Jen while she was here and to thank her for all the support she'd given her today. Jen obviosly agreed, finally getting through to Tilly about eating and not drinking. Being there with Tilly showed Jen when she was there Tilly was herself. The intelligant, funny, caring person she fell for in the first place.

After eating there food they were both equally full up to the max. Bouncing themselves on the sofa and switching the TV on and looking through the channels to see what they could watch. Tilly stood up. ''I'm just going to pop to the shop for some wine'' said Tilly. ''What? No?...'' Jen was interuppted. ''I'm kidding Jeeez, I'm going to get us some juice'' laughed Tilly. Jen jumped up and pushed Tilly lightly ''Dont do that again! Sit down I will get the drinks'' said Jen.

Both wanted nothing more than to be so close, kiss again it had felt like a lifetime. But neither wanted to make the first move. They cuddled up on the sofa whilst watching something on the TV. It made Jen not want to make a move even more when Tilly had brought up the idea of being friends but Jen agreed.

Ha yeah right! They both equally thought.