Hey you guys. This period is extra busy plus I had the flu pretty bad so I haven't been able to update my stories as soon as I would like to. But I will. And now here I am with chapter 4. Will and Clark's critical talk. Let's see what happens. A movie / book mixture. I just love them soooo much. Enjoy!
"But I can make you happy" she said.
"You know Clark"
"Yes. I know. And I thought that I could change your mind. Can I?"
And I am looking at her right now, so beautiful with tears in her eyes as she's sitting on my lap. And she's hoping for the answer she wants to hear. And I want to give her that answer. I want to answer yes. But all I can say is:
"I don't know Clark. Not because I don't love you. Because I do love you. So much"
"And I love you Will. So please, I don't want you to do ….."
And here it is . We just said that we love each other. We told each other the "I love you"
"Clark do you think I don't want to stay with you? There's nothing I want more. But oh God Clark, I don't want you to miss all the things that my condition, my inability won't let you enjoy"
"Will, the only thing I want to have and enjoy and the only thing I don't want ever to miss, the only thing I don't want ever to lose, is you…. You are not incapable. On the contrary. You are the most charming and capable man to me.. So don't you ever say that again. This chair does not define you"
"Oh Clark, I get that this can be a great life . But it's not….. I can't watch you wondering around the annex with your crazy dresses, or seeing you naked and not being able to do….. Oh God Clark, if you had any idea what I want to do to you right now. I can't live like this"
"Please, Will. Please . I have become a whole new person because of you. I don't want to be, to exist without you. You give my life meaning. You are my life meaning."
"You give my life meaning too Clark. You are my life meaning. And these months with you, this night tonight, it's the best time in my entire life. But….. the exhaustion, the thought of me getting worse…. I don't know Clark. But I know that I love you"
"So saying you don't know means that you are considering it. Maybe just a little? Is there a possibility to change your mind?"
"Yes. I am not sure anymore. Because I want to be with you. I love you. But maybe it would be better if someone else will give you what I can't"
"Oh Traynor, this is impossible. You give me everything and there would be never anyone else. Because you are everything to me"
I am looking at her and all I can think is how lucky I am that she loves me as much as I do.
"I love you Clark"
"And I love you Will. So please just consider to change your mind. I will help you. I will be with you"
"Clark, I want you to enjoy life, to live"
"Yes. I want that too Will. But that's only possible if you are with me. And I want you to enjoy life as well. Because you can enjoy life. Because you deserve it. This chair means nothing to me. And it should mean nothing to you as well"
"Clark….."
"Say no more Will…. Just say you'll consider it more"
"Okay"
"Really?"
"Yes, Clark. I will consider it more"
"Thank you Will"
"No, thank you Clark"
We are kissing and now we are heading back to our room. We are in bed with Clark holding me tight, both grabbing from the hope of our love. I have to decide. And I will….. soonnnnn"