AN: WORDS CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW SORRY I AM!
I know I haven't updated in over half a year and I'm so so so sorry, my summer was hectic and starting school was even more crazy since i was starting college and they expect a whole lot more out of you than high school. It's been a long time so i wont blame you if you have to go back and read the whole story again just to understand this chapter, I, not only read this story, but every story i have written in order to gain back the love and passion I had for writing which also inspired me to take part in NaNoWriMo (i didn't win but i had fun ;))
I deeply hope you could all forgive me and enjoy the chapter to the best of your ability (and the rest of the story if you have to go back and read it)
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The Conversation
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Without turning around I could just tell that Naruto had followed me from the lunch hall, I should have been happy at the fact but I was too blinded by anger to even consider smiling.
I shoved past people as I moved, increasing my speed so Naruto had to jog to keep up with my strides. "Sasuke, Sasuke slow down!" He called from behind me but I didn't acknowledge him, I just wanted to get as far away from everyone, especially Ino, as possible.
Eventually, I ended up outside of my next classroom, out of breath and still very angry. I wondered briefly if I should just skip English since I happened to share that class with Naruto as well but soon heard the footsteps and heavy breath approaching from behind and knew he would follow me even if I skipped.
Slinging my bag off of my shoulder, I stormed through the empty classroom and sat at a desk in the corner of the room thanking the teacher quickly in my head for not having a seating plan. Just as the bell rang for class, Naruto sauntered into the room and spotted me in an instant before he made his way over and sat in the seat beside me. With a frown on my face, I shuffled my chair as far away from Naruto as I could and cured my teacher for not having a seating plan.
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I could almost feel the anger radiate from Sasuke as I sat next to him. I almost felt bad for pushing him like I did but then I remembered what he said wasn't right, you don't need a reward for doing something nice for someone, you just do it because it's a good thing.
I turned to stare at his face as the teacher walked into the room, if that's what he thought then why did he always listen when Shino prattled on about his many insects, why did he always glare at the guys that would take second glances at Hinata when Kiba wasn't around, why would he, someone who seems to value grades and school, skip until lunch, twice, just to be better friends with Gaara? Had I misjudged him, was he seriously doing all of this just so he had group for the project?
A good 5 minutes into the lesson, I reached over and poked Sasuke in the ribs with my pen and hissed his name. He probably barely felt it with how tense he was but he sure as hell was not happy with the interruption as he sent me a glare that would have shut me up in an instant on a regular day, but this wasn't a regular day.
"Psst, Sasuke." 15 minutes into the lesson and 10 minutes into my poking and whispering, Sasuke had developed an eye twitch and our teacher frequently glanced over in our direction but didn't say anything. "Come one Sasuke, speak to me."
"Leave me alone Naruto, I don't want to speak to you, not now and not ever." He hissed back with a glare and despite his cold words, a playful pout formed on my lips, "but-"
"Uzumaki, if you do not stop bothering Mr Uchiha and listen to the class I'm going to have to ask you to leave." I hadn't even noticed that the teacher was standing in front of us two but after giving as swift nod, she walked away to continue teaching the rest of the class.
With a sigh, I leant back into my chair and spared a glance at Sasuke who was scribbling in the book furiously. I leant over and shuffled around in my bag before I found a pen and my notebook, which happened to be filled to the brim with both work and bored doodles.
I glanced at the teacher again before leaning closer to Sasuke and poking him in the said again, "hey, Sasuke, could you-"
"Naruto, I will not ask you again!" With a small jump I turned to face the front of the room where our teacher stood with a fierce glare clenching a book in her hands angrily.
Pouting slightly, I reached back into my bag and felt around for any loose papers that I could use for notes and pulled out a very familiar scrap of paper from underneath a textbook. Shooting a smirk in Sasuke's direction I unravelled the paper carefully and straighten it out best I could with the palm of my hand.
The 'How to be Social' list, I had no idea when Sasuke had handed it back to me or how it got in my bag but it was there and it was currently the only writable paper I had on me. With one last look at Sasuke I bent over and wrote a short message on the other side of the list and slyly slid it onto his table.
At first he didn't notice it, but when he went to turn the page in his note book the sheet fluttered to the floor. He looked up from his desk and reached to pick it up; flipping the paper in his hands he realised what it was with a scowl before focusing on my writing on the corner of the page.
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My eyes narrowed at every word I deciphered from Naruto's shitty hand writing
Sasuke, we need to talk –N
I rolled my eyes and placed the paper back on his desk without writing a reply.
Moments later the paper appeared again in my line of vision, this time however the words written were underlined heavily in pen.
Giving an angry sigh I wrote down a quick reply
Leave me alone, Naruto, there's nothing to talk about –S
Passing the paper back I bent back over my table and began writing again. Not long after the paper was back in my face and I almost growled in annoyance.
Yes there is, why won't you help Shikamaru? –N
I looked up at Naruto from the sheet and saw him mindlessly twirling his pen in his hand as his eyes flickered between me and the teacher sitting at her desk in the front of the classroom. With a helpless sigh I began to write, I know Naruto was never going to give up so I may as well prove my point.
Why should I help him? What would I gain from that? He's a stranger to me Naruto, that's neither worth the trouble nor the effort –S
My response seemed to anger the blond because in an instant the sheet was crumpled in his hand and he turned to face me angrily. He wanted to shout at me, I could tell but he couldn't and I wouldn't let him because I had done nothing wrong. I've made it this far by caring about myself and myself only, I don't need Naruto now telling me how I should live.
Naruto grit his teeth and turned back to the sheet, he smoothed out the new wrinkles with his hand before he began to write a very long winded reply that took around 5 minutes of contemplating and erasing to finally produce a long messy paragraph. Picking up the sheet from my desk I began to read
You don't gain anything Sasuke; you do it because it's the right thing to do. Someone is coming to you for help and the only thing you can think of is what you can gain from it? Is that seriously how you're thinking and if so is that how you thought of Shino, Hinata and Gaara? As something you could gain? When you became their friend did you not think of their feelings, your own feelings? Or was this all just a sick game to you? –N
I jumped out of my seat and glared at him, letting the paper flutter to the floor, "that's not true and you know it!"
"Is something the matter, Mr Uchiha?" The teacher's cold voice rang out through the classroom making me slowly sink back into my chair, my eyes never leaving Naruto as he calmly picked up the fallen sheet and began to write on it once again. He was done soon enough and passed the paper back to me without making eye contact.
Eventually, I was able to tear my eyes away from his face long enough to read what was written on the paper
Do I know it though Sasuke? Really? I don't even know who you are right now because the Sasuke I knew was never this heartless. –N
My hands clenched, effectively turning the paper into a crumpled mess once more as I grit my teeth, Naruto was right, I didn't even recognise who I was anymore, ever since this whole group project thing came about I'd been changing and I didn't know what to do and all these new feelings I was experiencing were making me so confused.
"Why do you even care?" I hissed, venom dripping from my every word as I threw the paper back at him. I couldn't take it anymore, he didn't bother replying and the silence was drowning me, it was too much to handle.
Before the bell could ring properly, my stuff was in my bag and I was out of the door of the classroom, I couldn't bear to face Naruto now, I didn't want to see the disappointment in his eyes.
"Just one more lesson Sasuke," I whispered to myself as I strode down the hall, "just one more lesson and you could be out of here."
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I watched in silence as Sasuke basically fled the classroom, the pen in my hand fell to the table and the paper on my desk sat their taunting me with the three words Sasuke would never get to read.
With a huff I stuffed the paper and the pen into my pockets, picked up my bag and left the classroom.
"Don't cry, Naruto, just one more lesson left." Despite my whispered reassurances, I could still feel the familiar prickle on my eyes.
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School was over, but the drama wasn't ready to end yet as the group of people obviously waiting for me at the gate told me.
A scowl was set on my face as I approached them, I knew what they were going to tell me, so I decided to cut to the chase.
"I know what you're all going to say." I was so sick of being told what to do and what to say, I was just so sick of trying to please these people, and I don't give a shit."
"Shikamaru's problem is none of my business and yet you're going to tell me to help him, I know nothing about the guy and yet you're going to tell me to care and when I refuse to have anything to do with it you're going to call me selfish; well news flash, I am selfish! I've been selfish my whole life and I still don't understand why I have to change who I am to please other people. This is why I've gone all these years as a loner, because I like being by myself, I like doing things for me and only me. I don't need you to boss me around, the only reason I talk to any of you is because I need you for a group project in History not because I like you."
Jaws dropped and eyes widened as I finally revealed the truth, people walking past stopped just to listen in on the drama, "and you know what?" I continued, "I'm so done trying to be someone I'm not just to please all of you I'm done with this whole friendship fiasco and now ask you all kindly to stay the fuck away from me."
Without a second thought I walked past the group of people I once called 'friends', I walked past all the smiles and laughs and jokes that had occurred in this brief space of two weeks. Who cares about my history grades and who cares about feelings? I just want to be alone, because that's where I know I'll be happiest.
"Sasuke wait," A hand grabbed at my wrist and I was spun around to face Naruto who looked so desperate for me to change my mind, "you can't just-"
"I can and I did." Wrenching my wrist from his grasp I placed my hands firmly on his chest and pushed, he stumbled back a few steps and the look on his face after almost had me doubting myself, almost.
"You were right Naruto, you don't know me, no one knows me and no one will ever know me but me, so stay away from me."
I walked home that day and I didn't dare look back.
Review Replies:
phantomlady13: I can't wait for it to happen either... if it ever does :'(
berry5tz: You hit the nail right on the head my friend shit is getting real right now and what can i say, Sasuke's an emotional being. Thank you! Although i think my update is much more belated (TT_TT)
Uzumaki Naho: I hope you still mean that statement because this took aaaaages, it makes me sad when i end my fics, like my babies are all grown up :'( but honestly i think this has a good 5-6 more chapter left in it so dont be sad yet! That's very true, they're not cute at all in the anime but fanfiction always makes them seem so perfect together.
hikora: Hey... better late than never right (^_^)
Lady Spain: Thank you very much, I'll try and update more frequently :D
falsedfaith691: Here it is! A bit late but still here! Hope you like it X)
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