Rey didn't feel the cold wind, the icy rain seemed to have disappeared. There was no sky, there were no trees; there was only Kylo. His arms encircled her waist, pulling her body closer to his. She could feel his muscles beneath his thick clothing. His lips were soft, warm against hers.
"Stop!" the voice in her head screamed. "What the hell are you doing?"
Rey responded by deepening the kiss. Kylo pulled away for a moment, grinning.
"I thought you wanted to kill me?" he asked.
"Shut up," Rey snarled. "I'm done listening to you talk."
Kylo leaned forward, kissing Rey's neck gently. "Fine by me," he whispered. Then he began to suck, leaving a bruise that Rey knew would be impossible to hide. She heard herself sigh. Kylo pulled off his gloves, throwing them in to the mud. Drawing her back to him, he stuck his hand her pants and gently began to rub. Then he stuck his finger inside, making Rey moan with pleasure. She came with a shudder, her anger melting away. Kylo pulled back. He lowered himself to the ground, pulling Rey down on top of him. Caught up in the moment, Rey removed her shirt before yanking Kylo's over his head. His skin felt like fire. Suddenly, she was overcome with emotion. Being with Kylo again was amazing but she knew it would only bring her more heartache. She'd missed him but neither of them had changed, this moment couldn't last forever. Sooner or later, they'd be enemies again.
Doing her best to hold back tears Rey began to work down Kylo's chest, leaving a trail of kisses in her wake. Pushing her thoughts aside, she wrenched his cock free of his pants. She leaned forward and licked it before taking it in her mouth.
"Oh fuck Rey" Kylo whined, reaching forward to pull her hair. "Fuck." He continued to moan as Rey kept sucking.
Glancing up, Rey found she wasn't the only one struggling with the emotional reunion. Tears slid down Kylo's cheeks. His cries and moans seemed to be more out of pain than pleasure. Rey got up and pulled Kylo to his feet. She lowered her pants and bent over, leaning on a nearby tree.
"Come on," she begged. "Bend me over like you did before."
Kylo didn't look at her. "Rey, I don't think we should do this." He sighed. "It's too hard."
"I need this, Kylo. One last time." She wiped tears from her own eyes. "A real goodbye. Then I'll finally be able to let you go."
Kylo came up behind her. "I'll never be able to let you go," he whispered. Then he was inside her. He began to thrust, slowly at first, then faster. Rey began to cry again. What she'd said to Kylo was a lie. She knew she'd never be over him. And she certainly couldn't kill him. She'd always love Kylo, even after all he'd done. The pain of losing him would never go away.
Suddenly, Kylo groaned. He collapsed against Rey for just a moment before withdrawing. Feeling empty, Rey reached down and yanked up her pants. Kylo did the same, dressing quickly before handing Rey her discarded shirt. She pulled it on.
"Thanks," she said awkwardly.
"Don't mention it." Kylo stared at his feet. "Well, I guess I'd better go. My ship is parked in the woods."
"All right. So, I uh, I guess this is goodbye then." Rey choked back another sob. She wouldn't let herself cry in front of him again. It could wait.
"I guess so." He hesitated. "Rey I… I just wanted you to know that I'll never stop thinking about you. I'll always love you, no matter what."
"You made your choice Kylo." Reys voice was cold as steel. "Goodbye. For good this time." She began to walk, then broke into a run. She left the clearing without looking back, then kept running. Her lungs burned, tears streamed down her cheeks. Reaching the tree where she and Kylo had spent so many hours training, she sank to the ground. She knew this wasn't the last goodbye. As long as she and Kylo were alive, this game would never be over.