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Story 6: It Was A Mistake-

It was just after Leonard had found out Penny and Raj had slept together. He was distraught, he didn't think 2 people who meant so much to him could hurt him as much as they had. Leonard needed to get away from Sheldon's whining about having an unexpected house guest in the form of Penny, so he took himself somewhere he hoped no one would find him but not so far that he would have to drive. He'd been drinking the night before and still wasn't 100% sober.

He routed through his cupboards before he left his apartment and, surprisingly, found a full bottle of vodka right at the back. Instinctively, he grabbed it and headed for the door; 'this may take the edge off' He thought... 'Or maybe not'. Sheldon didn't look up from his comic book as he left which made life easier for Leonard. Without thinking Leonard climbed the stairs heading to the roof whilst taking a sip of the vodka in his hand.

Leonard was sat on the roof, back against the wall going around it, the vodka in hand, it wasn't his usual drink but these were extenuating circumstances. Penny, his amazing Penny, slept with his best friend Raj! And to make matters worse for Leonard his girlfriend, Priya, had just announced she was moving back to India.

He had come up to the roof to get away from everyone, he didn't want to talk to anyone, he just wanted to be alone.

He sat against the wall at the side of the roof looking up at the stars, he started to think about the events of the day, the worst day of his life... But not because his girlfriend was leaving but because Penny wasn't his anymore. She didn't belong to him like she once did and that hurt Leonard more than anything else in the whole world.

Suddenly, he broke down. He started to cry more than he ever had, tears rolling down the sides of his face. Leonard felt conscious even though he was alone. He took a gulp of the vodka before bring his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them and resting his head on his arms wetting his sleeve with the tears.

When Penny had seen Leonard on the couch looking at her and Raj she instantly knew she had broken him. The night with Raj was a mistake, but one she had to live with. The way Leonard looked at her made her heart break, why did he have to be there? Why did anyone have to be there

As soon as she had said the words "It's not what it looks like" she ran back over to her apartment, as soon as her door shut she let the tears fall. She thought one of the 4 boys would come knocking on her door at some point during the day so she planned on going to somewhere where she wouldn't be found for a while... But first she needed a shower.

Penny was in and out of the shower in a matter of minutes. She blow-dried her hair so it wavy and put on a pair of red jeans, a white t-shirt and a grey jacket. She walked into her kitchen, grabbed the first bottle of wine she saw and started her walk up to the roof, she was short of money at the moment so she didn't want to take her car anywhere just in case she ran out of gas.

Slowly, she dragged herself up the stairs and placed her hand on the door handle that led to the roof. Something was telling her not to open it, but she shrugged it off and pushed on the handle.

When Leonard heard the door creak open he didn't raise his head, he knew exactly who it would be. Penny took a step forward before she saw a curled up broken boy in front of her.

Penny's heart stopped, she felt like crying again. "Leonard" she whispered taking a step closer before stopping again. Still no reaction from Leonard. "Leonard I'm so sorry." Penny told him still stood a few meters from him.

A lump in Penny's throat started to appear and her once dry eyes turned into wet ones. Tears fell from them to the floor. "Leonard, please talk to me, I'm sorry."

She started to walk towards him, feeling like she was going to be swallowed up by the floor as she did, when she reached him she let her self fall to her knees before him.

"Leonard, please talk to me." Leonard didn't move, he stayed curled up in a ball, he sniffed up and more tears fell. This made Penny cry even more. "I'm so sorry" she told him again. Penny was afraid to touch him but figured it was the only way to make contact as he wouldn't talk to her.

Slowly, she moved her right hand from her thigh to the back of his head, she ran her fingers through his curls and ran them down to the back of his neck. After stroking his neck she moved her fingers to the back of his hair once more. She gently pulled on his curls, not hurting him but making him raise his head so they could look into each others eyes.

Leonard brought his head up and looked into Penny's tear filled eyes. "Leonard," Penny started to talk but his name was the only thing on her lips, nothing else would come. She didn't know what else to say so, with her fingers still wrapped in his curls, she leaned forward and rested her forehead against his.

Leonard didn't pull away. Penny moved her hand to she side of his face whilst Leonard clenched his teeth which made his jawline would be more predominant.

"How could you do that to me Penny? With my best friend? Why?"

"Leonard I was drunk, you know I would never do anything to hurt you, please Leonard... Forgive me?"

Leonard paused before he started to speak "I don't know if I can."

Penny inhaled sharply, she didn't expect Leonard to say that. She removed her hand and forehead from him but carried on looking into his eyes. She tried to speak "Leonard-"

"No Penny, you can't just expect to do something like this then just say you're sorry and everything will be back to normal!" Leonard got angry.

Penny was shocked, she didn't think Leonard would get as angry as he did. She felt she needed to defend herself... "With all due respect Leonard, it has absolutely nothing to do with you as to who I sleep with or when I choose to do it. Anyway, you have a girlfriend so I don't see the big problem!"

Leonard's voice started to get louder and louder. "You don't see the big problem?" Louder... "You don't see the big problem? The big problem is that the girl that I'm in love with has just slept with my best friend in my own bed! That's the big problem!" Leonard had realised what he had blurted out and buried his head back into his arms.

Penny's jaw dropped open. "You love me?" No answer. "You still love me?" She asked again.

"Of course I still love you, I don't know why though because all you do it hurt me time after time!" Tears falling from his eyes once more.

"I don't mean to hurt you Leonard, you know that!" Penny pleaded with him to understand.

Leonard didn't move but said to Penny "Please just leave me alone, I don't want to talk to anyone."

"Leonard I'm not leaving you like this!" Penny argued. Leonard didn't reply but instead lifted his head up and took a sip of the vodka that was next to him. Penny knew he wasn't going to reply to her anytime soon so she moved herself so she was sat right next to him leaning on the wall behind her, she placed her arm around his neck and pulled him into her.

Leonard didn't pull away, he didn't tell her to stop, he just let her do what she wanted to do. As she pulled to his neck he let go of his knees but kept his hands over his eyes so she was unable to see him. Penny made sure Leonard felt secure with her so she put his head underneath her chin and moved her left hand so it was around his waist.

Penny, who was still crying, reached her left hand to the side of Leonard's face. "Leonard, can you look at me? Just for a second?"

After this Leonard, tentatively, moved his hands from his eyes and looked into Penny's. She spoke again... "I love you too Leonard, I-" A text tone interrupted Penny's discussion with Leonard. She didn't know wether to read it or just leave it, she knew Leonard had heard the text tone but wasn't sure if he had acknowledged it.

"Just read it." Leonard told her in a crokey tone of voice.

Penny did what he said, she pulled her phone out of her phone pocket and clicked 'read'. It was from Raj and read:

'Hi Penny, I don't know if you remember last night but I just wanted to let you know that, we didn't have sex in the conventional way... I had trouble putting the condom on and you tried helped me and... That was all she wrote. Sorry again, I hope we can still be friends! Love Raj x'

Penny let out a huge sigh of relief and whispered under her breath "Oh thank God"

Leonard looked up at Penny wondering what was happening. "What?" He asked, tears still falling from his eyes.

Penny let out a small relieved smile, "Me and Raj didn't sleep together Leonard, look..." Penny showed Leonard her phone screen with the text on it. "I know it doesn't make up for what I did but you have to know if I could take it back I would! If I could go back to the night you told me you loved me I would have said it back because now I know what losing you really feels like, and I just can't take it Leonard. I love you"

"I don't even care anymore Penny, all I care about is that you're not mine anymore! Did you know that Priya's moving back to India? And not one tear that I've cried today is for her? They're all for you! I really couldn't give a shit that she's leaving, to be honest I'm glad because that means I can see you again! But then you had to go and do this, sleep with my best friend! I mean what the fuck, who does that?! All you do is break my heart time after time Penny and I'm sick of it! You either love me or you don't! You either want me or you don't! I want you to decide, now! I don't know if I can't be friends with you anymore Penny, I can't be around you knowing you don't feel the same way anymore. It's all... Or nothing."

She looked closely into his eyes, she already knew what she was going to do... She took her right hand and placed it on his cheek. Slowly, she moved her head more towards his and stopped just before she reached his lips.

"I want you Leonard, only you." She said before their lips touched, Leonard had made the final move and moved his mouth onto hers.

After a few seconds of a tentative kiss Leonard pulled away and placed his hands around her waist. "Forever this time, ok?"

"Forever and ever." Penny replied with a smile before leaning in once more.

Argh, was this really bad? Please review... I know it's not my best but it'll do!