The following day things are getting interesting. We signed up to go on a field trip. I am more than grateful needing out of this place. The only person not coming is Cartman. He got in trouble for arguing with one of the other patients and causing them to have an episode or something. He knows how to push people's buttons so I am not surprised by this at all.
We are sitting on the bus and it takes me back to school. I am sitting next to Kyle with Kenny behind us. Kyle takes my hand as the bus becomes a bit bumpy. I start smiling as it feels like his hand is giving me life.
We are going to an Aquarium. I have never been, making me feel like a kid on the first day of school. We all climb out with nurses doing a head count. We have to stay in groups of five. Lucky for me we are all together and with nurse Becky. Becky is super cool. Rachael is nice but there is something different about Becky.
"Alright, I want us to start in the fish tank section and work our way around" said Becky. "We can spread out a little but don't go too far. Stay in front of me where I can see you."
"Can do!" grinned Kenny. Becky smirks at him before turning her attention to the other two patients with us. I recall one of the guy name being Daniel and a girl name Celia who likes to be called Cece.
"I am glad we got to get out today" said Kyle. "I can picture Cartman all pissed off back at the hospital." He starts laughing and I join him.
"You know he is but he needs to learn not to provoke people. He hasn't shared his results either. Do you think they found him to be crazy?" Kyle is looking inside the fish tank.
"I doubt it. He is still in the hall with us. They haven't moved him to be locked up. I doubt he would tell us the truth anyway."
"Is doc having your parents come in for a group session?" I ask curiously. Kyle looks at me.
"No"
"Shit" I hiss. "He wants my family to come in for a group session. I don't want that at all. I mean mom, dad, and Shelly are okay but sometimes we are all in room it can get kind of weird." Kyle knows what I am talking about since he stays over for dinner a lot with the sleep overs.
"It will be okay if he does have them here. I mean maybe this is part of your treatment or something."
"There is nothing for him to treat Kyle. I feel like he is already treating me like some depressed alcoholic already."
"Sometimes doctors think they know you better than you know yourself. Trust me you are not an alcoholic and you are not depressed. Even with everything that has happened to us. I am surprised I am not depressed." I nod in agreement. "I think it is because you have been helping me a lot." Kyle takes a deep breath and I can sense he thinking of something deep.
"What is it?" I ask continuing out walk. I turn around to see that Kenny is flirting with Becky. He would try to get at someone he has no chance with.
"It's nothing" he says nervously. "I wish we could have field trips like this at school."
I laugh. "Fat chance. Sometimes I feel like they don't care to bring us culture. You think after that crap with Principal PC they would have learned." I wonder what he was going to say. I know he was thinking about something serious. It's not like him to not share with me. I decide to not push the issue. We get to a bigger room that is taking us to the next section. We continue to walk and chit chat until it is time for lunch.
"How is this being paid for?" asked Kyle.
"Don't worry this is included in your stay" said Becky.
"Aw" replied Kenny. "I thought you were treating us." Becky smirks but doesn't say anything. Kenny turns his attention to us. "How are you guys doing?"
"Everything is fine" replied Kyle picking up his chicken sandwich. "It's so peaceful right now."
"Yeah no Cartman" laughed Kenny. He goes back to eating his French fry. "You think they are going to lock him away?"
"We were talking about that early" I said before taking a sip of my sprite.
"Well I for one am waiting for Cartman to implode. You know deep down he is control freak." I could not agree with Kenny more. We finish our lunch and get back to touring all the many fishes. Kenny stops Becky when he notices a mini theater.
"Hey, can we go in there?" he asked. Becky reads the poster. It is only a 30 minute short film about sharks.
"That looks really cool" she said. "Daniel, Cece, would you like to see the movie?"
"It's whatever" said Daniel.
"Yay!" cheered Cece clapping her hands together.
"Let me go and check on times for the movie." Becky walks over to this little booth. I don't really care to see a movie about sharks. I would prefer we continue walking. I sit enough at the hospital as it is. Becky walks back over. It plays on a loop. We can go ahead inside.
"Can we sit anywhere we want or do we have to sit together?" asked Kyle.
"You can sit anywhere you like as long as I can see you" said Becky. We walked into the small theater. Kyle and I picked seats in the center. Kenny sits with Becky while Cece takes the front row while Daniel sits a couple of seats down from her. "We have 5 minutes until it starts."
Kyle leans a little close to me making me feel all fuzzy inside. I finally dawned on me that we were about to be in a dark area in close quarters. I swallow my nervousness reminding myself this is like any other time we would go to the movies. The screen lights up with the first scene being a sharks teeth as if we were being eaten.
"Jesus" said Kyle. "Are they trying to give us heart attacks."
"Probably trying to make it seem cool for little kids" I laughed. I focus on the screen as the voice starts to narrate. Kyle's hand grazed mine causing a slight shiver to go through me. Maybe I do love him, is this what love feels like? I have never been in love before. I mean Wendy was cool but it didn't feel like this. With her I got nervous and would throw up. This here I feel like my heart is always in my throat, Kyle touching me I always notice right away with a shiver or pleasure of some kind. That is the best way I can explain it. I take a deep breath trying to calm my nerves.
We hovered over holding hands it seems for the reminder of the film. It's not like we needed to or anything it just felt that way to me. I fought not to grab his hand. It kept touching mine. I was starting to wonder if he was doing it on purpose. The rest of the field trip was nice but it did tire me out with all the walking. On the way back to the hospital Kyle and I feel asleep.
"Hey" said Kenny. "We're back." He pushed my head forward.
"Dude, the fuck?" I said agitated.
"Language" said Becky. "We are back. Let's go and get you all settled in. Dinner will be in another hour. I am sure you all are hungry again at this point."
"No kidding" said Kenny rubbing his tummy.
"You're always hungry" said Kyle sleepy. We all stood up and made our way off the bus. We got checked in the same way we did when we first got here. I swear I will never go to jail. Not ever. We headed towards our rooms.
"Hey" whispered Kenny. "That Becky chick is totally digging me."
"How do you even know?" I asked curiously as I stuff my hands in my pockets.
"Are you serious? All the time she spent with me today. I could see it in her eyes man. She wants me to totally fuck her."
"How can you be thinking about sex at a time like this?" asked Kyle bewildered.
"How can you not?" replied Kenny. We walked into the rec area seeming as we have to pass it to get to our rooms. "Well hello there."
"Who are you talking to Kenny?" I asked.
"That pretty brunette. She was not here before." I followed Kenny gaze and he was right. Some new girl was in the room. She was sitting in the mini library section. Kenny walked over to her as Kyle and I proceeded to our rooms.
"You want to hang out in your room or mine?"
"Doesn't matter but I prefer my room. I like the way the sun shines in during this time. Makes my room super bright and makes me feel like I am on the beach."
"Really? That sounds pretty good about right now. Seeming how we could have actually been at a beach right now." We head into Kyle's room and close the door. I pull out some paper to start drawing some random shit while Kyle as usual is reading. It feels a little tense in here but it could just be me. I keep stealing glances of him here and there. Kyle catches me and I quickly avert my gaze back to my drawing.
"Stan" I look him but before he could get another word out Kenny burst through the door. Kyle put his book down looking at Kenny. "You could at least knock."
"This couldn't wait" said Kenny. "We know that brunette girl I was talking to. She's your ex Rebecca." I felt my face hit the floor. I glanced at Kyle to read his face, he is just as baffled as me.
"What is she doing?"
"She wouldn't tell me. I do know she has to be here for 3 months." I felt bad for her. I don't even want to be here for the 30 days we have to do. Kyle stood up.
"I am going to go talk to her."
"About what?" I asked. "You haven't spoke to her in years."
"We talk here and there on facebook. You would know that if you had one." I roll my eyes.
"Facebook is the devil" I state. "How come you never told me you were talking to her."
"It's not important" he shrugged. "I'll be right back." He walks out the door. Kenny is looking at me.
"What?"
"Nothing. You two have something going on?" Leave it to Kenny to get right to the point. I know I was blushing but I tried not to focus on that.
"No way. We are just hanging out like we always do."
"Yeah, you guys are hanging out about the same but you look at him differently." Kenny leaned in the doorway crossing his arms.
"What do you mean?" I asked wanting to know what was giving me away.
"It's something I can't explain. You have been become more protective of him. The look you give him is more longing or pining maybe. I am not sure but something has changed."
"The only thing that has changed is we are stuck in this god awful place." I snap standing up.
"Where are you going?" asked Kenny.
"To my fucking room" I said. I feel bad for blowing up on him but I don't even understand my own feelings or what is even going on here. Kyle never came back to the room. I walk with Kenny to the lunchroom. Cartman is still being punished and is not even there. I look for Kyle and he has the nerve to try and sit with Rebecca. What the fuck is this shit?
Rebecca has an aid with her. The aid says something to Kyle and he walks away from the table to sit with us.
"You find out why she is here?" asked Kenny with a full mouth. He will never learn, chew with your mouth close.
"Yes but I am not telling you. If she wanted you to know she would have told you."
"How nice of you to join us" I say with a little venom in my voice.
"I wanted to sit with Rebecca but her aid or whatever, the aid wouldn't let me. Stan, are you mad at me?"
"I'm not mad" I lie. "I am just tired and cranky or whatever." Kyle rolls his eyes before focus on his food. I don't know why but I don't want him talking to Rebecca. What if they start dating again? He really should not be in a relationship given his current state. I wonder if I should even go into his room tonight? I know I will because he needs me and I will help him no matter what.