Sadly Beautiful
Thanks to everyone who enjoyed the last chapters and thank you for being patient with the Alice/Bella situation. I'm making sure to add dreams and slight teasing but I promise the real 'stuff' will happen soon. If you'd please review, favourite, follow etc. I love reading them and it makes it feel like it's worth writing this story. I'd just like to point out that I'll be try and make sure that there are no grammar or spelling mistakes in the stories from this point. I decided that it was time to add some 'action' between Bella and Alice that wasn't a dream but it's just a taste of things to come.
Oh and if anyone was wondering, I name my chapters after songs I like at that moment that vaguely link with the chapter. So if you see a chapter called 'Gangam style' or something then you know why, kidding of course but don't read too much into the chapter names.
Once again dedicated to Jaz. This chapter is more for you than the last ones, I made sure to include things that I know you wanted to see and have tried my absolute hardest writing this. I really hope you enjoy, your opinion means so much to me, especially on these stories so I really hope you like it. The lesbian action that I know you can't wait to see is coming, patience haha.
I hope everyone reading this enjoys.
Chapter three - The fear
I climbed onto the plush leather seats with an apprehensive feeling. I'd agreed to a 'girls' day out with someone I'd never spoken to, who I was pretty confident loved shopping, which I hated. Regardless of this, I was excited and couldn't wait to get away from the crowds of people so it would be just the two of us.
I know it was stupid and that she would probably never feel the same way about me but I hoped, like a girl in love I hoped. I was confident in this thought, I did love Alice... Perhaps I'd known this from the moment I'd seen her and didn't want to allow myself to think this because of what it meant. I was a lesbian.
I was sitting here thinking to myself that I loved someone I'd never spoken to, how did my life come to this? Although this is stupid and I know it is, it feels right. For the first time since I'd seen her, I felt a sense of peace, almost like the realisation that I loved her had gotten rid of all the stress I'd been feeling for the past few days. I'd never thought about another girl like this but I guess I'd just been waiting for the right person to come along, to meet my Alice... My Alice, I liked that.
Of course I was getting ahead of myself, just because I knew how I felt didn't in anyway mean that she felt the same way and I felt worry and sadness creeping upon me. I quickly silenced these worries, trying to focus on enjoying the rest of the day before I went to my room and cried myself to sleep at the rejection I'd just given myself in my mind.
"So Alice, what made you decide to do this?" I asked nervously.
She laughed and looked at me, "I just wanted to get to know you better Bella, I think we could be good friends Bella." Her voice was soft and sweet. I was probably imagining it but I heard an edge creep into her voice on the word 'good.' I was probably imagining it but I still wondered what it meant.
I laughed and smiled at her, "I'm sure we can Alice, I like you already." She beamed at this, her smile of course made me smile. When she was happy I was happy. "So what's the plan for today then Alice?"
She smiled sweetly at me, "Well I thought we could do some clothes shopping and then get a meal or something?" I gulped when she mentioned shopping.
"Uuh Alice I don't know about clothes shop"
She cut me off, holding a finger to my lips. Her fingers were icy cold and felt fucking amazing against my skin, I felt myself growing uncomfortable even with this brief contact. Imagine how I'd feel if her lips were pressed against mine, for real not in a dream.
"Bella, you're already in the car. As far as I'm concerned you're mine." The same edge crept into her voice and I shivered at the thought of me being hers. The strange thing was, I liked the thought of belonging to her.
"Alright Alice you're the boss, I'm yours." I tried to imitate the edge that she put into her voice, I'm sure I didn't do it justice but it's the thought that counts. Her huge grin got even bigger and I couldn't help but flash her the same smile, although I'm sure it looked better on her, most things would.
She pulled out of the parking lot, ignoring the crowd of people gathered around the car and began to speed down the road. She really was speeding, I peeked at the speedometer and it was itching past 110.
"Don't agree with the speed limits?" I commented dryly.
"Of course not silly, they're only there for people who don't have porches." She winked as she said this and I couldn't help giggling at her childishness. She reached over and turned on her i-pod, the car was filled with classical music and I couldn't help feeling completely relaxed.
"I hope you don't mind, I like listening to music while I drive." She gave me a warm smile as she said this.
"Alice it's your car, you can do whatever you want." I smiled to myself, maybe I was pushing it now but maybe she felt the same way. No don't let yourself hope, just enjoy the day out. She started chuckling but didn't comment.
We continued in silence for the rest of the journey but it wasn't an awkward silence, we were both just content to sit there and listen to the beautiful music. When we finally arrived in Port Angeles I was feeling extremely relaxed, probably not the best mood to be in before a shopping trip but I couldn't help myself, the music was just too incredible.
Before we got out of the car, I had to ask what the song was called. "Alice, I don't recognise the piece, what's it called?" I asked shyly.
"I hadn't named it, do you like it though?" She replied nonchalantly.
I gaped at her, "You made this!? Alice you're absolutely incredible, this is perfect." She chuckled at me and climbed out of the car, opening my door a few seconds later. She wrapped her arm around mine and pulled me gently along, I wasn't sure if this was to keep me from running or just a gesture of friendship.
"So Bella, where should we start?" She didn't wait for an answer and grinned mischievously at me before pulling me into a random store and began throwing clothes at me. I gasped and tried to complain but she wasn't hearing any of it. She pointed to the changing room and gestured for me to go and change. I pouted, hoping she'd change her mind.
She walked up to me and held out her arms like she was going to take the clothes from me but at the last second grabbed me by the waist and dragged me to the changing rooms. "Bella, I'm not moving until you've tried all the clothes on!"
This continued for a few hours until we finally stopped. I was weighed down from the bags of shopping I was carrying and my stomach was growling loudly. Alice looked at me and looked apologetic, "I'm sorry Bella, we'll go and get food now."
"Thanks Alice, I've had a lot of fun tonight even if I put up a fuss, can I quickly stop at a bookstore before we eat?" She shrugged so I gently grabbed her cold hand to an almost empty bookstore.
I started looking through the shelves, trying to find something I liked. I made my way to the back and we were surrounded by shelves of books, the women behind the counter counted see us and we couldn't see her.
I spotted Bram Stoker's Dracula on a shelf above me, I reached for it but couldn't quite reach it. "Uh Alice I know you're smaller than me but if I give you a boost can you grab Dracula for me?" She smiled and made her way towards me.
She walked towards me and stood in front of me, waiting. I tentatively wrapped my arms around her waist and lifted her as high as I could. She started giggling and grabbed the book, she leaned over to hand it to me and stiffened. Her eyes seemed to darken and she edged closer to me.
She started growling, "Bella... My Bella, the things I could do to you." Just like my dream she coiled into a crouch, this time she didn't wait and jumped at me, knocking me backwards. I landed roughly on the floor and Alice was on top of me, straddling me.
She leaned in and roughly kissed my face, her tongue trying to force entry but I was too shocked to comply. She leaned back, "Bella you're mine, you'll do exactly what I want." She growled angrily.
I tried to stand up but she roughly forced me down, snarling and growling angrily. I'd had dreams of this and played this situation in my head countless times, and now I'm trying to fight it? I felt my resolve crumble and she leaned back into me.
Her lips crushed into mine again, my mouth fell open and her tongue took the opportunity to enter my mouth. Her tongue gently caressed mine and I felt a moan leave my lips, she only growled in response.
Her lips left mine and planted soft kisses on my neck before reaching my pulse point, she quickly sucked it and another small moan left my mouth and again she only growled in reply. Her hands traveled down my body and landed roughly on my breasts, I couldn't help the whimper that left my mouth.
"Take the top off now!" She hissed at me. I reached for the buttons with shaking hands but I couldn't undo them, she growled in frustration and ripped the shirt from my body, leaving me in a bra, which she quickly tore away. I tried to cover myself but she roughly grabbed my wrists and pinned them either side of me.
Alice's pressed her tiny body against mine and slipped a thigh between mine and start rubbing it against me, I moaned again but was silenced by her mouth furiously attacking mine. Before I could stop myself I cupped her arse and pulled her closer to me.
She mover her hands closer to my chest but suddenly stiffened out, falling on top of me. I looked into her eyes worried but I was met with a blank stare, I was really starting to worry now. She relaxed and smiled at me before she stood up and handed me my shirt, I was confused by what had happened but then I realised. She didn't want me...
Rejection flooded through me and I almost broke down into tears but the look on her face stopped me. She looked just as upset as I was.
"Bella, I don't know what came over me, I'm so so sorry. Please forgive me?" I smiled at her and gestured for us to leave, not trusting my voice to not betray the hurt I was feeling.
"Alice, do you mind if we just skip dinner tonight, I'm not really feeling up to it tonight." I mumbled awkwardly. She just nodded at me and opened the car door for me. She climbed into her side a second later and we sped off. The speedometer slipped past 140 but I didn't comment, at least I was getting home faster.
She dropped me off and I waved goodbye, holding bags and bags of clothes that I hadn't wanted and was too disgusted to look at now. I called goodnight to Charlie and trudged upstairs, dumping my bags on my floor and climbing into bed, not bothering to change.
I lay there for a few minutes before the tears came, I cried until I was sure I had no tears left. Then I cried some more. I'm not sure how long this went on for but I eventually managed to get to sleep.
I dreamt of Alice, again.
I hope you all enjoyed that chapter and I hope I wasn't too fast paced with the Bella/Alice action. I'm trying to make this a long story but I didn't want to go too long without at least some 'affection' between the two of them. If you enjoyed or have any suggestions please review/favourite etc. I'll probably try and do one chapter a day, maybe less depending on my mood.
I tried to include some 'sexy possessive growling' for you Jaz, I hope you enjoyed and that your auditions went well, you deserve to do great :).