I fell asleep and didn't wake until I heard Kyle's mom outside his door. "Kyle" she called. Shit. I ran to the closet and shut the door while Kyle stumbled out of bed. He opened the door with his curly red hair flying everywhere.
"What?" he asked.
"Your brother is going school shopping. Would you like to come?"
"Not today" replied Kyle. "I'm still really tired."
"Okay then. Your father will be with us so call us if you need anything." She closes the door and Kyle locks it. I come out of the closet relieved we didn't get busted.
"You sleep well?" I ask not knowing what else to say. He looks at me and blushes. Something tells me he is thinking about what we did half way through the night. I walk over to him and he starts backing away. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I just think you are with me for the wrong reasons. I don't want my first experiences to be with someone who isn't my boyfriend." This is not panning out like how I thought. I run my hand through my hair.
"Kyle, I love you. I have just recently come to terms with it. I don't know if I am gay or not but I know I love you. Isn't that good enough?"
"See! I knew something was different with you!" Kyle sits down on his bed putting his face into his hands. I go and sit next to him.
"I didn't realize I was in love with you until Dr. Harrington suggested it."
Kyle looked up. "You talked to Dr. Harrington about me?"
"Of course. He just said how the nurses noticed we were always together or whatever. We are always together so it was no big deal to me. I did tell him how I regret convincing you to get in the car that night."
Kyle smiles. "I know you do but I made the choice to get in that car. You have been a great support system during this whole ordeal." I nodded noticing he never responded to my love confession.
"How do you feel about me loving you?"
"I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know?" I say now agitated.
Kyle looked down at his feet and sighed. He looked back up at me. "Your confused. I can't get excited about what happened. It will hurt me later down the line." I pull Kyle in for a kiss. He pulls back. "That is not helping."
I frown. "Go out with me"
This catches his attention. "What?"
"You heard me. Go out with me."
"Are you asking or telling me?" I sigh. Only Kyle would be this difficult.
"Kyle, will you be my boyfriend? I love you and I want to be with you? Do you think I am still just experimenting?" I can tell Kyle is stunned.
"Dude, your serious. Omg I never thought." He laid back on his bed. I feel myself wanting to jump him but I keep myself in check.
"Dude, just give me a chance, give us a chance" I look at Kyle to let him know I mean business. He nods.
"Okay" he agreed. "Don't go acting all super weird of me." I started grinning I grabbed Kyle and kissed him. This time he happily returns it. "I can't believe this is happening."
"Believe it" I smiled. "Are we going to act as a couple behind closed doors only? I know you said you want to tell them in your own time."
Kyle nods. "Sometimes I think I don't care what others think but at the end of the day I do. It's so fucking annoying."
"Let's just start with our close friends and go from there. It would make sense to tell our close friends."
"We can do that" Kyle phone started buzzing. Kyle showed me the messages Kenny sent.
Kenny: Kyle is Stan over there? His mom called my cell wanting to speak to him?
Kenny: He better take his ass home. His people's sound pissed.
Shit. It was worth it though, so worth it. I run to the closet and grab my bag. I go to the bathroom, wash up and change into my clothes. I come back to Kyle's room and he is still in his sleep clothes.
"You're not going to get dressed?" I ask him grabbing my phone.
"I am about to go shower" he replied. "I was waiting to see you out. You can use the backdoor at least and not the tree." I look at Kyle as he looks so cute with his freckles shining through and his messy hair. I pull him for a kiss not wasting any time putting my tongue in his mouth. I wrap my arms around his drawing him closer. I could feel him grow hard against my stomach.
"Jesus, Stan what are you trying to do to me" he muttered.
"A lot of things" I whispered. I pulled away from him because if I didn't who knows what we would end up doing. Kyle followed me down stairs to the kitchen where I could head out the back. I feel the happiest I have felt in a long time. I sigh as I walk up to the house. No point in trying to go through my window. I use my key to open the front door. I see my mom come from the kitchen.
"Stanley Marsh!" she yelled.
"I'm sorry mom but I needed a night out."
"A night out doing what? I called Kenny because your sister said you were staying there. Kenny would not put you on the phone!"
"I was sleep mom" I lied.
"Why didn't he just wake you?"
"Because I told him not to! Mom sleeping at night in that looney bin was hell. I was glad to actually sleep some where I knew. You can ground me or whatever." I walked towards the stairs and I can tell my mom is stunned.
"We will finish talking about this later" she yelled.
I got to my room door when Shelly stuck her head out of her room.
"Hey asshole!" she yells. "You had mom and dad having a fucking fit last night."
"I didn't do it on purpose. You don't know what it is like to have your freedom taken away. To be watched doing everything! Once you know how that feels then you can talk about why I did what I did." I opened my door and slammed it shut not giving her a chance to respond. I pinch the bridge of my nose as I think about how being in that asylum actually fucked me up in a way.
I toss my backpack on the floor as I turn my phone on. I had several voice messages and text messages. I browse over the messages only responding to Kenny. Cartman texted me too but I don't respond to his. I delete my voice mails without listening to them.
I can't believe Kyle is my boyfriend. I lay down on my bed thinking about it some more. I am okay with it. I wonder what sex will be like? I had come close when Wendy and I was dating but we never actually went through with it? How long has Kyle known he was gay? Is he still a virgin? Probably, I can't see him hooking up without telling me.
I wonder how things are going to be in school? We have two weeks left before it starts so it won't have to wonder long.