Sadly Beautiful

I think this chapter is probably going to be shorter than the last few, just getting a few details out of the way before the 'fun' can start. As always, reviews are much appreciated, I love reading them and they mean a lot to me.

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Chapter four - You Only Love

I woke up screaming, I couldn't remember the dream I'd just had but I was pretty confident it involved Alice. Alice... I immediately began to loathe every being of my self. I must have done it wrong or I probably wasn't attractive enough for her.

Seconds before I was about to break down and cry, Charlie came in looking worried.

"I heard you screaming, are you okay" He asked frantically.

I smiled and shrugged it off, "Nightmare." He looked relieved and flashed me a warming smile. I stood up and got ready for school, having a quick shower and throwing together an outfit with the bundles of new clothes I'd acquired. Thank god it's friday, I don't think I could take the stares from the Cullen table for an entire school week. At least I could have the whole weekend to myself.

I moaned in realisation, I promised to go to the beach at the weekend. I sighed in frustration but decided not cancel, it was probably good to have a distraction from my brooding thoughts on Alice.

I skipped breakfast and quickly walked to my truck, eager to get to the distraction that school would present. I was feeling apprehensive about seeing Alice though, I knew I had to have a conversation with her but I was worried about the rejection that I would surely receive. I silenced these thoughts quickly, I didn't want to turn up to school crying.

I quickly took my usual parking spot, opposite the volvo, and made my way to the first lesson of the day, biology. I walked into the room quickly, worried and excited to see Alice. I was disappointed when her seat was empty, she was probably just avoiding me because of yesterday. I swore quietly in frustration.

"That's not very lady like language Bella." I span around to see Alice standing there looking amused and something else I couldn't pinpoint, nervous maybe.

"Alice, I'm so glad to see you! I think that we need to have a conversation about yesterday" She nodded along and I just continued, "Maybe at lunch, we could sit on our own table and talk about it?" She nodded in agreement and we both took our seats.

I was itching for a chance to speak to Alice but the teacher was talking loudly and I couldn't find a good opportunity to start a conversation, so I sat in silence for the entire lesson. When the bell rang Alice was out of her seat instantly and at the door a second later, but unusually, she turned around and smiled at me before walking out.

It felt good knowing that things didn't seem to bad between us. They would probably get worse at lunch but I wasn't going to dwell on that, I'd just get past the next two lessons and try and focus.

The next lessons, History and Spanish, passed extremely slowly and I was grateful when the final bell rung. I was first out of the door, moving as fast as I could to the canteen.

When I made it into the room, I was one of the first people there. I quickly scanned the room and saw Alice sitting at a small table in the northern corner of the room. She spotted me and gestured for me to come and sit with here. I walked slowly to the table, not wanting to embarrass myself by tripping before we had a serious conversation.

I sat down and Alice nudged a tray full of food towards me. I smiled gratefully and quickly began eating, not noticing what I was putting into my mouth, staring only at her face. She was the first to break the silence.

"Look Bella about yesterday, I don't make a habit of throwing myself at my friends, or anyone for that matter. I'm really sorry if I made you uncomfortable and I promise it won't happen again..."

When she finished I tried to compose my face so she wouldn't see how disappointed I was when she said it wouldn't happen again. I smiled nervously.

"It was a surprise but I'd be lying if I said it didn't feel amazing... For me anyway, it didn't seem the it did to you." I forced the last part out, hoping the pain in my voice wasn't too evident. Alice pursed her lips and looked troubled, she hesitated for a few minutes and I waited patiently.

"Bella this isn't good for you, us being friends is bad for you. I can't allow myself to be the reason for you getting hurt, I can't do this. She didn't wait for my reply she just stood up and walked quickly out of the room. I sat there staring at the tray of food and wishing I could disappear.

Rejection washed through me, I knew if I stayed here then I'd break down and cry so reluctantly I stood up and walked over to my usual table. There was a seat next to Jessica but I sat down next to Angela.

Angela was much easier to talk to and was a genuinely cared which was the polar opposite of Jessica. I smiled at Angela and she didn't push the issue or ask about Alice and I which I was thankful for. Everyone was discussing the beach trip that was scheduled for tomorrow so I didn't have to join in very often, just occasionally adding a 'Mhmm' whenever I felt it was appropriate.

The bell rang and I made my way slowly to my last two lessons, Mike walked faithfully along beside me. I really had to straighten this out with him, the looks Jessica is giving me. I was reminded of the phrase, 'if looks could kill.' He asked me for the fourth time today if I was still coming tomorrow and I bit down on my sarcastic reply and just nodded.

The rest of the day passed in a blur and before I knew it I was sitting on the drive, not wanting to go inside just yet. I stayed in the car for hours just thinking about the conversation I'd had with Alice and wishing things had gone differently. They could have been a lot worse though. I finally rose from the seat, knowing that Charlie would be home soon so It'd probably be a good time to start dinner.

I spent another hour preparing dinner, losing myself in the various ingredients and techniques, not even noticing what I was cooking. I was just trying to distract my, tired and overworked brain.

Charlie came home just as I finished, I smiled warmly and gestured for him to take a seat. We both ate in silence and just enjoyed the food. I told Charlie about my plans for the beach tomorrow before retiring to bed, needing a rest after the stressful day.

I stripped and climbed into bed, falling asleep almost instantly.

Sorry for the short chapter and the lack of any Bella/Alice 'action' but I promise the next chapter will be longer and more interesting. This chapter was more of a filler so that the next chapter makes more sense and has more details to go along with it. I hope you enjoyed, reviews and favourites are greatly appreciated.