Hello dear readers! This chapter is about Sakura and her feelings, so there won't be a lot of action in it. Despite of that, I think this chapter is important for the story and the upcoming chapters. I want to thank the people who reviewed the last chapter and I want to confirm that indeed Sasuke loved Karin when they were together. What can I say? People make mistakes.

Enjoy!

SAKURA'S POV

When I arrive at my apartment, Ino and Sai are watching Titanic on our new HD television. They are too caught up in the movie and in their cuddling to notice my presence. Suddenly, I see an image of Sasuke and me cuddling on the couch. I wonder if we would…

No! Don't go there Sakura! Don't do this to yourself.

That is easy to say when the only person I think about and see everywhere I go is Sasuke. Sasuke in the elevator of the hotel, Sasuke in the taxi, Sasuke on the couch… He is everywhere when I want him to be nowhere in my life. A sob escapes my throat, making Ino and Sai aware of my presence.

"Sakura? What are you doing here? I thought you were staying at the hotel until tomorrow." Ino says while I let my luggage drop at the ground and look at her.

"Sweetie, what happened?" I can see a worried expression on her face while she walks towards me. I burst into tears, not able to tell her what happened today at the hotel.

"Darling would you make us some hot chocolate?" From above her shoulder, I see Sai nodding at his girlfriend. God, their relationship is so perfect. They have been together since college and I have seen some of their big fights, but I know that after each fight or argue they would apologize to each other and love each other even more. I had a big fight with Sasuke today, but he didn't apologize nor did he do anything to ease my discomfort. He just stood there and said nothing.

"Come on sweetie, let's sit down for a while" Ino says while she ushers me to the couch and sits down beside me.

"Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" I shake my head and she pulls me between her arms so that my head lies on her shoulder.

"When you are ready to talk about it, I will be there" she says and gives me a kiss on my head. This is all I need at the moment: a good friend, a hug and hot chocolate.

After a while I decide to go to my bedroom because I am tired. My eyes sting and feel heavy and my head hurts like hell. Maybe a good nap will do me some good. At least that is what I hope… But every time I close my eyes, I see the video tape playing over and over again and I open my eyes immediately. That scene is stored in my head unwillingly and I try to remove it but I don't know how. This is going to hunt me for months! While I try not to think about that video tape and try to ignore it before my eyes, I hear the voice of the one person I do not want to see at this moment.

"Ino I need to talk to her, so please let me pass through."

"Listen Sasuke I don't know what happened. But I have never seen her so upset."

"That's why I need to talk to her right now! It's urgent!"

"Is she important to you?"

"Of course she is! Otherwise I won't be here."

"Then you have to wait until she is ready to talk to you."

"Wait?! I don't have time to wait! Didn't I just tell you it's urgent?!"

"Yes, you do! I know her and if you go in her room right now than that will be the end of your relationship! She needs time, Sasuke, to recover and think about what happened."

"So what are you saying is that if I give her time, you think that our relationship still has a chance?"

"I don't know for sure, but I DO know that it will be better than if you go in now and upset her even more. This is about her Sasuke and you need to respect her."

"Okay." And that is the last word I hear from Sasuke before he leaves my apartment. Thank you Ino, you really are a good friend.

The next days pass by in a blur. I went shopping with Ino on Friday because she didn't want me to stay in bed all day long and she was convinced that buying new clothes enlighten my mood. I didn't feel a change at the end of the day, but I am thankful for my new clothes and the time we spent together outside our apartment.

On Saturday we went to the movies to see a romantic and dramatic movie. You know a movie with a lot of romance but with even more obstacles so that you definitely need some tissues while watching it. I must admit that seeing someone else's relationship problems eases the pain a little, even though it is fiction. There must be other brokenhearted people in this world like me.

On Sunday we stayed at our apartment and baked some chocolate cakes. I mean, come on, I am a girl that is addicted to everything that contains chocolate so seeing these cakes made me smile a little bit.

Despite of the fun I had during the weekend, I can't sleep at night. My mind just won't remove what I saw and I can't think of Sasuke without seeing him with Karin. I know it takes a while before the pain goes away, but all I wish right now was a good night of sleep. Tomorrow starts a new working week and I definitely need some sleep to pass through it successfully.

On Monday, I wake up after a night of 2 hours of sleep. I know that that's not enough, but I will try to do my best at work and finish the articles I wrote last week during Fashion Week. I won't let Sasuke or Karin ruin the things I have worked so hard on last week!

After I finish my articles, I hand them over to my boss who sends me home because I can't concentrate on other articles. Pff, I totally didn't expect this from him. What must he think of me? That I am weak and can't separate my personal life and my work?! Did Sasuke tell him about what happened? Maybe he will fire me because he is friends with the man I left behind at the hotel?! Oh Jesus, are there other things that will happen during this week? Because if so, I would like to know right now and deal with them at once!

"You are home early" Sai says when I walk through the door of the living room.

"Yeah… I couldn't concentrate on my work."

"That's understandable" he says while he stirs through some casseroles.

"What are you making?"

"Spaghetti with tomato sauce. Do you want some too?" I nod. He takes two plates from the kitchen cabinet and put some spaghetti and sauce on them. I sit down at our table while he places a plate in front of me.

"It smells delicious" I exclaim.

"It tastes delicious too" he says.

We eat a few minutes in silence, enjoying the food until Sai decides to start a conversation.

"You know you can talk to me too. I mean, women think that men never want to listen to their problems but that isn't always true, you know?"

I put my hand on his lower-arm and say "I know Sai. It just feels weird, I think, to talk about it with a man."

"I don't think it's weird, Sakura" he says and puts his other hand on my hand at his lower-arm. "You can really tell me about him and maybe I can give you some advice." I nod and squeeze his arm. "I just don't know where to start…"

"Did he hurt you?"

I shake my head while I say "No… not me…"

"What do you mean 'not me'?"

"He… well…" I sigh loudly and decide to tell Sai what I saw. "His ex-fiancé showed me a tape of them having sex."

"OUCH! That is something you definitely don't want to see from your boyfriend."

I shake my head. "That's not all. She…" I try to hold back my tears, but they roll down my cheeks when I try to think about the way I should tell this. "She had some marks on her bottom from a whip."

"Oh no! Say no more. I know what you are implying" he says and squeezes my hand to comfort me.

"But you said he didn't hurt you."

"He didn't."

"Then why are you mad at him? I don't want to let you down and I understand your reaction after seeing such a tape, but… I don't know how to say this exactly, but since he never harmed you, I don't think that you have a reason to hurt him or hurt yourself!"

"So I should just ignore what I saw?!"

"Yes, because that belongs to his past!"

"He harmed his own fiancé" I retort.

"Yes, but you are not her! People change, Sakura. Maybe he doesn't want to do such things any more. I don't know him, so I can't tell."

"Sai, please spit out what you are trying to say to me."

"Okay, but don't be mad at me." I shake my head and I am confused about what he is trying to prove to me.

"I think you should go to him and talk about what you saw. That way you know if he is still up to that lifestyle. I mean look at you, you had a friend with benefits for years and do you feel about him as a friend with benefits?"

"No, but that is not the same. You can't compare those situations!"

"No, that is true but what you can compare is the present. Your present and his present."

I sigh and process everything Sai has said. I know that he has a point… a good point, but I don't know if I am able to see let alone talk to him after everything he has done and I have done.

"I feel embarrassed to se—"

"No, don't feel embarrassed Sakura" Sai says while he takes my head in his hands. "I have only seen him once, so I don't know him well but I could tell that he cares about you. So I think, no I believe, that he won't be mad at you after all."

"You think so?"

"Yes, he will understand your reaction. So what are you waiting for? Get your ass over at his apartment!"

"But it's the middle of the day, what if he is not at his apartment?"

"Then you will wait or go to his office, I don't know but do something Sakura. Do something to ease his pain but also your pain!"

"You are right" I whisper at him and stand up to leave the apartment as soon as possible, now that I have the courage to meet him. I open my car door, start the engine and I feel ready to leave. The ride to his apartment takes 15 minutes, so I have time to think of a strategy to bring up the topic. What am I supposed to say when I see him? Hi, I am sorry or just, Hi? What if he doesn't want to see me? Oh god, no! Even though I deserve that for what happened at my apartment Thursday. The more I think about the possibilities, the more I believe this is a mistake. I push at my brakes and intend to turn and head back home. I will send him a message.

No you won't, Sakura! That is weak!

But what if—

No more what if's, please. Those words have been your slogan the past few days! Sakura, you have nothing to lose so turn around again!

My inner is right, I have nothing to lose if I just go to his apartment. I turn around again, but now I am definitely going to him. I just hope he is at his apartment, because I don't want to talk about it at his office.

I pull into the parking lot and head towards the elevator while my fingers are crossed. "Please be home Sasuke" I whisper in the elevator.

PING PING

There you go, Sakura. This is the moment!

I step out the elevator and walk towards the living room, my head high even though I am nervous. I see around the room, looking if he is home and I notice his presence at the window. He is looking at the city beneath him with his back towards me.

"Sasuke" I whisper. He has heard my whispering voice and turns around.

"Sakura."

So what do you think of this chapter? Will they stay together or will they break up? Until next chapter! Please review!