Hello! Welcome to chapter 18 of Fifty shades of Onyx. I am sorry that I ended the last chapter with a cliffhanger, but I think that it makes the story more interesting. I would like to thank the guest reviewers, yurizinha5, mizzanimequeen and crazymel2008 for your reviews, thoughts and kind words.
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We stare at each other for minutes that feels like weeks or even months. During the ride, I was worried about my appearance. My hair is neatly brushed, but the bags under my eyes reveal the lack of sleep even though I have used a lot of concealer. There are just some things you can't cover up with make-up. But when I look at him right now, I notice that even he doesn't look that good. I mean, don't get me wrong, that man is such a beautiful being that if he wouldn't sleep for weeks, he would still look hot as hell. But he is still a person, a human being therefore his body will also show when his human necessities like sleeping or eating aren't fulfilled. While the bags under my eyes make me look sick, his bags make him look a bit older but very sexy, especially with his tousled hair. If I just could put my fingers in that gorgeous hair of him…
Sakura, girl, stop lusting after over him and talk to him! That was the purpose to go over here!
Right, what was I doing or thinking… I came here to talk to him about what happened Thursday so I cannot, or may not, be distracted by that gorgeous looking man. When I open my mouth aiming to start a conversation, I hear the clicking of heels on the floor and a woman's voice fills the silence.
"Sasuke, sweetheart, I will take your laundry with me and –"
"Oh my, I didn't know you have company" she says when she sees me standing in the living room. I turn around to look at the woman and she just takes my breath away. "Oh my god, she is beautiful" I think to myself, gaping at the woman and absorbing her appearance. Her onyx hair is long and slightly curled at the ends, her eyes have the same color as her hair but they look so bright in the light, her lashes look long and voluminous, her lips are full and her eyebrows on fleek and not a single wrinkle to see on her face while she looks to be in her fifties. Oh God is she beautiful! Where is the paper to sign that I would like to look that good at that age?
But who is this woman? Is she related to Sasuke, because they sure share some common externalities? Because of all this thinking I didn't notice the woman walk towards me until I see her standing right before me, extending her right hand to greet me.
"Hello. I am Uchiha Mikoto, the mother of Sasuke." The mother?! Oh yes that explains their resemblances.
"Hi, euh I am Haruno Sakura. It's a pleasure to meet you" I say while I shake her hand lightly.
"Oh no the pleasure is mine." She looks at me, smiling like she had discovered a little secret. Then she turns towards Sasuke and asks him: "Is she—"
"Mom" he interrupts her immediately. What was she talking about? Am I what? Did he tell her about our relationship? Our relationship huh… Do we even have that now…? Well, that is why I am here. I need to know more about him.
"I am sorry, sweetheart. Well I shall be going so that you two can have some time alone" she says while she smiles at me, making me blush with her utterance.
"Yes, I will walk you out."
"Sakura, I hope we see each other another time."
I nod at her, while she walks towards the elevator with Sasuke. Wow, this was huge. I just met Sasuke's mom. Holy shit.
When Sasuke walks back into the living room he says: "Have a seat, Sakura. Do you want something to drink?"
I walk towards the couch and sit down while I say that I want a glass of water. A minute later, Sasuke walks out of the kitchen with two glasses of water and sits down on the couch facing me. I feel nervous because I don't know how to act around him after everything I have put him through, so I decide to start the conversation talking about his mother.
"Your mother is really kind and beautiful."
"Yeah, she is. But honestly Sakura my mom is not the reason why you came here, right?"
I shake my head and try to think of the best way to start talking about his past without attacking him verbally.
"I didn't let you talk to me Thursday, because I didn't know if there was a valuable explanation for the situation, but I want to know more about it now and hear your part of that story."
He nods and says: "Before I explain, let me apologize to you. I am very sorry for the way you found out about it. I can't believe Karin did that to hurt you" he pauses "but I want you to know Sakura that I wanted to tell you about it after the fashion week."
"So that really is your lifestyle? What we had didn't satisfy you or-"
"Stop!" he yells at me. "I don't want you to think that what we had wasn't enough."
"So can you look straight in my eyes and tell me that you don't need it anymore?" I retort at him. I look at him, but his eyes aren't meeting mine; no they are looking at the floor and that action answers my question.
"I thought so" I whisper while I stand up, with the intention to leave. Before I could walk around the couch, his hand was at my wrist stopping me to walk away.
"Please, hear me out" he whispers while he turns me around. Now his eyes are boring into mine.
"What is there to expl—"
"Please" he interrupts me and pulls me back towards the couch. I sit down again, while he takes his seat at the other couch so that there is enough space between us.
"I have lived that lifestyle for about 4 years. I can't explain really well what it contains, but I want you to know that the woman you saw on the tape gave me permission to do such things. In fact, she is the one who introduced me to it."
"She gave you permission to hurt her? To mark her ass? How insane is that!"
"That is exactly what people outside of that world think about it! We just love to hurt the other, we don't care about each other, we are sick in our head, BLA BLA BLA. Well, let me tell you Sakura, that none of that is true. Yes, we do spanking and whipping but not to hurt the other person, but to give her or him pleasure."
"Pleasure, huh?" I ask him sarcastic. How can spanking someone cause pleasure…?
"Look it's impossible for you to understand and yes the marks on the outside look painful, but when you spank a woman, a few nerves beneath her belly button are activated and give a good feeling. In other words, it makes her wet."
"Okay, if you say so. But I want to go back to my question you didn't answer. Do you need it? Do you want to spank me and hurt me?"
"Sakura, please trust me on this, I will never want to hurt you" he says while he looks me in the eyes. "I like what we have, I am happy with the vanilla sex. But I must admit that I fantasize about doing such things to you." And then his eyes are on the floor again, like he is ashamed of what he has said. Do I have to be afraid of him now? Because he just admitted that he thinks about it. Am I in danger right now? It's strange to think about it, because I totally am not afraid of him. He is completely honest with me and I am grateful for that. Besides, he never ever hurt me once. It's like I feel save with him, even though he shares his darkest fantasies with me. But I can't let my guard down, since I don't know him that well.
"Thank you for your honesty, Sasuke. But what do we do now? I mean I realized that I don't know you at all and I don't think that I can have a relationship with someone I can't trust completely."
He nods. "I understand, but the most important question is whether you still want me?" Do I still want him? Hell yes, but I don't know if we could have a relationship. What if he gets bored and wants that lifestyle back? What if he leaves me heartbroken because I don't want to live like that? What if I can't trust him anymore?
Stop these thoughts right now Sakura! He is completely sincere with you and he deserves a second chance, even though he didn't screw up the first chance. His past did, but who doesn't have a past?
And again, my inner is right...
"I like you, Sasuke. But I need to learn to trust you again."
He nods and stands up to sit down beside me on the couch, taking my hands in his.
"I like you too, princess. And I will do anything I can to gain your trust. We will start all over again but this time, we shall go slowly and get to know each other better. What do you think?"
"I think it's a good idea." He squeezes my hands and kisses them both gently.
"I think it's time for me to go home. I mean, you have a lot of work to do as CEO." He nods and helps me to stand up.
"Do you have plans this Friday evening?" he asks me while we walk towards the elevator.
"I don't think so. Why?"
"Do you want to have dinner with me? Just dinner with the two of us."
"Sure. Sounds good."
"Good. I will pick you up at 7 PM."
"Okay." I say while I walk in the elevator.
"Until Friday, princess."
"Until then, Sasuke."
So what do you think of their conversation? Please review! Until next chapter!