I was drained, mentally, physically, and emotionally. My mind was confused. How could this have happened? I left her to stop this from happening. I wanted her to live, to fall in love with someone other than me.
I knew that us being together was not good for her. I wanted her to have a chance at being normal and there was no way that she would get that with me. I was the living dead, a soulless creature and she deserved better than that. Bella deserved to be with someone who could give her everything I couldn't. A future, children, grand children. It seemed that by trying to protect her, and give her all these things I had damned her by my actions regardless.