A/N: Things get interesting from here on out. I don't know exactly how many chapters I'm going to write because there is so much I want to cover but I do know how I want to end the story. This chapter contains a lot of Olitz. Enjoy!
Pregnant. That one word had been in Olivia's head the past two weeks and she still couldn't wrap her mind around it. For the past two weeks she's taken her prenatal vitamins and ate meals that consisted of more than popcorn, but she still couldn't believe she was pregnant. As she got out of the shower and wrapped the towel around her petite frame, Olivia put her hand over her small baby bump. Being three months pregnant, she knew she wouldn't be able to hide her pregnancy much longer. The only person besides her doctor that knew Liv was pregnant was her sister Jasmine and she had been nothing but supportive.
"Little one, what are we going to do, huh?" Olivia asked rubbing her stomach after she got dressed in yoga pants and a comfy sweatshirt. "We won't be able to hide you much longer." Liv sat at the foot of her bed and lets the tears flow. Since becoming pregnant she'd been crying just because, her hormones turning her into a blubbering mess at any given moment. But tonight it was because she felt she was all alone. This was a time where most women were happy and sharing that with the father of their child, whether it was a husband, fiancé or boyfriend. And she had neither. The father of her child, the love of her life was the most powerful man in the world and she didn't know how to tell Fitz she was pregnant with his child. At times Olivia didn't know if she would even tell Fitz. Maybe she could go away for the next year and come back after she had her baby. But she couldn't be that selfish. She couldn't cheat her son or daughter out of their father knowing about them. And as much as she wanted to hate Fitz, she knew he'd love this baby as much as he did his other children and she didn't want him to not know about the baby, even though she had decided he couldn't be a part of their lives. She knew Fitz wouldn't like that idea and fight tooth and nail to be there for their baby but Olivia was digging her heels in on that subject.
Olivia grabbed the box of tissue from her night stand and dabbed her eyes with a piece. "Baby, we're going to have to tell daddy about you soon. I'm just so scared." Olivia's hand instinctively went to her stomach, rubbing gentle circles.
Fitz was going absolutely crazy on the inside. It had been three months since he'd seen Olivia. And in those three months he'd been more depressed than he was in the previous ten months. His heart literally ached for her. He wasn't even mad at her anymore but he didn't know how to fix the things he'd done. He couldn't take back the words he said to her. He couldn't take back what happened in the electrical closet. He'd periodically ask Cyrus how she was doing and all he'd get back in reply was "How do you think she'd doing Fitz?". If only he could call or see her so he could explain himself and apologize. Maybe then they both could start to heal. Fitz leaned his head back against the back of his chair and closed his eyes. This was the first time he could even began to relax that day and it was being interrupted by the voice he heard outside his door. Before he could open his eyes good, the door to the Oval opened and in walked Mellie with their son Teddy. She immediately walked over the Fitz and sat the child in his lap and put the diaper bag in the chair beside his desk.
"I have a meeting to get to and he was cranky so I figured some time with you would do you both some good." Mellie left the room as quickly as she had entered it.
Fitz spent the next hour sitting on the floor and playing with Teddy. His children really were the only thing keeping him remotely sane for the past year. Once the little boy fell asleep, Fitz took his son to the nursery where Teddy's nanny was waiting. After kissing his son on the head, Fitz headed to Cyrus' office. He had had enough of not talking to or seeing Olivia and he needed Cyrus' help. Knocking on the door once, he heard a voice say come in. He expected Cyrus to be alone and was shocked and frozen in place as he saw Olivia standing in the office. It was like time stopped and Fitz forgot how to breath. "God, she's so beautiful." was the only thing Fitz could think.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were in the middle of something." Fitz said, but his eyes never left Olivia's face.
"Liv and I were just catching up." Cyrus gave Olivia a questioning look, silently asking if she wanted him to leave the room. She had just told him about her pregnancy. Liv nodded her head yes slightly. "I think you two need to talk so I'll give you some privacy." Cyrus grabbed a few files from his desk and left the office.
"It's good to see you Olivia." Fitz didn't want to be too informal with Liv. He had to keep his emotions at bay for the moment.
"Look, I have something I need to tell you. I was going to have Cyrus see if you had a break in your schedule…" Olivia looked down at her feet and subconsciously put her hand on her stomach for a moment and began rubbing it. Realizing what she was doing, she quickly stopped and ran her hands nervously through her hair.
"I've been wanting to talk to you for the past three months but I just didn't know what to say or do. 'I'm sorry' just wasn't enough to begin to apologize for my words and actions." Fitz gave Olivia a nervous smile.
"We both said and did things we can't take back so there is no use in trying to do so. I want to move past that. I forgive you for whatever you've done and I hope you can do the same." Again Olivia's hand went to her stomach but Fitz didn't notice because his eyes never left her face.
"I forgave you a while ago Liv. I'm sorry if you felt like I hated you. That's the farthest thing from the truth. I was just hurt and wanted you to hurt like I was. Now I know that was so wrong of me. We're adults and we should have been able to talk thing out instead of me lashing out like a petulant child."
"I really need to tell you something and I think you should sit down." Olivia wanted to get this over with while she still had the courage and could keep her emotions somewhat in check.
"Sure, I'm here to listen to whatever you have to say Liv." Fitz sat down behind Cyrus' desk as he watched Olivia pace in circles. He knew then that whatever she had to say was huge.
"Two weeks ago I went to the doctor because I was feeling like shit and I thought I had the flu. I mean it's winter in DC so that's the normal thing to think right?" Olivia rambled, causing Fitz to raise an eyebrow but he didn't interrupt her.
"Anyway, the doctor ran test and I just knew she was going to tell me that I was right and that I had the flu. But she didn't." Olivia looked at Fitz to gauge his reaction and it was a look of confusion. "Fitz…I'm…I'm…three months preg…pregnant." Olivia stuttered out as tears began to pool in her eyes.
At that moment Fitz felt like his heart was about to erupt from his chest. He had to have heard her wrong. Did Olivia just say she was pregnant? He watched as she continued to pace. "Stop pacing." Fitz said, getting up from the desk and putting his hand on Olivia's wrist. "You're pregnant? When?" And then it dawned on Fitz. "The day of Ella's christening."
Olivia nodded her head and put her hand on her stomach. This time Fitz noticed and quickly covered her hand with his. This was their baby. The love of his life had just told him she was pregnant with his baby. He'd been trying his best to hold back his emotions but at that moment, Fitz could no longer. He dropped to his knees and wrapped his arms around Olivia, resting his head on her slight baby bump and cried. "Baby I'm so happy. I love you so much." Fitz choked out through his tears.
"Fitz…" Olivia whispered as she ran her hands through his curls. She was a ball of confusion. On one hand she was happy that Fitz was happy about the baby. But on the other, she didn't know what to do. This changed nothing between them. If anything it complicated things more. She could handle the backlash and the name calling but she wasn't going to allow her child to be subjected to the cruelty that would certainly follow once the world learn he or she was the product of her affair with Fitz. "Fitzgerald!" Olivia said with more force, making sure she got Fitz's attention.
Fitz pulled away from the embrace and rose to his feet. Looking at Olivia he knew he didn't want to hear what she had to say. "No Liv, no!" He answered before she could even speak.
"We can't pick up where we left off a year ago. This changes nothing."
"Baby it changes everything! This is our chance to finally be together. We are in love and we're having a baby. This little person…" Fitz paused as he put his hands on Olivia's stomach, "is half you and half me. This is the child I've dreamed about so many nights. Do you know how badly I've wanted a part of you to always remind us of the love we have for each other? This little boy or little girl is it. I've pictured a little girl with honey blonde curls, your cheekbones and lips, my eyes and skin the color of caramel. And a little boy with my nose and smile but your beautiful brown doe eyes. Both the perfect mix of us. Don't deny our family this." Fitz pleaded.
"It's not that simple. When I told you I'd wait for you, I didn't picture doing it while bringing a new life into the world. My first priority isn't you anymore. It's this baby that I love more than anything on this earth. I'm his or her mother and it's my job to protect them. And I can handle a lot of things but what I won't tolerate is the hatred my child will be subjected to when people find out you're their father." Olivia let the tears run down her face. "I love you Fitz, God knows I do, but this baby is my world now and not even loving you will make me put our baby in a situation where they could be hurt. By words or otherwise."
"What are you saying Liv?" Fitz eyes filed with unshed tears.
"You had a right to know about the baby. But I can't allow my child to be caused any undue pain. I'm going to raise this baby on my own. I can get you pictures and updates by way of Cyrus but you can't and won't be a part of our daily lives. It's for the best and you know that."
"For who's best? Not mine and certainly not our baby's." Fitz sounded defeated. "But I won't fight you on this. I wish you'd reconsider. I want to be a part of our child's life but I understand where you're coming from. Maybe we can come up with something better."
"I didn't make this decision hastily. I just don't see any other way Fitz." Olivia choked back the tears.
"I do. It's so simple baby. Marry me." Fitz looked Olivia dead in the eyes and she knew he was serious.