"Have you lost your mind?!" Olivia nearly shouted. This fool was looking her dead in the eyes talking about "marry me" like he wasn't already married.
"Maybe. But I mean it. I'm going to divorce Mellie and marry you Liv. This is our chance and I'm not going to waste it. I already love our baby and I'm not going to hide him or her like they're less important or loved than Gerry, Karen and Teddy."
"And who said I'd be willing to just up and marry you because you say that's what you're going to do? Did you not hear anything I just said? My child won't be hurt because of our choices Fitz." Olivia began to pace around the office.
"Livvie, just think about it. Please." Fitz extended his arm in front of her to stop her from pacing. He then wrapped his arms around Liv's waist and pulled her to him. "I. Love. You. I love you so, so much. I want our family. I want to make things right for you and our baby. You both mean so much to me. I want all of us to me happy." Fitz rested his forehead against hers.
"It's not that easy. I can't deal with the stress that will come from this Fitz. It's not fair to me or the baby to be this selfish. It's not just us that'll be attacked. And have you thought about your kids? While Teddy is too young to understand, at 16 and 12, Gerry and Karen certainly will." Olivia stepped away from the embrace.
Fitz sighed because as much as he hated to admit it, Olivia was right. This was going to be a mess and his kids would be impacted the most. All four of them, and as a father, it was his job to protect his kids, not cause them to be a part of the media circus that would become their life if everything came out. "I just don't want to miss out on my child's life Liv."
"I know. I know that you want to be there every step of the way but you can't. Like I said, Cyrus can be our go between and he will get pictures and updates to you. That's the best I can do Fitz." Olivia let the tears that had pooled in her eyes drop. She hated how emotional being pregnant made her.
"Don't cry Sweet Baby. I didn't mean to make you cry or put pressure on you." Fitz grabbed her hand and entwined their fingers.
"It's the hormones. Since I found out I was pregnant, I've been a blubbering mess. The other day I was flipping through channels and stopped on some cartoon movie and actually cried when a character died. Now how pathetic is that?" That got a laugh out of both Fitz and Liv. "Do you want to see the sonogram photos? I brought a couple for you, that's if you want them." Olivia went over to her purse and got the photos out, not needing Fitz's reply. She knew he'd want them.
"Thank you so much for this." Fitz took the pictures from Olivia and tears immediately sprung in his eyes as he looked at the pictures of his unborn son or daughter. "This means more to me than you could know." He said trying to hold back tears.
"It's the least I could do. I um, I need to get to the office. I'll keep you up to date with what's going on." Olivia left the office without a backwards glance because she knew if she had looked Fitz in the eyes she would have crumbled right then and there.
Olivia stepped off the elevator to OPA and immediately became overwhelmed with the smell of Chinese food filling the office. Her stomach began to flip and she bolted for the bathroom to empty the contents of her stomach. After getting herself together she quickly walked to her office, closing the door to block the smell from further engulfing her sense of smell. Sitting in her chair, she leaned back, resting her head on the back of the chair hoping to fight off this last wave of nausea when someone knocked on her door. "Come in."
"Liv are you alright?" Abby walked into the office with a container of takeout. "We went ahead and ordered your favorite." Abby held out the container.
"Thanks but I don't think I can ea-" Olivia's nausea overtook her and she grabbed the trashcan beside her desk.
"Liv, are you sure you're ok? Do you have the flu?" Abby asked her boss after she stood up holding the soiled trashcan liner in her hand.
"Do I look like I'm ok?" Olivia snapped and instantly felt bad about it. "I'm sorry Abby. I didn't mean to snap at you. I'm just dealing with something. Give me a few minutes and I'll come to the conference room and talk to you all." Liv offered a slight smile before making her way down the hall to the bathroom.
"I know you all have been worried about be lately and I truly love each and every one of you for being concerned." Olivia looked around the room and each member of her team. "I have something very important to tell you but I just don't know how."
"Are you dying? Closing the office? Are you pregnant?" Abby asked, laughing after she asked was she pregnant. The look that washed over Olivia's face stopped Abby mid laugh. "Oh my God! You're pregnant!"
Harrison, Quinn and Huck looked at Olivia and then between each other as if they were reading each others minds. "Are you?" Quinn finally asked.
With a heavy sigh, Olivia answered. "Yes. I'm three months pregnant."
"Three months! I didn't think you had had sex since you dropped Edison." Abby was never one to filter anything she said.
"Abby!" Harrison threw her a look of utter shock.
"What? I just said what we all were thinking."
"This is good news, right?" Quinn looked at Olivia with a nervous smile.
"Yes. This pregnancy wasn't planned but I'm happy about my baby."
"And the father..?" Abby didn't know when to leave well enough alone.
"Isn't going to be involved. And that's all I'm going to say about him Abby." Liv wanted to cut her off before she got started on that subject. And for the next thirty minutes, Olivia answered any questions her team had about her pregnancy.
"Sir?" Cyrus said as he entered the Oval.
"Hey Cy. Any word?" Fitz was anxious because Olivia had her doctor's appointment the day before.
"Yes, they are both doing good and at the next appointment they should be able to tell the baby's sex." Cyrus reached into his pocket and pulled out an envelope and handed it to Fitz. "These are for you."
"Thanks for doing this Cy. It really means a lot to me." Fitz had forgiven Cyrus for Defiance finally. "The way I had treated you this past year, you didn't owe this to me."
"This is an impossible situation. If I can help two people, who just so happen to be my daughter's godparents in any way I can, I will. I know how much this is killing you both."
"How is she?" Usually Fitz only asked about Olivia in relation to her pregnancy but he wanted to know how she was doing.
"You know Liv. She's tough as nails but she has her moments. The hormones are making her real emotional but for the most part she's alright." Cyrus looked at the younger man and felt sorry for him. "She misses you. And you better not tell her I said that."
"I miss her too. More than I thought humanly possible. But I can't keep hurting her. I have to respect her wishes on this one." Fitz looked back down at the pictures in his hand and smiled wistfully. "I wish I could be there to just hold her and rub her belly. Get up in the middle of the night and get her weird stuff to satisfy those late night cravings. I hate that she has to go through this alone."
"Between Ella and you two, you're making me soft. Jesus!" Cyrus sighed and ran his hands through his thinning hair. "I'm supposed to go to her place for dinner tonight, but I think you should go in my place. You two obviously need a little time together. I will clear your schedule and set everything up with Tom so you can go. She's expecting me at 8." Cyrus knew Olivia was going to have his head on a stake when she found out this was his doing but it would be worth it to stop her and Fitz from wondering around in a lovesick haze.
At 8 o'clock sharp Olivia's doorbell rang and she answered without looking in the peephole, knowing it was Cyrus. "Right on time. I made your favorite des-" Olivia's stopped mid sentence when she looked up. "Fitz, what are you doing here and where is Cyrus?"
"He sent me in his place." Fitz flashed a panty dropping smile before sidestepping Olivia and walking into her apartment.
Olivia closed the door silently, cursing Cyrus for pulling this stunt. She was going to curse his for real the next time she saw him. "Well come on, lets eat. Baby and I are starving.