A/N Here's another chapter I popped out... I have finals tomorrow. I'm a definition of a procrastinator. This fanfic is basically 70% imagination and 30% what actually goes on in uni. I know my chapters are really short and the spelling and grammar is horrible but still... please R&R I would appreciate it very much! Hope you enjoy! (The disclaimer is still the same)

After grabbing a cup of salted caramel mocha, I went to go see Ikuto. When I got there, he was leaning against the heater and typing on his laptop.

"You could've said no if you're busy right now you know." I said guiltily. After all it was the last two weeks before final exams start and everything was due and when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. Like I personally had three essays, two group presentations, anatomy and physiology lab final and a portfolio that I haven't even started putting together due in a span of two weeks. Let's not forget the two jobs and the volunteering I do.

"No it's fine. I just have a bunch of group projects and no one's doing anything for it so I'm not gonna bother. I was just writing b.s for an essay that's due for this gen ed class." Ikuto replied.

"Oh. Okay. If you say so." I said as I sat against the wall adjacent to the one he was leaning against.

"So, what did you need to talk about?" He asked.

So I told him about the relationship issues I had with Tadase. I told him about how the relationship was falling apart. How it I feel like I'm the only one who supports all the emotional burden between the two of us and how I feel alone even when I'm with Tadase. I even told Ikuto one thing that I didn't even want to admit to myself; the fact that I don't really love Tadase anymore. I don't feel anything but guilt when he says 'I love you' to me and I reply back with 'love you too'. It feels like Tadase doesn't really know me and it's probably because he really doesn't.

"Why are you still dating him then? You obviously know the solution to your problem." Ikuto stated.

"It's sorta complicated." I sighed and it really was. I've dated Tadase long enough to get to know his parents. I've known his parents long enough that I know that they treat me like I'm their daughter. I've dated him long enough that all my friends are his friends. Finally, I've loved him long enough to not want to hurt him.

"Then distance yourself for a bit. If he doesn't notice that then the relationship between you two are really nothing. If he does notice but don't attempt to talk to you than he doesn't really care for you like a boyfriend should." Ikuto said.

It sounded like a good solution but the truth is, I haven't really talked to Tadase in a while. I was busy and he was busy and when I had time I was busy catching up on sleep.

"I'm gonna stop thinking about this until my finals are done. This is giving me unnecessary headache." I told him.

"Mkay, whatever you think is best." He replied.

After the end of that conversation, I just drank my coffee and he just did his homework. We sat there for two hours just chilling silently like we've known each other for... well... more than couple weeks. It was nice. I didn't feel alone and stranded even if it was for a little while.

I was feeling content and relaxed until I realized that I knew nothing about Ikuto other than his name and major. I knew nothing about him and he basically knew everything about me. I didn't even know how old he was! So, I turned around, yanked his earbuds out and stared at him gaping like a fish because I was so shocked that I couldn't find the words. When I finally got my brain working and asked him the question he just laughed at me. Like full out laughed at me.

"I basically know your whole life and the only thing you ask about me is my age?" He laughed.

"Well ya..." mumbled while blushing dark red.

Turns out Ikuto is 20 and in third year of business and his last name is Tsukiyomi. Right. Name and age; that's good to know about a person who you told your entire life story to. After that information Ikuto told me a bit more. The fact that he plays violin, lives in an apartment near campus and that he owns a car. After Ikuto finished his essay we grabbed something to eat and he dropped me off home. I never really click with anyone and it takes time for me to get used to people so I was very shocked at the fact that I did click with Ikuto. I clicked with him so well that I reached out first to see him.

After Ikuto dropped me off, I sat in my room and the loneliness and the darkness started creeping back. There were so much things to do. Too much. It made me not want to do anything. It made the hours I spent with Ikuto feel like a dream. It was as if the whole world was crashing down on me and Ikuto just held up the inevitable for just a little while. So, my little world started crumbling again. Slowly but surely, I was losing things one by one. I didn't hand in one of my essays that was worth 30 percent of my GNED course. That just crashed my GPA completely. The group project that was supposed to fill that gap even just a little bit went horrible. The girl who was part of my group of four never showed up for a group meeting and didn't finish her part of the presentation until just before the class started. I almost had a melt down right then and there. The lab test didn't turn out as well as I thought it would. I just lost motivation to do anything at all. End of the semester was approaching fast and there was still too much things to do and I didn't have the motivation to start anything. All the while this was happening I still smiled, went to school, went to work and volunteering and I never let anyone know of my depression or mental conditions.