Part two:

Chapter 11:

Later that evening no word was said. No conversation between anyone. I was oddly happy. I didn't understand anything. He was a bad boy. A thief was what he was. I remember seeing him at my father's funeral. I didn't understand why until later. I wished for something good to happen later that day, but nothing did.

All robin did was stare at me. Like he was worried about me. I hoped he would smile back as he always did, but he was strange. I wish I could figure out what was going on. He was worrying me very much.

Once we headed to our bedchamber I asked "Robin shall I sleep in our bedchamber or the other?" He laughed and walked away. I went into my dressing chamber and cried. My servant poured my bath, and began to bathe me. "Susan you can stop. I can bathe myself perfectly fine." I said.

She put down the sponge and walked out. I began to wash and cry. Loveday walked in and picked up the sponge. "Why are you crying?" She asked. "I'm fine. I can bathe myself." I replied. She huffed and continued to clean my back in soft circles. "Robin is very different than you think." Loveday continued. "He makes love and then he…." She paused. "He is upset with me because I can't have his children." I continued. "He hates me because I'm not good enough for him." I finish. Loveday stops and stares at me. "That is nonsense my love. I do not hate you, and I am not upset with you." Robin said. Loveday gets up and leaves the dressing chamber.

"Hello, Robin." I reply to his remark. He picks up the sponge and begins to pick up where Loveday left off. "I didn't say anything because I had something for you." Robin begins to talk. "I'm sorry…. I'm trying Robin. If I can't have your children you can go elsewhere." I stated. Robin stopped and glared at me. He didn't talk to me for the rest of the night. He slept with me in my bedchamber. There was no love making or talking. Not even a cuddle. Which caused me more pain inside.

Chapter 12 :

The next morning I felt like the pain has worsened. My heart aches as if I was dying. He wasn't anywhere in sight. I knew he hated me. I just wanted him to be happy. I hated the thought of him loving another, but I had to give him a choice. Loveday walked in "Hello darling it's time to wake up." She pulls the curtains open. I feel tears running down my face. Loveday jumps on the bed and wipes my tears from my eyes. "Why are you crying?" She asks. "I am saddened by my words and his actions." I pause because the pain worsens. "I hate myself more than words can say. I feel like I've died." I begin to cry harder. "Shh.. Brother is a lunatic because he hurt you this way." Loveday replied. "I just want to die Loveday. This pain is so overwhelming." I said as tears began to blind me.

She stands up and walks away. I think she actually left the room. "You get in there and help her you…." I hear from the hallway. "She hates me Loveday." He paused. He sounds as if he is in pain. "She told me that I can lay with another woman. When I only want her." He said. I cry louder and louder. I don't want to hurt anymore. I grab Robin's pillow and cuddle up to it. I hear light footsteps walking towards me. I feel a body next to me. Without looking I wrapped my arms around this person. He wipes my eyes. "It's ok my love. I don't hate you." It's Robin. I climb into his lap and cry more. "You can't die. You can't hate yourself. It's I who has abandoned you in your time of need."

I look up and he grabs my chin. "I only want you and no one else." He kisses me with a chaste kiss. We lay for hours holding each other. Soon we are brought back to the present with a knock at the door. "It's me lovebirds." Loveday says as she brings in a female physician. "Robin would you leave us please?" The physician asked. He got up and left the room. Loveday moves onto the bed. "She's here to inspect your woman part." She says.

Three hours later I was out and dressed. "Apparently my body wasn't ready. I wasn't ovulating." I say to Robin. "Oh." He replies. "We can try in a week." I say. He smiles and grabs my waist. "Can't we practice for it?" He responds. I feel an explosion in my insides. I tighten below my waist. "Yes." I whisper. He grabs my waist and takes me away to our room.

He lays me on the bed slowly. Caressing my body through my gown. "I want you." Robin says. I bite my lip in reply. I want him in me and I don't care if it's going to hurt. He takes his clothes off in layers. Then rips mine apart. When he is about to put his manly part in me he stops. "I don't want to hurt you." He said. "Just do it. I want you inside me." I reply. He gazes at me in wonder. Then he inserts. I wince in pain for his part feels bigger. He stops mid-insert and looks at me worriedly. "Don't stop. Please don't stop." I say before he can say anything. He becomes gentle with my body. Why must this stop. We continue for hours or at least until we see the sun through the curtains.

Chapter 13 :

When I wake up I see that I'm all alone. No one else in the room except me and a naked body. I feel a pain in my lower regions and my breasts begin to throb. While noticing the pain I am feeling I don't pay attention to the noise at the door. I suddenly hear a knock. Then another knock and one after that. " Maria dear are you awake?" said a feminine voice at the door. Then the door opens and I rush to throw the covers over my breasts. I then look up to see Loveday in her lovely velvet dress.

"Can I help you?" I ask. I can't quit blushing. "Where is my brother?" Loveday asks. I begin to hyperventilate because I have no idea where he is. I begin to cry. "Loveday will you please turn away?" I ask. She nods in reply and turns away. I slide on my robe and walk into my dressing chamber to shower. I suddenly hear a scream. "Robin, what happened to you?" Loveday screams. "I…...I…..was shot." Robin says. I cover my mouth and begin to quietly sob. "How brother?" She asks him. "I was in a hunting accident. I'm alright." Robin replies. I then hear a sudden thump on the floor.

I run out of the dressing chamber. "Loveday go get a physician right away." I demand. SHe then leaves the room. "Robin you can't leave me. Not now." I say while I sob. I scream for a maid to help me. I need clean cloth, my sewing kit, hot water, a change of sheets, and some tweezers. I ask for one of their aprons and they bring all of the stuff I needed. Even some extra cloth.

I roll up my sleeves and begin addressing the wound. I clean it first, then remove the bullet, sow up the wound and patch it up. "I guess I won't be needed." The physician said. "Let me look at your work." He continues. "Have you ever done this before?" He asks. "Three times with my father, and four other times with different gentlemen." I reply. "This is nice handy work." He hands me morphine for his pain, and told me to continue with cleaning the wound three times a day.

He seems to be comatose for the next few days. He doesn't complain about his pain, and his heartbeat is slow. It seems like he is dying on me, and I can't live without him. The pain would be unbearable. "Robin if I lose you I won't be able to live." I say to his sleeping body. I still get no reply. Within two weeks he is still comatose, and his heart rate is getting slower. I suddenly have to get up and run to the dressing chamber and I begin to throw up.

"Maria I can take over Robin watch now." Loveday says. "I need a physician to tell me if I'm pregnant." I reply. "I've been hungry for weird items and consistently throwing up." I add. "I'll go and get him for you." Loveday says. I begin to clean Robins wound and he still doesn't stur. "Robin I need you now more than ever please wake up." I say selfishly. "The physician is hear Maria. I can watch brother while you get checked." Loveday said.

When I come back into the room and see Robin still comatose I begin to cry. "What's wrong?" Loveday asks. "I'm pregnant and he won't be able to know because he can't hear me." I say in between sobs. She gets up and hugs me. "Congratulations sister." She says with a small smile. "Maria go get some sleep I'll stay with brother tonight." She states in a demanding tone.

The next three days Loveday stays with him, and sends me to the garden to breathe in the fresh air and to the kitchen to eat. I feel as if he is dead for he hasn't woken up for a month yet he still breathes and has a heartbeat. I have a small unnoticeable bump on my belly as a sign that there is this baby growing inside me. I walk to my room and walk to my balcony. I can see all of this beautiful land that I will not live to see. I'm ready to die, so I can be with him. I climb up the railing and I'm about to jump when I hear Loveday in my room. "No you can't die. You have to live. Your pregnant." Loveday says. "I cannot live without my birdboy." I say. I lift up my foot and I feel as if someone has grabbed me. "Let me go or I'll…." I was interrupted before I could continue. "You'll what kill yourself and your child and leave your husband as a widower?" Loveday says.

Chapter 14:

I stop and think as my feet touch the floor of the balcony. "He isn't even awake." I say. "Yes he is and he is asking for you." She replies. "Does he know?" I ask. "No I saved that for you." she replied. "Let me get changed and then I'll be in there." I say. She nods her head and walks off. I put on one of Loveday's velvet dresses that she gave me so he can't see my baby bump. I put my hand on my stomach for reassurance.

As I walk into our bedchambers I see him with anger in his eyes but with a smile on his face. "You tried to end your life." He screams then winces. All I can do is stare. "Why would you leave me?" He asked. "Because I thought you weren't going to wake up." I reply. I walk towards him and drop to my knees. "I couldn't live a life without you my birdboy." I continue. "It would be a miserable life if I would have lived without you." I finish. He just lifts my hand and kisses it. Loveday enters the room with hot water and a new bandage to cover his wound. "Have you told him yet?" She whispers to me. I shake my head.

I take off the old bandage, and clean the healing wound with soap and water and put clean bandages on. He looks at me with a look of question. "Robin I have some news for you." He gazes at me with wonder on his face. "What is it?" He asks. He seems frightened. "First of all you wound should be completely healed within a week." I say. "Is that is?" He asks. "No!" Loveday inquired. I shake my head and I smile. I slowly grab his hand and place softly place it on my stomach. His eyes open wide. "Robin I'm pregnant." I say. He begins to smile and he sits up. I get off the floor and I sit on the bed. He hugs me and then gently caresses my stomach. "I love you so much." He says. "I love you too." I reply.