Hello lovelies ... Sorry for the delay. I have been super busy with work, study and just life in general. It's been a rollercoaster lately I will tell you that much!

As a sorry for the delay this is chapter 4 & 5 combined. Hope you enjoy. Please review and I will try to be more timely with the updates.

He takes her by her hand and leads her over to the bed silently. He feels his self-control pop like bubble as he lays her down. He is on top of her kissing her frantically his hands brushing along her outer thighs. She moans into his mouth and runs her hands up and down his torso. She loves the feeling of his skin under her hands.

He draws hs hands up to the sides of her and massages her hips as he continues to kiss her running his hand down the curve that trails from her waist to her hip. He trails kisses down her jaw and neck down to collarbone and his hands travel and rest against the side of her breasts. He is still holding back because he is still waiting for her to push him off. Maybe she might change her mind, they have touched each other before but they have kept it above the belt and with more clothing than they are currently wearing. He isn't sure how she will react to this new ground.

She pushes him upwards and he pulls himself off her, "I'm sorry we can stop." He says breathing hard.

She unhooks her bra and pulls it off tossing it across the room. His jaw drops as she sits in front of him just one item of clothing from being fully naked. He gapes at her and wills himself to look away but can't take his eyes off her breasts.

"Don't stop, sit here." She says pointing against the headboard taking control. He obliges and she climbs on top of him guiding his hands to her breasts, "I don't want you to stop."

"You're so beautiful," he says softly, "I don't know what I ever did to deserve someone as perfect as you."

He gently cups her breasts and she moans, "I'm not made of glass Jace. I want you … I need you.." she says her voice husky with desire. She didn't know just how much she wanted and needed him until now. She wonders how he waited so long. Now it's on her mind she can't stop. Her body is burning with desire, she doesn't want him to ever stop.

She kisses him softly and then deepens the kiss moaning into his mouth. At her words he has lost any restraint and is groping at her chest and she is bucking against him her body moving of its own accord. She feels like she is losing her mind and it feels so good.

His hands trail over her whole body, down to her stomach up to her sides, down her back and up again exploring every inch of her skin. She has her hands running through his hair. She feels him hardening beneath her and moans enjoying the feeling. She repositions herself slightly and her hand goes down to rub against his manhood. He gasps and kisses her frantically pushing her down onto the bed so he is back on top of her.

She continues her ministrations and slips her hand underneath the fabric of his boxers grasping his hardness in her hands. He cries out as she pumps her hand faster.

"Fuck, Clary," He groans hoarsely, "don't stop…"

She is actually surprised at how natural this all feels. She doesn't feel afraid of getting anything wrong. Her body is just moving on autopilot as if it knows exactly what to do and by the sounds coming out of Jace's mouth she is getting it right.

She climbs off him and focuses her attention on the task. She slips her thumbs into the waistband of his boxers tugs them down and he helps her pull them off. She gasps at the sheer size of him but it doesn't deter her instead it turns her on even more. She continues to pump her hand against his length. He grows harder and longer than she expects him to and his breathing grows ragged. She uses her other hand to carefully cup his balls and strokes them eliciting a guttural sound from his throat.

"Baby, I'm going to…" he starts lying back on the bed. She brings her mouth down just in time to capture the creamy liquid as it is expelled from him. He cries out and she swallows the bitter fluid.

She brings her head up and he is still lying on his back breathing fast and she lays down next to him to he turns to face her, "You didn't have to…" he starts breathlessly. She blushes and says, "I wanted to..." softly.

He pulls her towards him and kisses her again, his tongue dancing against her own. She tries to pull away worried that he will be repelled by the taste of himself in her mouth but he holds her firmly against him.

His free hand runs the length of her body from the side of her breast down to her hips in one fluid motion. He massages her hips then her outer thighs then slipping between her legs rubbing at her through the fabric of her panties. She moans into his mouth and instinctively clamps her legs shut. He rolls so she on her back and he is hovering over her and puts his arms on either side of her so he is propping himself up on top of her.

He looks down at her his eyes soft, "I'm not going to hurt you Clarissa." He says gently.

"I know.." she says barely able to look at him, "I just … I can't help it."

"I want you…" he says trailing kisses along her jaw, "you don't know how much I do... but only if you want me too." And stops she looks up at him incredulously. He is actually worried that she might not want him. How could he even think such a thing?

"I want you," she says smiling, "I'm in love with you, Jonathon Christopher Lightwood, I want everything with you." She captures his lips with her own before he has a chance to reply and rolls so they are both on their side.

She takes his hand and guides it between her legs shakily so he knows it is okay to continue. He continues to stroke her with varying degrees of pressure. She relaxes under his touch and is becoming wetter by the minute.

He slips the fabric of her panties back and guides a finger inside her. She cries out in pleasure. He pulls it out again and then slips it back in while also rubbing at her clitoris and then she is lost as he continues at a rhythmic pace.

He kisses trail down to her neck. He sucks on a spot nipping at it, she knows it will leave a mark and she is turned on by that idea.

"Don't stop…" she says breathlessly with her eyes closed tight, "don't you dare stop." She has lost all her shyness right now all she knows is she wants him and his touch feels so good.

He chuckles and continues moving deeper with each movement, bringing his lips back to hers and kissing her desperately. His fingers move expertly inside her, slowing down until she is groaning with want.

"Please…" she begs between kisses.

"I'm not stopping…" he says softly, "not until you're.." he doesn't finish his sentence but his kiss deepens and his tongue moves urgently against her own.

He moves slowly, then faster pumping in and out of her and sliding another finger in at a time. He clearly knows what he is doing. The delicious feeling in the pit of her stomach, the knot that is building there and the heat between her legs is slowly driving her insane.

"Look at me, baby," he says his voice rough. She flutters open her eyes. She has been holding them squeezed tight. The look on his face is too much for her. The look of want and need. She gasps as she something that has been building inside her finally clicks into place.

"Oh my… Jace!" she cries out louder than she wants to as she unravels beneath him. It is unlike anything she has ever felt before in her entire life and she doesn't want it to end. It crashes into her like a wave and slowly slips away.

Other stories are on hold for now as I seem to have lost momentum with them. I will need to get back into the flow before ... but saying that I'll see if there is any updates I can provide.

Thanks for all your support.

Much love x