So hello guys …
This is the last pre-written chapter of this story. So I will really need to put my mind back on this story in a big way to bring it to its conclusion and (possible sequel). There are still quite a few chapters to go don't worry but I haven't written them yet!
I must admit that at this point I'm not as keen on writing a sequel as I was before I started writing this story. So we will have to see.
Thanks for all my regular reviewers. You know who you are and I love you guys so much for being consistent and giving me those bursts of happiness throughout the week when I see your reviews.
And as usual here are my replies below:
ILOVEYOUCLACE – Oh a fellow British person! I love Jamie but I am warming to the new cast mainly because I want to see the series complete fully. I want to see the whole series grace our TV screens. I wonder when it will air in the UK. That's so cute about Jamie and Lily inspiring you x
Lindsayhonaker – I'm glad you're still liking it. Sometimes I feel like I am really stretching the content with my 'creative license'.
Blushingfangirl – thanks for the review my lovely
Guest – This chapter was fun to write. But wait until you read this one. It's a completely different level.
Delranangel – Oh I know! I wanted to keep it real I guess … As much as I could. And I think Jace will enjoy it for the most part once he gets over certain things. As you will read in this chapter. I love Jamie. I wish the original cast had a chance to make a second movie. And I know everyone complained that it wasn't close to the book but it seems like the tv show won't be like that either. But I felt like the second book had so much more interesting content to be played with on the big screen.
Abooknerdandproud – thanks I'm so glad you liked it.
lunatic-blondie – haha love it. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Enjoy x
He takes her hand and guides her out of the shower when they are and wraps her up in a big fluffy towel and wraps one around himself. They are both silent.
When they re-enter her room she sits on the edge of the bed and he stands in front of her drying himself off. She is lost in her thoughts watching his semi naked body in front of her, until his voice breaks her out of them.
"I'm sorry." He says finally.
She looks up and he is standing in front of her in last night's boxers.
"What for?" she asks confused.
"I got a bit too carried away…" he says scratching his neck absently. She can tell he looks embarrassed.
"Oh…" she says softly not sure what to reply. She had enjoyed it much to her surprise despite it not being what she had expected.
"I mean … I got really carried away." He says sighing, "I'll ... I'll be more careful next time."
She looks up at him blankly and really isn't sure what to say. This is new territory for her.
He starts pulling the rest of his clothes on frantically and Clary sits there on the end of her bed observing him with an equal measure of curiosity and confusion. He looks agitated.
"Aren't you going to get dressed?" He asks tightly once he is dressed himself.
She nods and goes over to her walk in closet. She feels like he needs a moment to himself. She pulls on the first pair of matching underwear she finds and picks up a casual tank top and a mini tube skirt. She has been dressing in much more girly fashion since she started dating Jace and enjoys looking good for him but she wonders if this is too much considering the way he is acting right now.
She walks out of the closet and holds them up in front of her smiling hoping to break him out of his strange mood. "Is this okay for today?" She asks him brightly.
He looks over at her quickly and suddenly his face turns white. He stalking towards her and she drops them in panic. He grabs hold of her by her arms and drops his head down to waist.
"Are those bruises on your ... Hips?!" He asks shrilly in a tone that was completely unlike him.
She looks down to where he is peering and notices purplish marks emerging on the side of her hips and waist, "I guess so..."she says bemused and pulls his head up, "what is wrong with you Jace?"
"I did those?!" He asks hyperventilating his hands still gripping her at her arms
"Ohhh in the shower.." Clary says confused by his line of questioning, "Will you calm down... What's wrong?"
"What's wrong?" He asks laughing in a panicky tone stepping back from her, "you have bruises on your body and you're asking me what's wrong?!"
"Jace, you need to calm down." She says sighing, "I didn't even feel it, I can't even feel them."
She picks up her skirt and top of the floor and pulls them on quickly to cover up. She hopes this will calm him down.
He has turned away from her and is pacing the room and muttering to himself like a crazy person.
She hears the words 'abuse' and 'depraved' but can't make out the rest.
"Jace!" She cries out walking towards him stopping him in his tracks. He backs away from her and she keeps walking towards him until he eventually hits a wall.
"Don't come near me, Clary!" He begs putting his hands in front of him, "I'm the depraved human being who manhandled you in the shower."
She steps forward finally having enough and slaps him hard. He opens his eyes wide in shock and clutches his cheek.
"I totally deserved that ..." He says still clutching his cheek.
"Have you completely lost your mind?" She cries out in frustration.
"Yes, maybe, I don't know... I'm so sorry..." He stutters. This is so unlike him her mouth flies open in shock.
She cuts him off with her mouth as she pulls him down into a kiss. She moves urgently against his mouth and he gives in to her. She feels him trying to pull away and says, "Don't you dare!" aggressively against his lips and continues to kiss him roughly.
She carries on kissing him and slowly guides him back towards her bed. She breaks the kiss and pushes him down onto the bed hard. She climbs on top of him and continues her assault on his senses kissing him until she runs out of breath.
She is still straddling him and leans down to lie against his chest.
"You're insane, Jace Lightwood." She gasps breathlessly, "Use your 'words' please ... And tell me why you're acting so strange."
He is breathing hard and shakes his head.
"Is this about the shower sex?" She asks finally after she had regained her breath. She would be blushing if it wasn't for the strangeness of the situation.
"Clarissa..." He starts groaning turning his head away, "I'm sorry..."
"I didn't understand why you were apologising before and I still don't." She says frustrated clutching onto his t-shirt.
"Because ..." He starts sighing but stops.
"Speak now!" She says pulling his face towards her, "and if you're lying I'll know and I'm going to..."
"Because I fucked you in the shower." He says quickly before he can chicken out.
"And you're apologising for that because...?" She asks hotly although the words make her colour but she is too angry to feel embarrassed.
"Because I fucked you in the shower." He repeats almost as if he is coming to terms with it.
"I think I pretty much begged you to take me in the shower Jace... It was pretty much expected that we would have sex." She says frustrated.
"That wasn't sex Clarissa... That was purely animalistic ...That's not how you treat your girlfriend... I mean I completely lost it... And I completely forgot how new this is for you.. I took advantage of you." He says reluctantly, he actually looks apologetic. She can't comprehend the words that are coming out of his mouth.
"How many girlfriends have you had before me?" She asks bitingly sitting up against him, "I mean real girlfriends.. Not fuck buddies."
"None... You know that!" He groans awkwardly. He hates being reminded of the past. He covers his eyes with his hands.
"Exactly!" She says, "So what would you know?"
He looks over at her finally.
"I know I'm not meant to be taking advantage of you." He says firmly, his eyes are stone.
"You didn't take advantage of me!" She cries out, "I don't feel like I've been taken advantage of! I feel great!"
"You have bruises on your body." He says roughly sitting up and pushing her off him lightly.
"Where you held on to me to stop me from falling over ... I'm pretty grateful for that." She says shoving him roughly in frustration.
"You're not getting this." He groans setting his feet on the floor.
"No I don't think you are," she groans in return, "I loved every second of it... It wasn't what I expected but it was better. I sound like a whore when I say these things out loud but you just don't get it. I loved it. It felt great and I want you to fuck me again and again and again. Do you understand me?"
He looks over at her his mouth open wide his eyes darken perceptibly and subconsciously Clary shifts away from off him.
"I didn't hurt you?" He asks intensely after a long pause.
"No." She says softly trapped in his gaze.
"You enjoyed it?" He asks his voice hoarse.
"Yes." She says her heart starting to race.
"You don't think I'm a monster?" He asks unevenly.
"No." She says her cheeks are burning now.
"And you still want to be with me?" He asks.
"Yes." She says firmly.
"Okay." He says sighing and pulling her back towards him.
"I love you." She says hotly tears springing to her eyes, "but if you ever do this to me again I'm going to kick your ass."
"Hey... Don't cry..." He says softly, "this is all new to me I'm so confused I feel like you're going to run away from me screaming sometimes. I'm sorry baby... I won't .. I'll stop jumping to conclusions. I love you so much. I'm just afraid of losing you. I love you so much." He says kissing the tears that are coming out of her eyes.
At those words she is sobbing against his chest as a days' worth of emotions tumble out of her.
"What's wrong?" He asks stroking her hair, "Did I hurt you, baby?" She doesn't understand how the tables have turned and now he's comforting her.
"I'm so tired and you're so crazy I just wanted to eat some breakfast. I'm so hungry!" She cries incoherently into his shirt.
He chuckles at this and she cries even harder.
"Please stop crying I'm sorry baby. I'll make you breakfast whatever you like. You must be tired ... I'm sorry." He says genuinely stroking her hair.
"The maid will bring me breakfast. Order me some pancakes." She says weakly against his chest hiccupping.
"Okay." He says reaching over to grab the phone beside her bed. He orders pancakes for her and the same for himself.
He holds her in his arms stroking her hair until she stops crying.
He kisses her forehead and she snuggles against him sniffing.
"I'm sorry for not feeding you baby. I'm sorry for not communicating even though I told you I would try harder. I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions. I'm so madly in love with you it scares me sometimes." He says gently pouring out all his thoughts.
"It's okay." She says quietly still sniffing, "Erm..." She stops herself blushing.
"Tell me.." He says softly.
"What's the difference?" She asks quietly.
"Between?" He asks confused.
"Last night and this morning..." She says softly averting his gaze.
"Oh ..." He says thoughtfully, "I guess there isn't much difference and I know I made it sound like something lewd but I didn't mean it like that. I mean last night it was amazing but I was in control for the most part and I loved it being with you in that way it was as you put it 'earth-shattering'. It was so good I've never experienced that with anyone else."
"And this morning?" She asks.
"Well I guess I wasn't in control at all ... I just went with it and I kind of lost control of myself. It was more ... I just wasn't in control. But I still knew it was you and that was the best bit. I guess I just surprised myself I've never really gone that full on with anyone before it's never been so out if control that I couldn't stop myself and it slightly scared me. And I thought it must have scared you too. Believe it or not I've never had sex in the shower before that was a first for me too." He says gently but his tone is light by the end.
"Really?" She asks.
"I guess I was wrong I didn't fuck you. I lost myself in you and it felt so good it scared me. I've never had that before with anyone." He says softly running his hands through her hair gently.
"It felt good to me too." She says smiling shyly up at him.
There is a knock at the door and the pancakes have arrived on a trolley with orange juice.
Clary smiles over at Jace as they both tuck into their breakfast. Despite the strangeness of last night and this morning she feels good. She feels relieved. She can't help but think that if they can get through this then they can get through anything.
Okay so how did everyone like that?
It was a really fun chapter for me to write in terms of showing how they interact with each. They're still learning about each other all the time. So it was quite nice to write.
I hope you guys enjoyed.
So I guess I will ask about a sequel closer to the time I am finishing this story.
It's been pretty smooth sailing for them so far. For the most part.
I am also updating all my other stories this week (and weekend). So check out the others. They're all so different.
I also have 3 new stories in the pipeline (maybe when I'm done with the four I am working on now.
And people who have read and enjoyed 'Flashback' ... do you want that to be a chaptered story .. I mean I have an idea in my head and a potential first two chapters. But I do like it as it is. It leaves some mystery.
Much love x