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Chapter 4: Perfect

The next morning I woke up in James' embrace. I smiled and looked up at his slumbering face. This was the first time we had woken up like this. I had never woken up in bed with James holding me like this. Before it had always been alone. He never stayed. This was definitely something I could get used to. It was great.

To top it all off we were still naked after everything we had done last night. We had amazing sex and then another round in the shower. It was amazing. I couldn't count how many times we said that we loved one another. I had said it so many times and James would laugh and say it back then kiss me. Hearing him say he loved me was just great. It made me so happy and I wanted to hear it again. Then he's say it first and I'd smile with the same thing in return. Everything was just amazing.

I glanced over at the clock and saw it was almost eight. It was our day off too. Last night had been perfect, but I didn't get much sleep and I don't think James did either. I still felt a little tired, but I knew if we didn't get up soon Mrs. Knight might come and wake us up.

I looked up at James again and smiled brightly. I was just so happy that we were finally together. Maybe we would have a relationship like Kendall and Logan's relationship. That was all I ever really wanted. I wanted love. That was it. I wanted to be able to proudly tell the world I loved someone and that they loved me too. The fact that it was James was just the icing on the cake. This wasn't going to be easy though. Gustavo didn't want Kendall and Logan out publicly beyond the Palm Woods, and he probably would want the same for James and I. I didn't know if I could do that, but we'd cross that bridge when we got there. I just knew that right now I had James finally and everything was perfect. This was all just too perfect for me. I prayed to god that if this was a dream that I never woke up.

I looked at James' face once again. He was sleeping peacefully and had a smile on his face. I reached over and stroked his cheek lightly. He just looked so perfect laying there. He looked almost like an angel sent straight from heaven. It was a little hard to believe that he was all mine. I could lay here forever and just watch him sleep. I didn't want to wake him up yet. I sighed and pressed my face into James' chest. I felt James' arms tighten around me and I looked up at him. I saw him smiling down at me.

"Morning," James said his voice thick with sleep.

"Morning," I said smiling brightly at him. I just couldn't not smile this morning, no matter how hard I tried. I was ecstatic. "This is the first time we've woken up like this," I stated. James seemed thoughtful for a moment before he spoke.

"I know isn't it great?" James asked as he sat up slightly and captured my lips in a sweet mind numbing kiss. We moved our lips together gently for a moment before we parted. James fell back onto the bed. He had a goofy smile on his face. I was sure I had the same smile as well.

"This is just so perfect," I said resting my head on his chest. We laid there for a bit. I was almost lulled back to sleep by the beating of James' heartbeat until we heard movement in the next room.

"Kendall and Logan must be awake," James said looking in the direction of the noise. I nodded my head in agreement. I then remembered our show in front of them last night. They probably would want to know what was going on between me and James. We owed them an explanation. Especially after last night. I knew we had to tell them. They did come out to us first. We hadn't stayed long enough to tell them what was going on. I hoped that they wouldn't be too mad at us.

"I think we owe them an explanation," I said looking up at James.

"I think you're right," he said sighing. "I just don't want to get out of bed," he said. I laughed and reluctantly sat up.

"Come on they told us when they got together and we owe them," I said. James pulled a face but sat up. We both got out of bed and got dressed. I caught James peeking at me a few times. The only reason I caught him peeking was because I was peeking as well. This was new territory for us, and I liked it. It was better than denying our feelings. We had everything laid out in front of us.

After we finished dressing we walked out to the living room. Kendall and Logan were in the kitchen getting breakfast ready. I was a little scared that they'd be mad. I didn't want them to be. I hoped they be happy for us.

"We can do this," James said. I nodded my head. He was right. It's not like they would hate us. They were our best friend and they were dating themselves. They may just be mad that we didn't tell them right away, then again James and I weren't really dating until well last night.

I took a deep breath and together we walked into the kitchen. "Guys," I said getting their attention. They both turned and looked at me and James. We stood there for a moment in silence.

"Why didn't you guys tell us?" Kendall asked before we could say anything, "you know we would've supported you," he added quickly.

"It's true, it's not like we're homophobic," Logan said matter-of-factly. He was right. They'd be hypocrites if they were.

"Look we weren't really dating," James said slowly. I knew he wasn't sure how they would react to this news.

"We only really just realized our feelings for one another," I said. I had been in love with James for months, I don't know how long James had been in love with me.

"When did whatever you two were doing start?" Kendall asked.

"On tour," James said, "in Florida to be exact," he said. I nodded my head at that.

"We're happy for you guys really," Logan said smiling at us. Kendall nodded his head in agreement. I ran over to them both and pulled them into a hug. I was glad they weren't too mad at us. I didn't know if I could handle that right now. I didn't want them bringing me down on such a happy day.

"Thank you guys," I said smiling yet again. I was probably going to be smiling a lot today. I was ok with that though. This was really a happy day for me.

"Your welcome Carlos," they both said laughing. I let them go and together the four of us finished breakfast as Mrs. Knight and Katie walked down the hall. We needed to tell them what had happened. They were like family to us after all. I looked over at James and he nodded his head.

"Mrs. Knight, Katie there's something Carlos and I have to say," James said walking over to her. He had been thinking the same thing as me.

"What?" Mrs. Knight asked looking at James and then to me. I walked over to James and grabbed his hand.

"We're kind of dating," I said, "it happened last night," I added.

"About time," Katie said shaking her head as she sat down at the table in her usual seat. I looked over at her shocked. I knew she was smart, but not that smart. I didn't think she had been picking up on mine and James' feelings for each other.

"Like I told Kendall and Logan I am ok with it," Mrs. Knight said walking over to us and giving us both a hug. "Just keep it to the bedroom and we won't have a problem," she said causing us to blush. She then sat down at the table as well. James and I sat down as well and we enjoyed our breakfast together.

The morning after that went by like usual, except James and I hardly parted. We sat together on the couch and watched TV. When I got up for a snack James was right there with me, with his hands on me in some way. I didn't hate it. It was nice. We stayed together as much as we could and things were just perfect. I was so happy. I finally had what I had been craving for I don't know how long. I finally had the one person I loved and he loved me back.

The afternoon came and we all got bored. Katie had left to go hang out with Tyler a few hours ago. I think something was going on between them. I mean they were fifteen now and Tyler was slimming down. Mrs. Knight had some errands to run so she'd be gone for a few hours. The rest of us were still in the apartment sitting on the couch bored.

"I am so bored," Kendall whined for the umpteenth time. We all were bored, but he seemed to be the most vocal about it.

"Let's go down to the pool," James suggested. I looked at Logan and we both nodded our heads. Kendall was already on his way to his room to get changed causing the rest of us to laugh.

The four of us changed into our bathing suits and headed down to the pool. I was still on cloud nine as we set our stuff down by our pool chairs. Camille and Lucy were down at the pool as well. We walked over to them and talking them into joining us for a game in the pool.

After we spent some time in the pool the six of us decided to just chill and take in some rays. The four of us sat in our usual chairs. Camille and Lucy sat down with us as well and we all started talking about nothing in particular. Everything was perfect. James told Camille and Lucy about us and they were happy for us. They weren't shocked though. Camille had actually seen it coming.

After Camille and Lucy left and we decided to head back to the apartment. Mrs. Knight was there and cooking dinner. It smelled really good. Kendall and Logan walked to their room to change but Mrs. Knight stopped me and James.

"Boys," she said.

"Yes," James said turning around to face her. I did the same. She had a her serious voice and I knew this had to be important.

"You two are going to have tell your parents about you two dating," She said.

"I forgot all about that," I said honestly.

"We'll do that," James said, "maybe we'll invite them out here sometime soon," he said looking at me. I nodded my head. It was probably better to do it in person than over the phone. I knew I wouldn't want to be told big news over the phone, but then again what if my parents weren't happy.

I didn't realize James had dragged us to our room until we were there. I walked over to my dresser and started to change. I was still thinking about my parents though. What if they weren't happy about this. I mean I was their only son and I was gay. They were never going to get a grandchild now. That was all they had talked about before. They always joked about grandkids.

"What if my parents aren't happy about this?" I asked finally voicing my thought aloud. I pulled my shirt of my head and turned to look at James.

"I don't know," James said, "we can only hope for the best," he said walking over to me once he was fully dressed. "let's not let those thoughts ruin our perfect day together," he said. I nodded my head and grabbed a shirt. I put it on and walked over to him. I pecked him on the lips and we left our room together and walked out to the living room. Kendall and Logan were already watching TV.

Tada! There you go. I hope you all liked this. I would like to say that Carlos is a bit OOC (Out of Character) in this. That is because he kind of has to be for this story. I know I haven't mentioned it, but it's becuase of waht happened with him and James. He had to grow up fast because of that and the hollywood spotlight thrust onto him. This will come into play a bit later on too. There will be more chapters and more drama. So, review and let me know what you think.

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