They get inside the door and Lorelai comes immediately and hugs Brendan. "You scared me, you know that?"
"I'm sorry." was all Brendan could say.
"You and I will talk later, I think there's someone else that you need to talk to right now." Lorelai points to Luke, who is standing in the doorway. Lorelai and Rory leave the foyer, leaving Luke and Brendan alone.
"Do you hate me dad?"
"No. I could never hate you Bren." He says.
"Then why did you move away?"
"I moved away because mommy and daddy couldn't be together because of a bad mistake I made. It's not mommy's fault at all."
"Why did you make the bad mistake?"
"I still don't know Brendan. I really dont. I've been asking myself why I did, but I just don't know why and I've been trying to make it up to your mommy, but I'm not sure If I'm going such a great job."
"What exactly did you do that made mommy kick you out?"
"I...I..."He says stuttering, not wanting to tell his small son, who may not know certain things. "Something bad." He mutters.
He rolls his eyes. "You always say that. but what was the something bad that you did?"
"I cheated on her Brendan, okay. I cheated and I don't deserve your mother at all." He says.
"What do you mean by cheated?"
He looked at Brendan, not wanting to explain it to him. "I um..had.." Just then Lorelai came into the foyer after hearing their conversation.
"Hey, what are you two talking about?"
"Daddy was just about to tell me how he cheated on you."
"Oh....you told him that?"
"I didn't know what else to say. I thought you would have talked to them or told them why I got kicked out, but Brendan bombarded me and I told him I cheated on you and he asked what I meant by cheating ..and I didn't tell him the next part." He says
"He said he doesn't deserve you." Brendan added "Is that true mommy?"
She looks at Luke and Brendan, then back at Luke and answers her son, without looking down at him. "Yes honey, its true. He doesn't deserve me...but I don't deserve him either."
"Why not?" Brendan asks confused.
"Because...."She thinks of what to say.
Luke looks at her waiting for an answer.
"Because of the way I treated him. I ignored him and left him out."
"Why did you leave him out?"
"Because he left me out first...when I had Colin, he was barely home. Then things got back to normal and then he sleeps with his ex girlfriend!" Lorelai gets louder as she speaks.
Luke hangs his head in guilt, but also realized that he will never be able to forget or be forgiven for what he did.
"And your mom will never let me prove to her that I have changed and that I do love her, nor will she let me prove that I am sorry and how much she does deserve me. It will always be about what I did wrong. Maybe it wasn't a good idea for daddy to move back home. I'm going to go kiddo. I'll stop by tomorrow to see you." He says and looks at Lorelai and walks out the door.
Lorelai follows Luke outside. "Luke, please, don't go. Come back inside." She begs him.
He turns around. "Answer me one question and you better have a good explanation..why? Why should I come back in?"
"Because.....Because I love you, you idiot!" She shouts from across the lawn.
He turns around and looks up at her standing on the porch and he starts to walk towards her and she walks toward him.
Instead of giving each other a kiss, then envelope each other in a tight hug, which means more to her than any kiss could ever mean.
Luke smiles and just holds her tightly. "So, is it safe to say you want me home?"
She smiles as she digs her head into his shoudler, holding him just as tight. "I'm the one that asked in the first place."
He smiles and stands there holding here for awhile. Finally he speaks. "So, I just had this image of all of our children standing at the window looking out."
She smiles and leans closer to him. "Well then, let's give them something to talk about." She whispers and leans in, kissing him.
Luke was taken back in shock at first, but sweetly kisses her back, not wanting to make it anymore, unless she wanted it. He twirled her hair as he kissed her. Lorelai pulls away, then runs back into the house without saying a word to him. Luke was confused about what had just happened, so he slowly walks back toward the house and walks in.
"Dad, you might want to go upstairs. Mommy had a weird look on her face." Kelsey tells him. Luke walks upstairs and sees Lorelai pacing back and forth in the hallway, talking to herself.
He chuckles to himself, knowing that that was her being nervous and thinking.
"You okay?" He says, which causes her to jump.
She smacks him on the arm. "Don't scare me like that!"
"Sorry."
"Just give me one minute and then we can talk, I promise." She goes into her room, shuts the door, screams really loudly and then comes back out.
"Alright, we should talk."
"Right." He says. "Where?"
"Uhh.." She looks around. "Might be best to talk somewhere where there isn't a bed."
He grins at her and laughs "Lorelai, if there were any intentions from either one of us to have sex, we wouldn't care if there was abed. Has that stopped us before?"
She rolls her eyes and slaps him again. "Sooo not the point. But fine, let's talk in my room."
He laughs and they go in.
They sit on the bed, because Lorelai is beginning to get tired and needs to sit down, and they begin to talk.
"I'm sorry I just randomly kissed you like that."
"It's okay, but why did u do it?"
She shrugs. "I guess...I just wanted to."
He nods, still confused.
"You think I'm crazy, don't you?"
"Not at all." He says and looks at her.
"Luke, just admit it, I'm crazy."
"Your not crazy. I just wanted to know why..but hey i kissed back"
"I kissed you because I wanted to...it was probably way too soon for that though. I mean, you just moved back in."
"I'm not sure if it was or not, but if you want us to be at the stage of kissing it would be okay."
"I don't know Luke.....I'm not sure if I'm ready yet."
He just nods and says to her "Then please do not kiss me. I don't want my feelings messed with anymore than you do Lorelai."
She looks down at the floor and a tear hits the rug. "I'm sorry."
Luke feels bad, but isn't sure why she is crying. "Wait, why are you crying?"
"Everything thats happened between us up until right now...its just...overwhelming."
"I'm sorry if I said something wrong."
"Its not you...you've been perfect."
He smiles. "What's wrong then?" He asks.
She looks at him, and flings herself at him. giving him a hug. "Please promise me you won't ever leave me...no matter what. Just promise me you won't ever leave me again. Never move out again. Never walk away again. Promise me." She begs him.
"I promise." He says. "I'm not going anywhere. No matter what." He says.
"Good, because I like you here."
"And I like it here as well." He says.
"Thank you." She wipes her eyes.
"Not a problem." He says and hands her his sleeve for her to wipe her eyes.
"I'm sorry about Brendan."
"It's not your fault. I'm sure he will be okay."
"Yes it is, I made him hate you."
"How on earth did you make him hate me?"
"I didn't send him to visit you enough....I was just so busy with the Inn, but I should have made more time. Its all my fault."
"None of this is your fault, do you hear me?"
"But if I just-" He cuts her off.
"It is not your fault. I could have came by too."
"I'm just...really sorry all of this happened."
"It's okay." He says soothingly. "It's okay." He says and strokes her hair.
Eventually Luke and Lorelai went back downstairs to spend time with the kids and then later they all went to bed.
It is now five weeks later. The kids are all loving their daddy back home and even Lorelai is liking it more and more. Lorelai and Luke are not back together yet, but are becoming closer and closer to that step everyday. Luke is still sleeping in the guest room, but acts as the father again. HE makes dinner, helps fixing things, and is of course protective of all of them.
The past week or so Lorelai has been sick. She thought it was just the flu and brushed it off, but Luke insisted she go to the doctor to make sure is was nothing serious. As promised, she made the appointment and went. She was now sitting in the doctors room, waiting for him to come in and examine her.
The doctor finally came in 10 minutes later.
"Lorelai." He said and shook her hand.
"Doctor Stevens." She said back
"So what am I seeing you here for today?" He asks
"I um have been sick the past week. Throwing up, nauseated, and sometimes heat flashes. I'm guessing it's the flu. I dont know." She says
He nods. "Well lets check and see shall we?" He says and has her lie back on the table. He starts to press on her stomach lightly
"Any pain there?" he asks and she says no
He continues and then has her sit up. He does other tests and can't diagose her with the flu.
"Lorelai, I don't think you have the flu."
"I don't ?" She asks confused
"No,when was your last mentrual period?"
She widens her eyes "Oh God, things have been so hectic, um last month maybe? I don't think I got it this month."
He nods "Can I perform a pregnancy test on you?"
She just looks at him
"Just to be safe" He says
"Okay..but I haven't had sex since..." she drowns out remembering the events with steve.
The doctor performed the test and looks at her
"Lorelai, you are indeed pregnant."
"A..a...are you sure?"
he nods and she shakes her head and then shakes his hand and walks out. She gets in her car and lets out a loud scream.
Lorelai picks up her cell phone with a shake hand and dials the house. Luke answers and hears a crying Lorelai on the other end.
"Luke...please come pick me up."
"What's the ..." He says and says instead "I'll be right there." He says and goes to her.
He gets there and opens her car door. "What's going on?"
"Nothing...I just...want you to take me home." She says, suddenly very quiet, no longer crying, her face is just white and shows no emotion.
"Okay." He says and they walk to his truck and get in. They were quiet most of the way home.
"So what did the doctor say?" Luke asks.
She continues to stare out the window when she say it out loud. "I'm pregnant. That little asshole got me pregnant!" She starts to talk louder. "I can't believe this! What am I going to do!?" SHe continues talking to herself.
Luke stops the car. "What!?"
She looks over at him, as if she didn't just say all that out loud. "Why'd you stop the car?"
"You just said you are pregnant to Steve. I'll kill him. I swear!"
"Can we just go home please? I really don't want to talk about this right now."
He just nods and takes her home.
"How can I be pregnant?" Lorelai asks herself as she walks inside and sits on the couch.
"Luke hears her and follows, sitting next to her, not sure if he should say anything."
She sighs and looks at Luke, then looks back at the floor. "I guess you probably want to pack up your stuff now."
"Why on earth would I want to do that?" He asks."Unless you are going back to Steve"
"I'm not going back to Steve...I just figured you wouldn't want to raise this baby that is from another guy."
"I do not want that man anywhere near you, or our children, so I definitely would not want him around this unborn child." He says
"If you allow me, we can tell people the baby is mine and I can raise it as mine." He says bravely.
"Luke, I respect that decision, and I know that you would love to raise it and pretend that it is yours. But I can't live like that, I can't live a lie like that."
He just nods, fearing he would lose her again.
"I just...need to know that you won't leave me. That even though this child isn't yours, if I have him or her, that you'll be here for me. It won't freak you out that it isn't yours. Promise me?"
"I promise you I won't leave, as long as you allow me to love the kid as much as I love my own kids." He says.
She nods. "Luke...what if...what if I can't love it the way I should. Its the product of a rape, what if I can't love it. What if I hate it? What if I shouldn't keep it?" She hated herself for even thinking that.
"Lorelai, regardless of where the child came from or how it was conceived I have no doubt that you will have trouble loving it."
"How can you know for sure? What if I look at it and just hate it. I don't want to have Steve's baby Luke, I really really don't want to. He doesn't deserve a child."
"Well, you are going to have this man's baby, weather you like it or not. Unless you want to ..abort it." He says, knowing she would never do that. "But I know you would never do that. I guess you could also put him or her up for adoption?"
"I'm really scared Luke. I hate this, I really hate this. Why did I have to get pregnant! I hate that he got me pregnant with this stupid kid!" She says loudly, starting to turn against the child that she is pregnant with.
He embraces her into a tight hug. "It's going to be okay, you will see."
She begins to cry in his arms. "I wish our life had a rewind button."
"Me too." He whispers. "I would do so much differently."
"Me too...me too. I am so glad you were here for me today."
"I got your back anytime." He says and she smiles.
"So are you showing yet?" He asks.
"I don't think so. The doctor said I'm only about a month along."
"Okay." He says and she pulls away from his hug.
She wipes her eyes and smiles. "Thanks...well...I'm going to head to the Inn, make sure Michel didn't burn it down. The kids need to be picked up from school at 3. Are you heading back to the diner?"
"I'm going to head back, yes. Do you want me to pick up Colin at Daycare?"
"Sure, that would really help me out. He needs to get picked up at 2. Thanks."
"It's not a problem, but how are you getting to work? Your jeep is at the doctors office." He reminds her and she sighs
"Need a ride?"
She nods. "Thanks." She follows him out the front door.
He gets there and drops her off. She tells him that Sookie will take her home and he nods, leaving to go to work. Lorelai goes into her office to work on paperwork, not wanting to really talk about her doctor visit. She began to look at the pictures that were on her desk. One with all the kids, one with her and the kids, which was taken the previous mothers day, and then one with her, luke and the kids, which she recently added back to her desk. She just smiled and then looked down at her stomach.
Lorelai becomes bored half way through the day and does something that she hopes she will not regret. She opens her cell phone and looks for Steve's number in her contacts, clicks on the number and calls him.
"Hello?" A grumpy Steve answers.
"Hi Steve."
"Lorelai?" He asks, recognizing her voice.
"Yeah its me, remember,the girlfriend you tried to kill."
"I'm sorry about that, I was drunk and upset."
"So you decided to follow me and try to kill me?"
"I didn't mean to do it Lorelai! Why are you even calling me?"
"I have some news that I think you should know." She says harshly.
"What is it?"
"I'm pregnant."
There is silence on the line for a couple of minutes before he speaks again. "You're pregnant?"
"Yes, I just thought you should know."
"You keeping it?"
"Yes, I'm keeping it."
"You want money from me or something?"
"No, I don't want your money, I just want you to know that in 9 months you will have a child in the world....and if you ever tell anyone that I am telling you this now I swear to god I will make you wish you didn't."
"Can I see it?"
"Are you kidding me?"
"Its not a stupid question."
"You raped me, you son of a B i t c h!" She screams over the phone.
"And I'd do it again if I could! But you put a restraining order against me! And now your pregnant!"
"Have a horrible life Steve!"
"Right back at you Lorelai!" With that said they both hang up. Lorelai throws her phone against the wall, then takes a deep breath, slowly letting it out..feeling strangely relieved.
Lorelai continues to work up to lunch, when she realized she was hungry and better eat. She looks at her watch and its 1:00. She goes to the kitchen grabs something to eat and comes back to her office with it.
On her desk sat a boquet of flowers with a card. She took the card and it read.
Just a little something to brighten your day
-Luke
Lorelai smiles and figures out what Luke is trying to do. He's finally starting to "win" her back. Ever since he has moved home he hasn't really done much to show her that he wants them to get back together. Lorelai is taking these flowers and the note as a sign that he is finally starting.
Sookie walks in behind her. "Ohhh someone got flowers. Are they from Luke?" She asks.
Lorelai rolls her eyes and laughs. "Yess they are. Aren't they beautiful?"
"Very beautiful. What's the occasion? Oh my God, you two got back together didn't you?"
"No way Sookie, not yet its way too soon for that. He's only been back in the house for 5 weeks."
"But it's you and Luke and you guys are ment to be." she says
Lorelai gives her a look and she gets quiet. "Okay okay. I'm just saying."
Lorelai smiles at her and then Sookie goes to the kitchen.
Lorelai finished out the day and got a ride home with Sookie.
Colin greeted her at the door as she walked in.
"Mommy, daddy wont let me eat the cookies on the table!"
"what?" She asks confused
"Come see." He says pulling her hand
She walks in the kitchen an sees Oreos that spell out just another way (meaning to brighten your day) then with a smiley face. He did this the way Rory always spelled out happy birthday.
"Can I puhlease have one?" Colin begs.
"Take the ones from the box baby." She says and hands him the box of cookies, then looks at the table and smiles.
"Luke...you made this for me?"
"Yes, I did and Colin bugged me the whole time." He says and laughs. Colin was now sitting on the floor in the living room and eating cookies.
"Aw, thanks Lukey. This is so nice of you." She says and starts eating the cookies.
"Your welcome, but don't eat too many. We are going out to dinner. Me, you , and the kids."
"Really? Where are we going?"
"It's a surprise, but you can change into comfy clothes if you want."
"Is that a clue about where we are eating?" She asks curiously.
"You'll see."
"Okay, so...its a place where the kids will be with us." She tries to think of where to be going, and is hiding the fact that she wishes it was just her and him going out to dinner.
He smiles. "Yes."
Just then Katrina comes in "Hey dad. We are going to stay home. You and mom go to the dinner."
"Katrina? What are you doing home? Its only 2:30." Lorelai tells her daughter, pointing at the clock. Then looks at Luke. "No its okay, we can all go to dinner, its what your dad wants."
Luke only nods.
"Did you guys forget how to talk all of a sudden?" She asks her husband and daughter.
"Well, I thought maybe you and daddy would want to go to dinner alone tonight. You haven't spent much alone time with us crazy kids running around." Katie says.
Luke smiles, understanding the hint she was making. Katie looks at her dad and he smiles at her. She then goes back into the living room.
"Dinner alone wouldn't be bad, huh?" Luke says.
"No..uh...not bad at all." She answers nervously. She wants to if its a date or not, but she knows she can't ask him that. "I'll be upstairs." She rushes upstairs to try and find something to wear for her maybe date tonight.
He smiles, happy they were going out alone for once. He goes in the living room and sits on the couch, watching TV.
Later that night Luke yells up the stairs to Lorelai. It was around 5:00 p.m.
"Lorelai, are you ready?" He asks.
"Almost!" She shouts down the stairs.
He laughs and stands by the stairs waiting for her and Katie came down.
"What on earth is she doing?" He asks.
"She's getting ready dad, duh."
"Okay." He nods looking at his watch. He has called and arranged reservations at a nice restaurant since the kids weren't going. He was waiting on Lorelai.
A few minutes later Lorelai comes down the stairs, wearing a long skirt and a very pretty shirt.
"Okay, I'm ready." She announces in a shy voice. Very nervous about going out alone with Luke.
"You look very nice." He says to her.
"Thanks..so uh...do you. Is this okay? I wasn't sure what to w..wear." She stutters nervously as she walks down the stairs and over to him.
He smiles at how nervous she was. "You look perfect." He says.
She smiles back then looks at her oldest daughter. "Are you sure you don't want me to call a babysitter?"
"Mom, I am 14. I can watch the rest of them."
"Alright, just make sure the wild party is cleaned up before we get home." SHe says with a laugh and gives her daughter a kiss on the cheek. "Call me if you need anything."
"Okay, go now." She says to her parents.
"Fine, Fine." Lorelai says goodbye to the rest of them and then heads out to the car. Luke stays behind.
"Do you have everything ready dad?"
"Yeah." He whispers into his mic, so that Lorelai couldn't hear. He led her to the passengers side, opened her door, and helped her in.
They get to the restaurant and sit down at the table. Luke looks nervously down at his shirt.
"Why do you keep looking at your shirt?" She asks curiously.
"Making sure it looks okay I guess." He says.
"I think you look very handsome."
"Well..thanks. "He says and smiles.
"You gotta say more than that dad." Katrina tells him through the microphone.
"I've already said it, but you like very nice as well."
"Thanks...you are being very sweet tonight. Its like someone's telling you what to say." Lorelai says and laughs, not knowing how true it really was for Luke.
"Change the subject, ask her about her day." Kartina whispers to her dad.
"So how was your day? I mean besides finding out the news and all." He says not wanting katie to know about the pregnancy.
"It was good. It felt great to get back to work these last couple of weeks. I'm feeling much better. How was your day?"
"Good. It was a slow day, but it was good." He says.
"Good...Good." Then a lull comes in the conversation and Luke can't think of what to say next.
"So um..you tell anyone else?" Luke asks.
"About the pregnancy?" He nods. "Is that really important?"
"I..I..I'm sorry. I just asked." He says and then it goes quiet because he wasn't sure what to say.
Lorelai had turned to ask the waiter for a glass of water, so Luke turned as well and talked into his microphone. "Katie, I'm dying out here!"
"Calm down dad, it can't be that bad."
"Not that bad? I have nothing else to say to her."
"Dad, she's your wif-"
"She is not my wife Katrina, I don't even know her anymore. Why is this so hard?"
Lorelai had turned back around and saw Luke talking to his shirt. "Uh, Luke? What are you doing?" She asks, then Luke turns around, startled and forgets that he is holding the tiny microphone in his fingers. "What is that?"