A/N - MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hey guys, now I know you'll be all like 'WHERE THE FRICK WHERE YOU' or maybe something like 'Oh, this story again. I forgot about it!' But before we go there lemme explain! Well I know you thought I was dead but it was actually the inspiration that was dead for this story. :'( Also, I had to pack and all that for my holiday, which i'm leaving for tomorrow. Thanks for sticking with me guys, and being so patient... (even when I left you on a cliffie.) Love you, and enjoy!
You know the drill: I own zero, zip, zilch, nil, nada, nothing, nix, naught, NONE of Divergent or any of the characters. (And NO I did not search up synonyms for zero! Fine, don't believe me :P)
I move towards Tobias to hug, kiss, hold his hand, just touch him when a gun clicks in my ear and I freeze on the spot, my breathing speeding up.
I forgot about this last fear.
Tobias freezes too, and the bedroom vanishes along with Simulation Tobias. I let out a tiny sigh of relief; that fear won't visit me again.
The relief vanishes as the gun presses into my temple and a table appears to the side of me. A gun lays on it, and meters away from us, three people.
My mother, father and brother.
My family.
I have to shoot them.
I don't want to.
I breathe in, and then out.
"Tris." It's Tobias that talks. "Don't do it. Face your fear, Tris. Be brave," He whispers, his words surging up within me, filling my heart and my bravery soaring. He smiles, slipping his hand into mine and guiding it to the gun on the table, silently telling me what to do. I relax a little, even with the harsh voice of the gun holder in my ear.
And I know what I have to do. My heartbeat speeds up. Can I do it? Can I really kill someone that I don't even know, that has nothing to do with me? No time for decisions. I stop thinking and focus on the voice echoing in the vast space.
"Five... four... three... two..."
I whirl around and shoot the man holding the gun to my head. I see him crumple on the ground. I don't feel anything. If this was a real situation, would I have done that? Could I live with the guilt of killing someone, would I feel remorse? I don't think I could bring myself to do it. But this is a simulation. This is not real. My fear is not reality.
I walk over to Tobias and smile at him, hold his warm comforting hand. That's the last thing I feel until I slip into darkness.
. . .
I wake up to Tobias's comforting arms around me. At first I just lie there, content with the stroking of his hands in my hair and the warmth from his chest. But then I remember where I am, I can't stay here all day. I sigh, my eyes fluttering open, my eyes stinging with the harsh light. I blink a few times to orientate myself, and Tobias smiles down at me, feeling me stirring and realizing me awake.
He smiles as I sit up and stretch. My muscles feel sore and stiff and I huff out a rush of air tiredly, swinging my legs off the reclining chair we had both collapsed in and standing up quickly. He gets up beside me as I rub at my eyes. Now that it's over, I feel embarrassed about what happened, although grateful. It was nice to know someone was there.
A we stand in the silent room, I stare into his eyes and wrap my arms around him. He stares back, tucking a stray strand of hair behind my ear.
"Tris," He says softly. He hesitates, looking as if about to say something but decides against it. Instead he just smiles. "You were amazing."
I smile back, unable to do anything else. "Only because you were with me," I reason playfully.
"There's something else though. When we were tied up to the stakes, you..." He trails off absentmindedly. "I never thought I'd see what you did, the control... your Divergence. I... I've never really seen something like it." He smiles at me. "I guess I'm just amazed. It's quite a lot to take in."
I smile. "Hope it lived up to your expectation," I mutter, embarrassed. But also proud.
"Well, you certainly set the bar high, Tris." He replies. "I never thought I'd see it in action for myself. How did you do that?" He asks hesitantly. His eyes gleam with intelligence.
I shrug a little, thinking of words to describe it. "I just... thought of something else. Pretended that we were in the Dauntless kitchens. Fooling around. Having fun..." I breathe.
"Both of us, together." I wrap my arms around his neck. He feels warm, his eyes a feverish brightness in them. His arms go around my waist.
"Always," He replies softly, and his lips capture mine. Softly, but passionate. Sweet but intense. Loving but heated. The calm ripples of water, the soft blaze of fire.
I close my eyes and enjoy the feeling of his lips on mine. He pulls back slightly for air.
"Do you... do you think that i'm one of your fears anymore?" He asks quietly. I peer at his face. He looks nervous.
I put my face closer to his, nuzzling his neck with my nose. "I'm pretty sure..." I say, "That we squashed that fear." He smiles at my words. Without another word, I entwine my fingers in his and we walk out of the room, perfectly in sync, no longer in fear, no longer afraid.
For we have each other.
A/N - Sorry guys, i'm not happy with this chapter either. It was really crappy and short, I was feeling kinda depressed and stuck. I wanted to capture the emotions and the feel of the mood, after the Fear Landscapes but it just didn't come out in the writing. It was so frustrating and i think i wrote this chapter like three times before i kinda gave up. So, i'm thinking this may just be the end! Not kinda how had planned it, but you know. Anyways, i'm really sad to go. But i'm not sure because ending here means the Uriah stuff was kinda pointless. You tell me. Tris conquered her fear, but what next? Should I let you just assume they live happily ever after? Should I continue? Maybe like a five years later thing? I'll leave it there and have a think about it. BUT THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT GUYS! YOU ARE THE BEST. :) Your ideas will help? Every one of them. Yah, that's right. You guys are part of this! Anyways, this is a really long author's note so yeah, thanks for reading it :) UNTIL NEXT TIME (hopefully a better chapter) I LOVE YA!
DauntlessTheBrave xox