Disclaimer: My grammar is horrible, for that I apologize... And I apologize for the fact that I still don't own twilight… "Yay me!"- London Tipton from the suite life of zack and cody. _-XxXxXxXxXxX-_
It had been days since Bella spoke to anyone besides Tanya when she was forced to and even longer since she left the room, She groaned as she struggled to sit up now that the painkillers and artificial adrenaline Tanya had injected her with after restarting her heart had completely wore off, her body aching and screaming at her for more painkillers or anything even slightly narcotic.
She clenched her teeth against the pain, sweat pouring down her neck from the sheer effort it took to sit up, one of the first symptoms of withdraw that she and Tanya had discussed, her nails biting into her palm as she jerked up using a shaky hand placed against the wall for support and settled back against the bed's headboard with a loud painful gasp, her body was now vibrating with pain.
A determined look was thrown towards the door, she was dead set on getting to the bathroom without any help today, a disgusted glare being thrown at the phone on her nightstand in rebellion. She had bothered Tanya enough these past few days.
The teen was forced to bite her lip to hold in a roar of pain when she flung her legs off the edge of the bed and stumbled up and crashed against the wall opposite the bed loudly, grudgingly allowing herself a moment to take a deep breath and ignore the blinding pain.
A bead of sweat traveled down her neck as she braced herself for a step managing nearly three steps before she began to collapse, hands grasping her stomach as her knees buckled like paper when a flame-like pain burned across her torso.
She removed a hand to try to slow her descent but only succeeded in making a painting hanging from the wall fall and slam against the floor with a loud bang. There was barely a second of silence before a louder bang answered Bella's own as whoever was left downstairs rushed upwards.
Her mind quickly figuring out who it was, Rosalie hoped she choked Bella thought, Emmett was at baseball practice, she had heard Alice had say she was going shopping and the sound of Jasper whining as she dragged him out with her, while Esme hadn't even come into the room since Rosalie's temper tantrum which only left Tanya.
A wave of self hated settled over Bella, she had set one goal for herself and failed, she nearly punched a hole through the plaster practically begging for a way to vent her frustration and pain. The footsteps reached the doorway and paused for a moment making her instantly realize that it wasn't Tanya, the blonde bombshell would not hesitate if she thought she had to kick the door down.
The door flung open after the brief hesitation, urgency remembered, revealing a panicked and nervous Esme. The woman many crude high schoolers would describe as MILF, rapidly stepped in with eyes worriedly scanning the room.
Her emerald eyes met Bella's, unawarely igniting a dangerous mixture of emotions inside the teen before she looked away. The older woman quickly perceived the teen's situation but paused as she witnessed the tightening of Bella's muscles, body tensed like a cobra preparing to strike.
"I heard you fall" the woman said softly, she didn't dare move into the room but after a minute of tense silence she offered "it sounded painful" and immediately kicked herself inside thinking to herself 'how smooth Esme' as her only response was the quiet grinding of teeth.
Esme swallowed nervously before stepping deeper into the room Bella only looking up at her when the woman stood less than a foot away now unavoidable. The teen's eyes involuntarily traveled up her frame noting the delicate curves with a slight shiver.
Esme opened her mouth to speak until Bella cut her off "I'm fine" though the grimace on her face ruined the lie. Esme now able to look at the teen closer now that she was able to and could see how tired she looked despite all the bed rest she had gotten.
"You're not" the woman blurted out, quickly closing her eyes and sighing, quietly reprimanding herself. "Your point? It's not as if you care anyway" Bella muttered dryly as she finally tore her eyes away from Esme's body and began to struggle up.
The older woman didn't even hesitate before wrapping one of Bella's arms around her own neck and trying to help the teen towards her bed. Bella wanted to push her away, torn between the desire to scream at her or beg her to kiss her again. She forced herself to swallow the feelings down knowing she wouldn't be able to make it back towards her tempurpedic prison without her.
The thought of turning the woman away and sitting on the floor until Tanya came home like disobedient dog bothered her more than facing the woman. They struggled towards the bed and with a loud thunk she dropped onto the bed with a quiet gasp of pain, lowering her head and starting at the oak flooring gathering herself before finally whispering "why did you kiss me?".
Their was a moment of silence as the woman froze, fear instantly traveling up Esme's spine at the soft words, she took a step back instinctively putting space between her and the younger woman looking up at her with shining eyes.
The silence easily stretched into an hour without a movement from either women though both would testify it was only minutes, the silence finally being broken when Esme spoke stuttering softly "It was noting- I- You- Because you were still here" Bella mouthed the words silently first, rolling the words on her tongue before she asked questioningly "Because I'm still here?". Their was another moment of silence before Esme whimpered "I can't find them", Bella eyebrow twitched angrily "Can't find who?" she murmured already knowing the answer.
"Edward… Carlisle" the woman spoke with a tremble in her lower lip, her face falling as tears began to trail down her face. "I checked everywhere… Their phones have been disconnected-" she hiccuped than after an particularly loud sob, "He quit his job and pulled Edward from the school.".
"The p-police say I have no report to file if he's with his other parent" Bella hands shot out as the woman's knees gave out from under her and she began to fall. Bella ignored the sting of pain and pulled the sobbing woman into her with a gentle tug, the second Esme's small body hit Bella's lap she curled into herself and without a thought as if by instinct Bella wrapped her arm around the woman's petite waist noticing with just a hug that the woman had lost some weight over the matter.
"Have you been eating?" the teen questioned through gritted teeth, rage stiffening her muscles as she tried to think of any reason how both men could do this to the sweet woman in her lap. A shake of her head made Bella's hands shake with rage though she tried her best to hide the reaction as Esme continued to whisper in that now defeated rasp of hers "A few days ago I got a letter in the mail".
Another sob interrupted her as she buried her face in Bella's shirt for a moment, inhaling the crisp scent of rain and vanilla as Bella soothingly began to rub her back, after a moment of silence punctured only by soft sobs Esme finally continued "It was divorce papers" she whispered so soft Bella had to strain to hear her "No information on how they were doing, just-" The woman finally lost it and began to howl into Bella's shirt.
Bella's wasn't angry anymore she was seething hell she was surprised steam wasn't pouring from her ears in some cartoonish fashion and tried her best to focus on comforting Esme instead of her rage, she started to rock the woman on her lap as she cooed sweet reassurances in her ear. "After everything, him leaving, taking that little shit of a son with him, the divorce papers, all she wanted was to know how they were" she thought with slight disbelief.
People like her aren't supposed to exist anymore she thought as she pressed her harder to her chest, relaxing slightly when the woman's wail began to die down to just harsh breathing and hiccups. She gently maneuvered the woman so that now she was sitting besides her and forced herself to trudge through the pain she felt and stood up adrenaline allowing her to move her body freely now.
She crouched in front of the woman and pulled off her shirt leaving herself in her sports bra slightly enjoying the cool breeze that swept across her burning body, she ignored Esme's sharp inhale knowing the scars that littered her body had to disgust her, with a gentle movement the teen wiped all traces of tears and mucus from her face before tossing the shirt into the corner and moving towards her dresser with pain slowing down her movements.
Esme finally snapping from her trance and shooting up when she saw how Bella's body tensed with pain when she moved quickly, "Sit down Bella please" she asked with hoarse voice though she was ignored. Bella had tuned the woman out and proceeded to pull on a shirt with a hole on the shoulder and a ratty pair of jeans only gasping in pain when she knelt to slip on a pair of sneakers.
The warm hand on her back making her lean into it involuntarily, "where are you going?" she asked softly somehow sounding even more defeated than she had earlier, "I'm going to find them, I know some guys-" "NO!" the teen wasn't even allowed to finish her sentence as the woman began to vigorously shake her head, "You're still weak, you should be laying down".
Bella finally stood up now at her full height ignoring the pain that wracked her body as she advanced on the woman "Do you want me to find them?" she questioned seriously now only a small step away from the woman which was quickly erased as the older woman stepped forward glaring now, all traces of defeat gone from her now as she spoke angrily 'Of course I want them found, But not at the cost of you".
Bella's heart throbbed at that "I'll be fine-" she began to shoo off "If that's true then invite your friends here we can-" Esme began to argue but Bella shook her head and growled "No, they would try to hurt you and most likely rob you blind too. I never said they were friends I just said they were guys I know." Esme's eyes narrowed at the teen "Yet you want to run off and meet them when you're supposed to be on bed-rest".
Bella slammed her hand through the tough plaster of the wall right besides the woman's head raising a eyebrow at the surprised woman while inside her body screamed bloody murder, "I can take care of myself, I've done it all my life" she rasped as she removed a bloody hand from within the confines of the wall" with a quick yank.
Their was a harsh silence as Esme stared at Bella's ruined hand, a gash on the palm beginning to drip blood onto the floor, Esme reached out under the wary stare of Bella and cradled the hand gently with one hand while her other hand gently cupped Bella's face as she leaned in barely a hair of space between their faces as she whispered softly "I'm sorry" wanting to somehow apologize for everything bad that had ever happened to the teen.
Bella swallowed dryly fighting back tears already knowing what the woman was trying to apologize for, a soft sound of a click resounding through the room further helping Bella to break free from the moment and take a step back, she shoved both hands into her pockets making both of them wince "What do we do then?" she asked.
Esme smiled slightly at the "we", "I don't know maybe Tanya can help us… I haven't even told the other other kids yet" Bella's eyes twitched at the statement "other kids" she damn well was not a child but let it slide as she spoke gently "you should tell them".
A look of heartbreak that appeared so painful arose to Esme's face that it devastated Bella to look at her, "I'll help" she murmured much to the other woman's relief, Esme flung her arms around Bella making the teen groan as all bravado had left her system taking short burst of natural adrenaline along with it, Esme instantly jumping back.
Bella ignored the pain in her heart when the woman released her and instead muttered dryly "Ready to restrain Rosalie again?" Esme couldn't help the snort that left her throat but she refused to be embarrassed by it….. At least to much. The genuine laughter feeling all to good to the woman who had only been able to pretend to be all right in front of everyone.
Neither of the duo noticing the red head outside that slinked away from the window smirking at a photo on her phone of the two looking as if they had been about to kiss, So much damage this can cause" the woman tssked as she saved the photo and quickly made her way to her car as silently as she could. She would be back.
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Author's Note: :DDDDD I'M NOT DEAD!
I know it's been a while, I suck!, right? Sorry for the wait though. I know monday is a horrible day to update but I just wanted to get a update out before my birthday on saturday. Before I sign off I just wanted to say thank you for all the reviews on the last chapter you know who you are (or don't since it's been so long, sorry), I know I didn't reply to them but I read every single one of them and they made my day so yeah, thank you. I Love you pop tarts reading this! xD -FV.