*I STILL DO NOT OWN ANYTHING OR ANYONE.* Please remember that this is still my very first fanfiction. I'm not going to make this all lovey dovey. i am just getting started. i'd like to make this a long story. so please review and let me know what you think. Thank you

Faith had gotten home a few hours ago. She and Emily were sitting on the couch watching TV eating pizza when the phone rang.

"I'll get it mom, stay there." Emily said as she walked into the kitchen and answered the phone expecting it to be her boyfriend mike.

"Hello, is Faith Yokas available?" asked the man on the phone

"Uhm, may I ask whose speaking?" Emily questioned

"Ah yes, this is Doctor Roberts from Kings County hospital. It's very important that I reach Faith Yokas" He said very kindly

"Oh okay, yeah she's here." Emily said quickly, looking back at her mother on the couch "Mom there is a Doctor Roberts on the phone that needs to talk to you; he said it's very important."

"Okay baby." She said rushing over to the phone. A million questions racing through her head at that very moment. "Hello, this is Faith." She said so fast that she barely could understand it.

"Yes, Faith, My name is Erik Roberts from Kings County hospital. I am the Lead Emergency room doctor tonight, We had a man come in about an hour ago that had been shot and you are his primary person listed for an emergency, we were hoping that you could come in so we can talk about his condition and you could sign some papers?" the man asked humbly

The only person she knew she was the primary contact for was Bosco, but that was so long ago. He had to of changed it by now. But who could it of been. 'Oh god' she said to herself 'what if it is Bosco. Oh god. Please let him be okay'.

"Doc, may I ask who the man is?" she asked hoping, no, wishing it wasn't Bosco.

"Yes, M'am it is Maurice Bos-" Is all he got out Before faith interrupted

"Oh my god! I'll be there as soon as I can!" she cried out as she hung up the phone and rushed into her bedroom.

"Mom?" Emily hurried behind her "What's going on? Is everything okay?" she asked as she watched her mother throwing clothes into her old work bag

"Em, I want you to get a change of clothes and come with me. Something happened to Bosco, He's been shot Em." She said as tears started pouring down her face when she finally said the words. Emily was already in her room and almost done packing by the time faith was done.

Faith felt her knees go weak and she collapsed onto her bedroom floor, Emily came into the room and seen her mother crying hysterically and sat down next to her and hugged her tightly. "Mom, Bosco is tough. You know that. We just gotta get there and be with him and he will be okay." She said trying to hold back her own tears.

They finally stood up and Emily drove them to the hospital, the car ride was mostly silent until faith looked over at Emily while she was still crying and said "Em, this is the first time Bosco has gotten hurt and I haven't been there for him, after all this time, I've always been by his side and I wasn't this time. What if, what if he-" Emily stopped her before she could finish, she hated when her mom cried and she knew how much she missed Bosco and she knew how much he missed her as well. But she also knew that if her mom was there next to him that he would find it in himself somewhere to pull through, just because of the love he had for her. "Mom, please don't say that. You might not have been with him when he got hurt, but you will be there when he wakes up. And that's what matters." Just then they pulled up to the hospital. They parked right outside of the doors and both of them ran in.

Faith went straight to the nurses' station. "I'm detective Faith Yokas, doctor Roberts called me and said that Maurice Boscorelli has been brought in. Where is he?" she said in a panic

"Ah, Faith, I'm Doctor Roberts" He said shaking her hand "Right this way m'am." He leaded Faith and Emily into the nurses Lounge where Officer Price was still waiting. "Oh I'm sorry officer; I didn't think anyone was in here." He stated

"F-Faith? Faith Yokas?" officer price said almost in shock when he seen her

"Yes? I'm sorry, do I know you?" she questioned him and looked at Emily for an answer but Emily just turned her head so her mother couldn't see her blush. Emily knew that Matt would be there, and she knew that her secret would be revealed tonight. She just wasn't sure how her mother was going to handle it.

"Oh" he said sadly "No you don't, but I've just heard a lot about you. I'm so sorry, I'm Officer Matthew Price. I am Bosco's partner at the 79." He said as he stuttered "but I'll just go into the other waiting room with everyone else. It's great to finally put a face to the name" he smiled and shook her hand as he darted out of the room. Emily looked at her mom and seen that she was very confused but didn't want to explain anything right now, so she just paid close attention to the doctor.

"Officer Boscorelli was shot three times, two penetrated him and one hit his vest causing a few broken ribs. The other actually went through his vest and punctured his lung and hit an artery. The other bullet hit him in his upper left thigh, luckily it didn't do much damage, well at least it didn't do damage we can't repair quickly. The problem is, he lost a lot of blood and his blood pressure is really low. We are pumping him with a lot of fluids to try and even it out. We can't do surgery to remove the bullets unless we get his pressure up. It has risen a little bit in the past half hour, but not enough. This is a very critical state he is in right now. Do you understand?" he said softly to the two ladies in front of him. "we are very skilled doctors here m'am and I assure you that he is in the best hands, we will do whatever means necessary to keep him with us." he stated as he watched both ladies start to cry

"Can I go see him? Please? Even if it's just for a minute, I need to see him." Faith pleaded with him through her tears.

"Yes you can go see him. But just for a few minutes." He said as he leaned in closed to her. "I'm not supposed to let anyone in the room at all." he whispered.

"Thank you doctor, I really appreciate it." She shook his hand and managed to carry herself over to the sink and splash cold water on her face to try and collect herself. Then the doctor led her to his room. This will be the first time in five years she would speak to him, but he wouldn't be able to hear her or talk back. She just needed to tell him how she felt. It might be her last chance; she needed to see his face. As she neared his room, her heart was beating so hard she swore everyone in the hospital would be able to hear it. The doors opened and there he was lying on the bed, tubes everywhere, she couldn't help but think back to the months he spent in mercy just a few years ago where it was the exact same picture in front of her. She tried to fight back her tears but they just came pouring out. She walked over to his bad and took his hand in hers, for that single moment she felt like the world was perfect, finally. Even though everything was far from it she felt safe, like he was safe too. It was like his hand was made just to hold hers.

"Bos, I know you can't hear me right now, and I know you probably still hate me, but I'm here bos. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have ever left. I just need you to be okay. I need you to pull through this. It's going to be hard, but hell, you've been through a lot worse, right?" she forced a half smile "look I just wanted to tell you that it was my fault…Everything was my fault. I was jealous of Cruz, I know it was stupid. But I didn't want her to take you away. I-I loved you bos. Shit, I always have. I loved you since I met you in the academy. I was going to leave Fred after I became a cop. The only person I could ever imagine myself with was you. But you always seemed to have another girlfriend and never showed interest in me. And geez, who am I kidding why would a guy like you ever want someone like me? Even after me and Fred finally did split up, I have two kids. What would you want with that? What I'm trying to say here really is that I just don't want to lose you. I mean yeah, we haven't talked in years, and everyday felt like a lifetime. But I just couldn't imagine never seeing you again. And when you do wake up, I'll understand if you tell me to leave. You just have to be okay Bos. You just do. I'll be out in the waiting room until you wake up. I love you Maurice" she leaned down and kissed his forehead and as she did he squeezed her hand gently. It took her by surprise, she cried even harder. 'Did he hear everything I just said to him?' she asked herself

She left the room and went back to see doctor Roberts. "Doc, when I was talking to him, his eyes were closed but he squeezed my hand, that's good right?" she asked nervously

"Well yes, that's a very good sign actually. I'm going to go check his pressure now. If he can squeeze your hand, it should be up to a decent level now." The doctor said with a large grin on his face

"Hey...Uh doc, do you think he could hear what I said to him…?" playing with the zipper on her jacket trying not to show her embarrassment

"Yes Faith I do believe that he heard what you said to him in there, and I also think that might be the reason his levels are coming up. So thank you for whatever you said to him" he said as he walked into Bosco's room

Faith stood at the window and watched, as the doctor took Bosco's vitals and gave him for fluids for what seemed like an eternity before he came back out. "Well doc?" was all she could manage to get out at the time.

"His blood pressure has increased a great amount and it looks like we will be sending him up for surgery as soon as they prep him. So if you'd like to go in there once more, you are more than welcome to."

"Thanks doc." faith walked back into Bosco's room, and stood next to his bed and grabbed his hand once again "well Bos, they are gunna take you up to the O.R. now, you better fight to wake up when they do. The doc says things are starting to look good now. So let's keep it that way. I'll call your Ma when they take you but I just wanted to see you again before you went. So good luck, I'll be waiting for you" and with that, she kissed his forehead once more stepped back and took a good look at him and left the room. When they took him up stairs she called his moms house and left a message for her to call her back that it was important. Faith retreated back to the nurse's lounge where she had left her daughter. She walked in the room to find Emily talking to Matthew Price.