Loki's Journey

by Scfilover

Loki has had enough of Asgard's attitude and starts a new life on Earth before the events of Thor. This will lead to friendships, adventures in science and magic, Avenging and maybe some long overdue family discussions. Features the Avengers and the Odinson family with appearances from Pepper, Happy, Rhodes, Fury, Coulson and guest villain Malekith. Rated T for Tony. No slash.

6. Chapter 6: leaving

He had but one more matter to attend to before leaving. He had to do something that would make them see him as too pathetic to search for. If the reason Odin hadn't gone through with whatever his plan for taking Loki from Jotunheim was because Loki was pathetic then he wouldn't have Heimdall search for Loki. If Odin's plan was for Loki to think Loki was pathetic then this would fit in with that. (At least unless, until, he wanted Loki back. Then Odin would search for Loki. Not that Loki planned to come quietly.) If Thor finally decided Loki was too pathetic then he wouldn't look either. Loki decided that the best way to prove he was too pathetic to be worth searching for was to tell the truth. How he felt and what he had wanted. They would all sneer and decide to leave him to whatever hole he had crawled into.

Stop it! This is going to painful but it will keep you free! The name of Loki will be forgotten here. If you somehow lose the power to hide from Heimdall's sight it might not matter because no one will be looking for you. Oh if only I could know if I will be searched for or not! Then I could know if I needed to permanently hide myself from Heimdall or not. It will be a waste of power if not, but how am I to know? Odin might want to drag me back for his plans or to punish me for leaving. Still, best to at least try!

Loki hid himself and started to write. He wrote of how he had chosen magic not only because he was strong at it, but also because he tried to be a warrior and failed. How he started trickery because it was not only fun, but the only way he could even try to silence insults. How all he ever wanted to be was Thor's equal, how he tried to impress Thor and everyone, but learned that was not possible. That no matter how many times he saved Thor and his friends, and it was therapeutic to list all of them and how he did it, that no one ever saw it or cared about his accomplishments. How he saw that he could never fit the ideal of a prince here, but that he would be good somewhere and find peace. That they could look around and see that he had taken nothing from Asgard, not even a set of clothing because he made some with magic, so he would not be taking their things. He put the letter under the jewel. Then he slipped away to where he had chosen as home.