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There must be way out of here, I think as my eyes scan John's room. Its useless to to exercise the thought knowing John he probably locked everything. "Dinner is ready!" John called from the kitchen distributing my escape plan. Then guilt rushes through me, for calling it an a escape. I'm actually starting to enjoy Johns company and I still don't understand my feelings for him. Its still very complicated, especially with everything going on. The last thing I want to do is lead him on and the discover that my feelings for him aren't what he'd like them to be.
"Are you coming?" He asks sounding annoyed. I pick my self off from his bed, where I have been day dreaming and start to straighten my clothes making myself look presentable.
"Did you like dinner?" He asks me. I nod fiercely its the most delicious thing I've ever tasted. He has already finished his food and now his picking at the little leftovers. "Yes, its amazing" I say hoping to reassure him. We start talking about non important chatter. When he suddenly asks "I have a pen and paper if you want to write that letter?" He asks politely while picking up a piece of his salad."We talked about this" I sigh he doesn't understand the consequences it will have on everyone I love. My dad will possibly blame himself for letting me stay with my mother, my mother would feel betrayed that I ran away with a guy she never met. When in reality I didn't runaway, I have to be here "for my own safety" John says. The only up side to this disasters is that I may have feelings for John.
"John if you want me to say goodbye one last time why don't you let me?" He sighs, and asked "What do you mean?" I respond, as confidently as I can "Let me go home you can come -" "No" he says surely. I roll my eyes and continue " and tell my mother I'm leaving?" His face is set hard. "No Pierce they'll attack you, at least here I can protect you" I shake my head in a understandingly gesture. I actually do understand, anyways its my life that's at risk but I need to say goodbye properly, or at least let her meet John it'd help her get over me leaving easier.
" John, you can protect me back on earth too. I promise you that ill come back with you, ill tell my mom that your my boyfriend that I'm in love and when she goes to bed I'll leave her a note or something saying we ran away together. Then we will go back to the underworld." I say quickly getting my plan out. I then add " I promise" He looks at his plate and says. "Can I think about it?" He asks me wryly. I shake my head yes, and my face breaks out into a big grin. "Yes please!" He gives me a small smile and wipes his face with a napkin.
As I watch Johns beautiful eyes, he glances at my lips I start to feel a stirring in my stomach not the type the tells you, your hungry. Of course I wasn't I just finished my dinner. The feeling that's far more affecting then butterflys in your tummy. Something that makes being down here forever with him, seem bearable at the least. Even enjoyable. With one more glance at my eyes, he leans in. And for some reason I lean in too. Our lips brush, and a feeling of tingles coarse through my body. From head to toe. He quickly pulls back, because Johns not the one to rush, so to my dismay he gives me one more peck, and starts to get up, and reaches for my plate. I pick it up, deciding to help him, but he shakes his head no and says " Just sit in the living room, there's not many dishes and I don't want you to do it." He says politely. I hand him the plate while getting up from the table, giving him his space and head towards his leather couch. As I sit down I catch myself touching my lips, which were still tingling from the kiss. Oh the kiss, although it was short, it defiantly made me want more. It was unbearable really, as he's cleaning I glance back at him and hope that maybe in the future when he's more comfortable with me, he will kiss me again but next time hopefully it will be longer. I quickly banish the thought. What is wrong with me? I need to start finding away out, or making him agree with the goodbye visit to my mother. Not fantasize what another kiss would be like. I guess, I'm just going to have to trust that whatever instinct that told me to lean in was a good one. That I didn't make things awkward, or get his hopes up. But maybe the kiss helped me get him to allow me that one visit. The kiss did mean something to me, it defiantly did. But I don't think I can afford it to. Because I may not want to go back if things are progressing like this. And I really need to go back home, to stop the furies once and for all and help clear my uncles name. No matter how many times John tells me that there's no way, I'm going to keep trying. John of all people doesn't deserve any punishment they give, yes sometimes his way of dealing with things are a bit harsh... "Would you like to visit the horses?" John snaps me out of my train of thoughts. I look up at him and notices the vulnerability in his eyes. I nod quickly, and pull myself up.
I look around, feeling astonished. When I look at John, he smiles probably being able to see this emotion on my face. "John?" "Yes, Pierce" he says. "Y-you fixed it" I say stuttering. I was worried to actually come hear, remembering the last time I was here. With all those who died and didn't know it, stand in lines freezing. The way no one knew that they died, bothered me the most. The poor souls just waited there. But now everything was cleaner there was still two lines yes but they seem calmer. The line that everyone starts of with was longer then It was 2 years ago. But many people have blankets and are sitting down. There where signs , and two young ladys one for each line are bringing towels, and even some blankets. I squinted my eyes to get a better look at the woman they both where smiling, happy it seemed. It seemed like everyone was told what was happening, becuase the older people looked happy, and at peace but the younger people looked devastated. Some where even comforting each other. I pang of guilt surged through me. How come I had a chance at life again, but they didn't? I turn my head away back to John, but in the corner of my eye I see, at the very front was a girl, with very dark hair. As she put her hair into a pony tail, I see a black leather cord on her neck. Which reminded me of...
Jade. It couldn't be. I start running to the front of the first line. I can hear Johns footsteps behind me, increasing at a rapid pace. "Pierce your not dead it won't work!" He screams, anger and sadness drip from each word. I stop turn around, to look at him. He looks betrayed, he brought me here, to the horses to make me happy not let me leave him forever. But death to me wasn't an option no mater what. I would rather stay down here. "I'm not leaving." I say, giving him a bit of hope. But before he catches up to me. I run as fast as my legs can carry me. I scream "Jade!" The girl who I think is Jade turns around. Her hair long bangs covering her eyes. So I grab her wrist, and turn it around looking for the tattoo on her wrist that said Check Yourself Before You Wrek Yourself. To my disappointed, and relief it wasn't her, the girls wrist were pale, with a couple of blue veins. As she tugs her wrist from me, I began to sink to my knees. I pull my hands to my face, and try to stop my sobs. Before I know it Johns here, reaching for my arms and lifting me up. He gives me a hug, and says. "Its okay, Pierce she moved on already." I sob harder, trying not to cry. He lifts up my chin and gently wipes my tear stained cheeks. I sniffle a little. He pulls me back to his chest and whispers in my ear. "Its okay Pierce, you can cry"
With that I ball my eyes out harder, in till there's no more tears left. After awhile of my insanely loud, and unattractive sobs. I move away from Johns grip. I wipe my tears away. I grab Johns hand and pull him to the horses. When were almost there. When John stops, which ends up stopping me too. I look up at him, confessed. I thought he wanted to go to the horses today? "Pierce, look how dark its getting" I look at the sky for the first time and see the sunset. "John if its so dark why don't you make it light out then?" I tease him. "Pierce after the sunsets it will automatically be light again." He says matter factly. "Then why do you make it?" "I wanted you to see the sunset before we leave." He reply's so sure of him self. With that I smile at him. "We can watch it then go to the horses" I say trying to get him to agree. "Your tired I can see it" he says. With that I yawn. I quickly take my hand out of his, and cover my lips with my palm and the tips of my fingers touching my nose. A habit. " See?" He says. He takes my hand away from my lips, and drops them to my side. Suddenly without any warning his lips come down on mine. After a couple of seconds of realization, I kiss him back. John pulls me closer, and every problem seems to go away.
Jade. Mom. Dad. Grandma. Alex.
It was just him and the hardness of his arms around me, the softness of his thick long brown waves at my finger tips. He pulled away, and smiled at me. His eyes had a beautiful glow, knowing that if I kissed him that would happen I'd kiss him more often. Not only because of the glow his beautiful gray eyes give, no that's just a plus. It's
because the kiss was amazing and I couldn't believe that I never allowed it to happen before. Yes he gave me a peck on the lips at dinner. But this was different this, was amazing. Those to kiss, where completely different. I loved both. In this kiss everywhere he had touched felt like fire, while the dinner kiss was peaceful, and sweat. This one was more then words could explain.
"Pierce where going to sleep, no discussion" he says as we walk towards his house. During the walk I've been stumbling a lot. "Please" I say. I've been complaining about seeing the horses. " Go to sleep tonight and tomorrow we will go" I nod, and stumble once more. John probaly annoyed by stumbles picks me up and throws
me over his shoulder. "JOHN!" I scream. "Put me down right now!" He laughs and says "no you keep tripping." "No I won't I promise put me down" he laughs again "Go to sleep" I roll my eyes " this isn't a great position to fall asleep in" I say. He laughs puts me down, but before I can move he picks me up bridal style.
I role my eyes again, " come on let me walk" he laughs as a yawn and the last thing I feel is the vibration of his chest while he laughs.
I wake up to John leaning over me in track pants and a loose shirt. " Come on, go get dressed" he says. I slowly get of his leather couch, and walk towards his bed. I go on my hands and pull out the luggage that John brought me earlier today. I pick up cloth shorts, and a t-shirt. And head towards the washroom. I splash water on my face and quickly wash my teeth and put on my pjs. I walk towards the bed. Johns not there, I walk to the leather couch that I was on just moments ago. Not so suprisidly I find John sprawled on the leather couch. I quickly shake him awake. He opens his eyes looking confused and asks "Yes Pierce" I gulp, and realize that I didn't have a real reason to wake him up. "Uhm aren't you coming to bed?" I ask a little shyly. He's eyes get big, and he jumps off the couch. Making me jump to at his suddenness. He coughs to hide the awkwardness and says "uhm yeah okay, yeah sure". I laugh a little and lead us back to his bed. I left the blankets up and leave them at the end of the bed while I drop onto the bed. Just as I'm about to grab the blanket John already has it and lefts it over me and tucks me in. I don't argue. He then slips in after me. I quickly lean into him like I did last night. He kisses my head and wraps his arm around my waist. "S-so did you figure out your answer?" I ask him. I hope he doesn't hear the fear in my voice. I really don't know what its for. A part of me wants to stay, because although I tell John its just a visit, it'll end up with me finding away to stay back home. "Yes" he reply's. I snuggle closer, and ask " What's the answer?" After a few seconds he says " yes" I release a breath, I didn't know I was holding while tightening my grip on John. I then say
" I like the word yes, coming from your lips" I say truthfully. He sighs. I whisper in his ear "Thank you." I peck him on the cheek still having that tingly feeling fill me up. As I start to go under, I hear John whisper in my ear. "Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes... "
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