Bella's POV
After I stop crying enough to see clearly I head home. I may live in Seattle and I technically lived in Forks growing up but La Push is home. La Push is where all my best friends live and where my dad spends most of his time and where I was pretty much raised. Forks is where we slept. Once I get there I drive to Leah's hoping Jake is not there. I'm not ready to see him or Sam quite yet. I'm not sure if I'll ever be ready to see Sam.
Luckily it's just Leah and at the sight of her I burst into tears so she drags me into the house and demands details. She's not the cuddly, aww are you OK type at all.
"I forgot Wendy at home." I sob to her.
"Right… this is about a cat." She says sarcastically and I tell her no it's not just the damn cat but she needs me!
So she tells me to get in the car, types my address into the GPS and we head back for Wendy. She lets me cry for about 30 seconds before demanding the rest of the story.
I tell her I broke it off with Josh hoping that's enough. It's not. She's asking a billion questions that I have no desire to answer. She wants me to start from the beginning because we aren't really phone talkers and sometimes details are hard in texts.
"OK Leah I will tell you everything but you have to promise this stays between us. Not a word to Jacob or Sam or your mom or any future children you may have." I tell her seriously.
"OK you're kind of freaking me out and I'm not crazy about keeping things from Jacob but I promise." She says just as seriously. I'm not a drama queen so she knows this is serious.
I tell her the whole story from meeting and the sex and the him being 46 and the dinners and the sex to this afternoon coffee where he begged me one last time to stay with him for my vacation.
"OK he's way old but I don't get the sworn to secrecy part Bella." She says confused.
"I asked him last name, just today, it just never came up I guess. His last name is Uley. Josh Uley." I whisper the last part.
"Oh damn Bella!" She says and I start crying again.
She tries to comfort me but it's really not her thing. Jake and her balance each other out well.
"Are you sure it's over? Because this would kill Sam." She tells me and I tell her yes I'm sure. No matter how incredible the week was Sam is my best friend and Alison is like a mother to me. I ask her if she's sure she can keep this from Jake and she says yes because she prefers him not in prison. I laugh even though I know she's serious.
We get to my apartment and I gather all of Wendy's things and head back. All the driving clears my head and I think I can handle Sam so she takes me to his place and helps me take all of Wendy's things laughing because Sam hates cats.
Sam picks me up and spins me around and kisses my on the forehead.
"Damn, I missed you too even if I spend every night on the phone with you." I laugh.
He asks how things with my new boyfriend are going and Leah makes up an excuse about needing to leave all the sudden.
I manage to not cry as I tell him I broke things off with him today. He's confused because I told him almost every day how I really like this guy. I tell him things were moving to quick and it just didn't feel right and he pretends to believe it. He's known me my whole life, he knows when I'm lying but he also knows when not to push.
I unpack my stuff and get Wendy set up in his guest room and then he orders pizza and we watch movies.
Leah comes back over with Jake and while I'm glad I'm here I'm a little jealous that this is normal life for them. Leah keeps looking at me funny and Sam keeps touching me which I guess he usually does but it feels weird now that I've just spent the last week screwing his dad. I'm not sure I can keep this secret but I don't want to hurt him.
We're sitting on the couch and he wraps he's arms around and I suddenly can't breathe. I get up and walk outside and I think how they are all going to come running after me and I don't have answers.
Only Leah comes out and I know Sam and Jake are going to be even more suspicious. Usually Jake does the heartfelt talks and emotional stuff.
"You know if Sam finds out it'll kill him and then he's going to kill Josh along with his mom and your dad and Jake and probably my mom too. This isn't really your fault and it sucks that it happened but you have to get over it." She says a little harshly, this is why Jake usually does this.
"How did you stop them from coming to get me?" I ask her curiously.
"I made Sam feel like it's his fault because he was being too touchy and I threatened Jake." Great, I have a feeling this is going to be a long week.
"Sam didn't do anything Leah; he was no different than he ever is. Half the time I stay I end up sleeping in his bed. Now he's going to be weird all week." I whine.
"Yeah it's Sam we have to worry about being weird." She says rolling her eyes.
Once we go back in I sit with Sam and tell him Leah was wrong, I was just thinking about Josh and I didn't want to cry in front of everyone.
"Bella I can tell you really like him, maybe you should call him, give it another chance. You can slow things down without ending it completely." Sam says and I want to scream he's your father! But instead I just give him a sad smile and say yeah maybe I will. After the last movie is over Jake and Leah leave and Sam and I clean up and head to bed. I end up sleeping in his bed because I don't want him to think things are weird with me.
After I'm sure he's asleep I cry myself to sleep.