Bella's POV
I wake up Monday morning still dreading this whole week. I check my phone and I have a text from Sam telling me to have a good day, and miss you. I text him back you too.
I take a long hot shower, eat a quick breakfast then go to work. The kids are super excited to see me and I realize I actually did miss them too.
I take Anna to school and then Kyle to his piano lesson, after Anna gets out of school they both have art. Poor Kyle has something every day.
Sam calls me and tells me that the elementary school in Forks is hiring a kindergarten teacher, the last one got really sick and had to quit suddenly.
Bad for her but potentially awesome for me! He gives me the # and I call during Kyle's nap.
I'm asked to fax a resume so I do that too and an hour later she calls to offer me an interview Friday afternoon, I tell her yes I will be there and then hope I can get off early. I need an excuse; I don't want the people I work for to know I have an interview.
When she gets home that afternoon I ask her if I can leave early Friday and she agrees without a reason. Awesome. I feel really good about this.
The rest of the week passes in an equal amount of dread and excitement. It's a strange feeling.
I pack all my bags Thursday night so I can leave straight from work on Friday, my dad lives 5 minutes from the school so I will change there. Wendy is fine over the weekend by herself.
Friday morning I freak out a little about what to wear. I want my outfit to say I don't care that I have to see you every week because I am fine.
Once I get to work I drop Anna off and Kyle and I head to the studio. I can't even walk slowly because Kyle takes off running. I feel like I'm going to puke.
As soon as I walk through the door our eyes meet before I quickly look away. Once the class starts I focus on my phone texting Sam and Leah and checking email.
When the class is over and Kyle is talking to one of his friends Josh comes up to me.
"How was your week off Bella?" He asks as if we talk all the time.
"You mean my week with your son that you abandoned when he was 4? If you mean that week it was awesome." A few of the moms and other nannies look up at this point and I almost feel bad.
"Bella I'm so sorry but it was a long time ago, if I thought I could make things right I would but Sam is grown now. He doesn't need me anymore." He tells me.
"It doesn't matter Josh. I felt more for you in a week than I ever have for anyone I've ever been with. So why would I continue on with this when in the end you'll only hurt me?"
"How would I hurt you?" He asks.
"I want kids! I'm not going to have kids with a man that walked out on his son! I have to go, please don't talk to me next week, it's not like coming here is my choice."
"I regret walking away from Sam and Ali every day of my life Bella; I would never do that again." He looks hurt but I don't care, at least I tell myself I don't.
"I'm sorry Josh but like I told you before, you did to him what my mother did to me. I would never forgive her so how would it be right to let you in my life? I love Sam, he is my best friend. He has been there for me my whole life. I talk to him every night; I miss him so much when I'm here. So how when he is such a huge part of my life would I be like oh by the way I'm screwing your long lost father? I'm sure he would take that well. You are not, and will not be a part of my life. Please stop trying because it hurts Josh. It hurts having to tell you no."
"I'm sorry; I won't speak to you more than I have to." He tells me and I tell him thank you, get Kyle and leave.
Soon after I get Kyle down for his nap his mom comes home and I head home.
On the drive there I think about how desperately I need this job. I need Sam and Leah and Jake and I need to not see Josh every Friday. I need my family and I need to leave Josh far in the past.
I get to my dad's house, take a shower and get ready then call Sam before I have to leave for my interview.
Suddenly something Jake said last time I was here hits me. He thought I was freaking out because I decided I like Sam but I told him I don't. Then I told Josh I loved Sam and I do. I love him but I don't like him like that. He's like a big brother but then again he isn't. Because no one talks to their big brother as much as I talk to Sam and they sure as hell don't sleep in their bed with them.
To anyone on the outside of our group and our family it would look like we were a couple I guess. But that's crazy isn't it? There is no way I am in love with Sam.
I walk in and ask for the principle doing the interview. I get led to an empty classroom and wait.
She comes in and as nervous as I am she's surprisingly easy to talk to. She asks all the normal questions about college and job experience and questions about handling large groups of children. Then we talk about how I grew up in Forks and La Push and I only left because I couldn't find a job here.
"Well then Bella, I would like to offer you the job. When can you start?" She asks and I stare at her for a minute before I snap out of it and tell her two weeks. I need to give them time to find a new nanny.
"Are you OK Bella? You do want this job right?" She asks and I'm confused.
"Yes of course I do."
"You just seem a little dazed." She says and I tell her I'm so sorry I just wasn't expecting to leave with a job. I was expecting to hear back sometime next week but I definitely want the job.
"I like your passion when you talk about kids and I like the fact that you have ties to Forks. You'll be great for the school. Let's go ahead and fill out the paperwork and I will see you two Mondays from now." She smiles and hands me the packet of papers.
I leave and stop by my dad's house to see if he's home.
"Hey dad." I say as I walk in, he frowns. Love you too I think.
"Hey is everything OK?" He asks concerned.
"Um yeah why?"
"Well I know you come down every weekend but you don't usually come here to see me." He explains and I feel like shit. "Are you and Sam fighting? I know he loves you."
"Dad! It's not like that with Sam." I yell at him. "I had an interview at Forks Elementary, I got the job. Wanted to tell you. So go me. I don't fight with Sam because we're not a couple!"
"Bella calm down. I know you and Sam are not a couple. Why do you think I don't give you crap about spending all your time here with him? But he does love you and you love him and people that love each other fight." He's talking to me like slow like you do an out of control child.
"I slept with Josh Uley." I blurt out and then immediately regret it. I don't even know if my dad knows I'm not a virgin. So from not a virgin to screwing a man a year older than him might actually kill him.
"Why Bella?" He asks calmly.
So I tell him the whole story from the instant connection to me asking him to never talk to me again.
"Oh honey I'm so sorry. It's good that you got the job here though. Where are you going to live?" He asks completely changing the subject.
"I don't really know yet, can I stay here for a couple of weeks until I can find a place?" I ask him knowing I can.
"Of course you can but you know as well as I do that you're going to end up moving in with Sam." Ha. He's probably right.
I hug him good bye and then head to Sam's office since I'm earlier than normal.
"Hey how did the interview go?" He asks as I walk in.
I tell him he got the job and he smiles and says we'll go out tonight to celebrate to which I tell him I don't want to go out, I just want to hang out at the house like we always do. He laughs and tells me I'm boring.
"But you love me anyways." I tell him and he kisses my forehead and gives me the key to his house.
Once I get there I call Jake to see if he and Leah are coming over and to tell them about my new job.
I lay down on the couch to watch TV and wait for Sam and wake up to Sam running his fingers through my hair. Holy crap it feels good.
"Don't stop." I mumble and he chuckles.
"I brought burgers from the diner, get up and eat so Jake doesn't steal your food." Aggh, damn Jake, he would do that.
So I slowly get up, stretch and eat while we talk about my week and my new job and Josh. I feel so bad talking to him about Josh but he asked and I don't want to seem weird or suspicious.
"So you're going to move in here right? You and your damn cat."
"If you don't mind, just until I can find my own place." I tell him.
"Of course I don't mind, and you're not going to look for a place for a while, you would just end up here most of the time anyway." He's right just like my dad.
"You'll be happier here right Bella, away from Josh?" He asks and I tell him yes wishing it was true.
We both know I'm lying.