Bella's POV

After the secret is out to Alison everyone else finds out and they seem to take sides on what I should do. Crazy thing how I thought I was the one that got to make decisions about my own life and I already decided he can be a part of the baby's life but I will not be with him. Sam and Jake are the only ones that say they will support me no matter what and never offer their opinion.

Sam did decide to give Josh a second chance and they have been working on their relationship. I was mad at first because Sam and I were always together in hating both his dad and my mom and while I realize I am the one that slept with him and got pregnant I didn't know who he was. Jake was the one that finally convinced me that Sam should be able to know his father if he wants, he would do anything to have more time with his mom.

Leah says I'm stupid to even let him in the baby's life when he's clearly just going to leave. Alison says she refuses to be a part of any event in the baby's life that Josh is a part of. Charlie says Josh wasn't the only one to blame for his walking out, Alison was a big part of it and while he wants to kill Josh for getting his 25 year old daughter pregnant, he didn't know who I was and he deserves a second chance. Sue says I need to talk to my own mother to find closure so that I can look at Josh as an actual person and not just the man that left Sam.

While I completely disagree Sam and my dad thought it was a great idea which is why Sam and I are currently on a 5 hour trip to see her. I thought we should call but Sam was thought it would be better in person.

In the car we're talking about how things are going to work with the baby because I'm not letting Josh take my newborn baby 3 hours away when Sam informs me that Josh sold his house and his studio and he already bought a new studio in Forks, now he's just looking for a new house.

"Wow, isn't it weird him being back in your life after all this time?" I ask him.

"Kind of but I get that he was young and a completely different person and my mom was a pretty crappy wife. Not that it makes it right to just walk out on us but he regrets it. I forgive him Bella and I'm really hoping you can forgive both of them." He tells me seriously.

"And then what? Marry him and be your stepmom?" I snap.

"I think we could pretend it doesn't work like that and I'm not even trying to talk you into a relationship with him. I just want you to not hate him because he wants to be in this kid's life and it would be easier if you didn't hate him."

"I only half hate him." I tell him and he says but you don't have to. For him or for me.

Then we talk about his mom and how far she'll go in refusing to ever be around Josh because that's really going to suck. Like at the hospital, I want to Josh to be there if he wants to be but I always thought Alison would be the one in the room with me. Now I'm thinking it's going to be Sue.

I never realized how stubborn Alison was but according to my dad and Sue she was always like that, she's just always been on my side. Sue even says that Alison got pregnant knowing Josh didn't want kids yet because she was jealous and afraid of him leaving but then she left Sam whenever possible to drink with Sarah. Sam thinks she'll come around but I don't know. I hope she does.

After a 5 hour trip that seems way too quick we pull into her driveway.

"Sam I can't do this, we should have called." I am completely freaking out.

He doesn't listen, instead getting out of the car, pulling me out and dragging me to the front door and ringing the doorbell.

A woman who looks a lot like me answers the door.

"Mom?" I whisper.

She stares at me for a minute and then lets us in.

"Why are you here Bella?" She doesn't waste any time in asking.

"Short version, I was forced. I need to know why you left me. I was just a baby, I needed you." I'm crying and I am so pissed off. I was going to be cold and emotional and everything I've been to Josh but I can't do it. Because this is my mom. I realize then that they are definitely not the same person.

"You didn't need me; you needed someone who wanted you. You and your father were the biggest mistakes of my life. I had to quit school because of you and I was stuck in that awful small town with all the woman who were perfectly happy to have no goals besides kids. I'm sorry your father convinced me to go through with the pregnancy but I can't be sorry I left. It was the best decision for everyone." She on the other hand has cold and emotional down well.

"Did you even love me at all?" I ask her quietly.

"Honestly no, I couldn't love you after all you took from me." She tells me and I feel Sam put his arms around me.

"Let's just go Bella." He tells me.

"Yes, you need to go. My husband and daughter will be home soon and they don't know about you, I would like to keep it that way. I'm sorry if this wasn't what you were hoping for but I have everything I couldn't have with and your father in that suffocating little town. Good bye."

Sam glares at her and somehow gets me into the car and starts driving. I don't know how long we're driving when he finally just says Bella.

"She hated me and now I'm just something bad that happened to her." I tell him as if he wasn't there for the whole thing.

"I am so sorry Bella." He tells me.

"Why, isn't this exactly what you wanted? To make me see that her and Josh are not that same. Josh regrets leaving you and your mom. My mom says it's the best thing that ever happened to her. And she has a daughter. I have a sister that I will never know because my mom hates me. No, she's not my mom. Sue is my mom, from this moment forward I claim Sue as my mom. She's going to end up with Charlie anyways. My mom hates me and your mom hates me so Sue is now my mom. I'm exhausted Sam, I'm just going to sleep OK?"

"Bella I didn't want it to happen like this at all. I wanted you to have closure, that's all." He sounds hurt but I didn't really mean it in a mean way I don't think.

"Just take me home please." He sighs but doesn't try to talk to me. I spent the rest of the trip crying myself into a fitful sleep, waking up and starting all over again.

"Bella wake up." Sam shakes me softly awake.

"We're home?" I mumble.

"Not exactly." He sounds guilty, so much so that I realize it even half asleep. I force my eyes open.

"Are you serious Sam?" He brought me to Josh's house, stupid asshole!

"Bella honey it was 3 hours closer than home and you keep crying then sleeping then crying then sleeping and I figured you would sleep better in a bed." He really does look sorry.

"In Josh's bed?" I snap and he says probably, Josh said he'll sleep on the couch and Sam can have his bed or the extra bed and me the other, or since I'm a hysterical wreck we can sleep together.

"I'm really sorry." He tells me and I tell him fine, it's fine. It's not like I'm not having his freaking baby.

Sam knocks on his door and I puke all over the little plant sitting by the door just as Josh opens the door.

"I swear that was an accident." He laughs which should piss me off but I'm just relieved he's not upset over his poor stupid plant. We walk in and Sam leads me through the front room into the other room with the nice, comfy couch. I hope I don't puke on it too.

"You've been here." I accuse him.

"Once."

"He came for you Bella, to tell me if I was going to abandon the baby and you to just leave you alone now." I look at Sam and he says yep.

"You don't have me to abandon." I tell him. "Look thanks for letting us sleep here for the night but I'm really tired and really do just want to sleep so as much as I wish I could stay awake and be a part of this freak show, where am I sleeping?" I ask them both, I don't care who answers. I just need to be alone.

"Take my bed Bella, it's more comfortable than the guest room and the bathroom is right there so you don't have to puke all over my stuff." Josh tells me.

"It's your baby that's making me sick asshole." I snap at him, I see Sam mouth sorry to him and I want to say something but suddenly I am so tired I feel like I'm just going to fall over.

I wake up the next morning in Josh's bed.