Josh's POV

It's Sunday night and I'm cleaning up the take out boxes from dinner. This weekend has been good, I'm glad I decided to move to Forks. Friday afternoon I went to Bella's appointment with her even though she insists I don't need to because they just measure and listen to the baby. It's the only time she lets me be with her so of course I'm going to go. I tried to convince her to let me take her out to dinner after but she says no. Yesterday I painted the room for the baby, Bella's decided on Jason for his name, and then this morning I put together all the furniture and put it in there. I know she's not due for another 3 months and I'm not even sure she'll let me keep him for a while but I want everything to be perfect for him still. I'm going to do everything right this time. Then this afternoon Sam came over to work on one of my cars before he left to see Alison to try and convince her to stop being a bitch to Bella. Alison is being stupid because if it comes down to Sam having to pick between the two he'd clearly pick Bella.

I'm almost done in the kitchen when my doorbell rings, I answer it and Bella is standing there crying.

"Come in sweetheart, what happened? Are you OK?" She just shakes her head yes.

"I'm so sorry." She finally manages to get out. What could she possibly be sorry about?

"For what Bella?"

"For being cold to you, for pretending I don't love you." She whispers.

I take her into my arms and tell her it's OK, she has nothing to be sorry for. She pulls back and I think she's going to distance herself like she always does but instead she whispers I want you Josh, I need you.

"I'm right here Bella." She throws herself back into my arms and then tilts her head back. I'm confused as hell because two nights ago she wouldn't even have dinner with me but I kiss her and this time she lets me, she kisses me back until she pulls back again.

"Promise me if things don't work out between us you'll never leave Sam or Jason."

"Sweetheart I promise I will never leave any of you." I tell him and she says no, promise me you'll never leave them no matter what happens between us.

"OK, I promise. Even if I did your dad or Sam or Jake or hell maybe even Sue would hunt me down and kill me." She smiles this sweet, innocent smile and says she'd help.

"Not that I'm not happy you're here what changed your mind Bella?" I ask him because I'm still confused.

"Jake. I was afraid that in the end no one really changes but he made me realize that my mom really did, she's happy now with her family. I want to be happy with you and Jason; I want you to be my family." Jake is the one that convinced her to not be mad at Sam for spending time with me too. If she has to spend all her time with boys I'm glad it's him and Sam. I know Sam loves her and Jake seems to as well.

"We could get married." I tell her suddenly and she looks at me like I'm nuts.

"I barely know you." She tells me.

"We could date?" I ask her and she says yeah that sounds a lot better.

"You could keep kissing me." So I do but then her phone rings, she looks at it and tells me it's Sam, give her a minute.

She comes back into the room and tells me Jake told Sam she was here and he was just checking on her.

"Is he OK with you being here?" I ask her, he seems to be on my side in this but it has to be weird for him.

"Yep. He's actually very happy which I find odd. I mean I'm his best friend and you're his dad. He's 3 years older than me and you're older than my dad. It's like a soap opera." She laughs.

"Alison used to watch that crap." I tell her and then think I shouldn't talk about Alison.

"I know, I used to watch them with her, every afternoon I was there. Sam hated it, he used to make fun of me but I made him sit and watch them but then he would force me to watch movies with lots of blood and violence but I secretly loved them. Isn't this weird? Me talking about growing up with Sam and the fact that Alison practically raised me?" She asks suddenly.

"Don't worry about it being weird sweetheart, I want to know you and growing up with Sam is a big part of you. Does the age difference between us bother you?" I ask her and she says no, if it was anyone else she wouldn't even think about it.

"Most of the time I still don't even think about it but then Sam comes or up or Alison, even though she hates me now, and I think about the fact that you knew me as a baby."

"You were an adorable baby." She laughs and says that's beyond weird.

"Can I see the rest of the house?" She asks changing the subject.

"Of course, come on?" I hold my hand out to her and she takes it.

I show her the whole house, leaving the baby's room for last. Finally we get there and she walks in, looks around and burst into tears.

"Hey what's wrong? Do you not like it?" I will change it if she hates it.

"No, I love it. It's beautiful. It's just you've done all this and I don't have anything for him! Not a single outfit or a bed or a car seat. Nothing! I'm so unprepared and I'm a terrible mother!" Damn, Sam told me she was moody but this is crazy.

"You're not a terrible mother and you have plenty of time to get all that stuff. Don't cry." I hate it when she cries.

"I'm going to go buy everything tomorrow after work." She tells me determined. I want to tell her not to because I'm hoping by time Jason is born she'll be living me but she's not so stable right now.

"How is it going to work with him anyways? I don't think you can have him for a long time without me. I want to breastfeed him so that has to be like every 3 hours or something. I don't really know. I'm really good with older kids, like my kindergarten kids but I don't know anything about babies. You know stuff about babies, I mean you didn't walk out on Sam until he was older, by that age I'll be good. Oh but you worked all the time so you still weren't really there plus that was like forever ago. I don't want to do this, I can't have this baby." She's in full freak out mode now and I don't have a clue what to do.

"Bella please calm down, breathe sweetheart just breathe." I get her out of the baby's room into my room and on the bed. She curls up and cries.

"Lay with me." She sobs so I lay with her until she falls asleep. Apparently that's how she copes, she cries herself to sleep a lot according to Sam.

This is not going to be easy at all but she's worth it even if she is a complete nutcase…

I call Sam and ask her to bring her clothes for the morning so I don't have to wake her up and he says she brought clothes with her. Good to know she wanted to stay. He tells me that when she cries herself to sleep she's out for hours at the very least, possibly all night and I should go get to the store to get her breakfast for the morning. It will make her happy and put her in a better mood for the whole day.

It might be weird her being so close to Sam but it works out well for me, he knows everything about her and he's more than willing to share the information. I go to the store to get her breakfast and debate whether or not I should get anything else for her but I don't because I don't want to push her.

"She's spending the night with you?" Charlie asks as he comes around the corner into my aisle when he sees what I'm buying.

"Um yeah she came over and then cried herself to sleep." I haven't talked to Charlie since I've been back, we used to be friends but he can't be too happy I got his little girl pregnant, even without me being who I am.

"What did you do to her?" He asks.

"She came over saying she wanted to be with me as long as I could promise that no matter happened between us I would never leave Sam or Jason." He looks confused. "The baby, she named him Jason." He says OK, she didn't tell him that. "I promised I would never leave them or her but she made me still promise that no matter what happened between us I wouldn't leave them so I did and then we were talking about her growing up with Sam and Alison and it weirds her out, she won't admit it but it does so she asks to see the rest of the house, I show her Jason's room last and she starts crying because she doesn't have anything for him yet and then she's saying she can't do this, she doesn't know how to do this. Then she cried herself to sleep on my bed." I tell Charlie the whole story and he stares at me then sighs.

"So you're with her now?" He asks finally.

"Unless she changes her mind. I'm sorry but I love her."

"I know you do, you wouldn't have come here to find her and given up your life in the city for a place where no one really trusts you otherwise. But if you hurt her or Sam or the baby I will kill you." He tells me dead serious.

"You would have to get to me before everyone else." I joke.

"Nah Sam and Jake are smart enough to come to me to make sure I'm going to help them cover it up. There is always Sue though. Bella loves you, she's been miserable. If you make her happy then I'm on your side. Alison is making things worse. She's going to lose Sam over it too." He tells me and I agree with him. "Good luck with her, she was a handful before she got pregnant, if you can make it through this you should be fine. She's spoiled as hell, Sam and Jake and Alison and Sue always gave into her every demand. Sam and Jake still do. Bring her to my house on Saturday for dinner." He tells me and I tell him if she wakes up still talking to me then we will there.

He laughs and says he's hope she is still talking to me.