Sue's POV
Josh calls Charlie a few hours after we leave their house to tell him she's in labor and they are headed to the hospital. Charlie goes completely useless and I end up having to talk him through getting dressed and getting in the car.
He asked us to call Sam and tell him so I do that as soon as we get in the car and Sam tells me he'll call Jake and Leah.
Everything is set. We get there shortly after Bella and Josh and go to her room. She's crying and Josh is trying to calm her down but she keeps screaming at him to leave her the hell alone. He looks relieved to see me and Charlie as if we can keep her calm.
Bella was never a difficult child but on the rare occasion she got really upset there were 3 people that could calm her down and neither Charlie or I were one of them. Nope only Alison, Sam or Jake could calm her down when she got to this point. Josh loves her and he tries and a lot of the time he can calm her down but if you really think about it he's only known her for 5 months plus a week and they've only really been together for 3 months. Mostly he just gives her whatever she wants, that won't work here.
"Bella honey you have to calm down, I know it hurts but you freaking out is making things worse OK?" I tell her and she says it hurts so bad.
"I can't do this Sue, it hurts too much. I can't do this, make it stop."
"Honey if I could I would but I promise you in the end it will all be worth it. Do you want pain meds?" I ask her and she shakes her head yes.
I tell Josh I'm going to go find a nurse or doctor or something to see how far along she is and whether she can get an epidural yet.
"Just hold her hand and let her scream at you." I tell him quietly. Charlie follows me out because he can't stand to see her in this much pain. Men are kind of pathetic when it comes to child birth, they think it hurts to watch, they would never survive actually going through it.
I go to the nurse's station and ask for Bella's nurse and when she comes I ask when she can get her epidural. She says at last check she was only 3 centimeters and she needs to be 6.
"Can't she have anything until then?" I ask her and she says she can probably have a low dose of something since it could be hours still. The first baby is usually worse. She says she'll find a doctor and to see if she can get an order for something.
Charlie tells me he's going to wait in the waiting room unless she needs him. I get back to her room and the nurse is trying to get her to walk around and she's telling her no, no, hell no.
This is going to be fun. Alison should be here with her. Alison could convince her to walk and not scream and cry hysterically.
"Sue is she OK?" Oh thank goodness Sam is here.
"No one in labor is OK." I tell him and Emily. "And your dad is in there not having a clue how to deal with her, please see if you can calm her down."
He walks to her room leaving Emily with me.
"I'm sure she wouldn't mind you being in there right now." I tell her.
"I don't really want to see Sam with her right now. I get their close and there is nothing between them and she's with Josh but I don't know, it still kind of bothers me how when she's really upset it's Sam she wants you know?" She starts crying and I'm thinking I do not have the patience for this.
"Emily you know Sam loves you, more than he loves Bella even and that's saying a lot. They grew up together, I think Sam first meet Bella when she was like a week old so he knows her in ways no one else does. Slowly she'll need him less and Josh more but all this is still very new to her and she's scared to death, she doesn't want new, she wants what she's always known and that's Sam." I tell her and she starts crying.
"I'm so sorry, you must think I'm some crazy, jealous bitch but it's not like that. I love Bella, I just… I don't know." She's just kind of rambling, very unlike her from what I can tell.
"Hey don't worry about it but if you don't want to be in there it's fine, Charlie is in the waiting room." I comfort her and hope she's done being emotional, I can only handle Bella for the moment.
She says yeah she'll go sit with him, thanks.
Back to Bella.
"They're making me walk." She cries to me when I walk in.
"I know honey, it helps." She glares at me and I try not to laugh. "Sam, Emily is having some kind of emotional breakdown in the waiting room. We've got Bella, OK Bella?"
She tells him to go be with Emily. I tell him thank you for calming her down and getting her up.
"I don't want to walk Josh, don't make me." She looks at him with tears in her eyes and he's about to tell her she doesn't have to, I can tell. He would probably tell her murder is OK if she asked him with that look.
"Bella no one is making you but it will help you I promise. It makes the whole thing quicker and it actually hurts less than lying down. Just a few minutes and then you can come back if you want OK?" I try to convince her and her she says fine.
So for the next hour she walks around the halls and Josh never leaves her side even when she tells him she hates him and this is all his fault.
I sit with Charlie and Sam and Emily in the waiting room, finally he comes out to tell us she is about to get her epidural and she's asking for Emily.
Emily asks me to go back with her so I follow her back.
She looks at me then shrugs to herself and tells Emily to make Sam go home. We both look at her in alarm. Sam needs to be there in case she gets hysterical.
"I know what you're thinking, I might need him and that's the problem. Sam is my best friend but that's it. And he's with you now Emily and I'm with Josh. I need to learn to depend on Josh more than Sam and I can't do that when I know he's out there. So just make him leave." Bella demands.
"Honey you know Josh doesn't mind you needing Sam right?" I ask her. I know she's right in needing to depend more on Josh but I can't help but think this is not the right time to make this decision.
"I know he doesn't but I need to do this with him, the whole thing. I want him to be the one that knows what to say when I'm a wreck and I want him to be the one that holds me when I'm in so much pain I want to die. And this isn't just about me needing Sam; it's about everyone depending on Sam. You and Josh, it's just call Sam. Don't even try just call Sam." She's starting to cry and I'm about to tell her fine, he'll leave when he comes to the doorway.
"I get it Bella and you're right but I'm not leaving. I will stay in the waiting room even if you beg for me unless you absolutely need me but I'm not leaving me. You're strong Bella and I know you can do this and Josh will be with you the whole time but this isn't the right time to do this." He tells her and she's crying and Emily is just standing there like what the hell am I supposed to do? So I tell her to come out with me and I sent her back to the waiting room while I stand outside listening to Sam and Bella.
"I love you Sam so much, more than I love Josh and that is so wrong but I'm not in love with you I never have been you know that right?" I assume he shakes his head yes. "I know one day I will love him more than you but right now I'm so afraid I'm going to lose him if I always go to you." She tells him.
"I understand Bella, I feel the same way about Emily. You'll always be my best friend; you just can't be everything to me anymore. I love you and I will be in the waiting room. I'm going to go and get Josh now." He tells her.
"You promise you'll always be my best friend Sam? Even when I'm your stepmom?" She asks him and he laughs and tells her yes, even then.
"I feel like I just broke up with her. Make sure he takes care of her in there." He tells me when he walks out.
"Sam, don't go back yet, I'll go get Josh, you go get some coffee or something. I get it, I do. I watched you two grow up together. Josh even gets it I think because he understands that you both grew up without a parent and he loves both of you but Emily, she doesn't get it. If she sees you like this she will not get it. So before you go back to her you need to not look like you just broke up with her even if it's how you feel." I tell him and he sighs but he nods and walks away.
Once I send Josh back to Bella I sit down with Charlie for a while. This is all such a mess.