Josh's POV

Jason is 4 months and a few days old and Bella just told me she's pregnant. We had talked about it soon after Jason was born whether or not she would get on birth control. I wanted her to be on it for a while but she really wants one or two more kids and she said the closer the better because I'm so much older than her so here we are.

It's not that I'm not happy, it's just that she seems so stressed out already between working and taking care of Jason.

Right now she is at Sam's house with everyone doing whatever it is they do, while Charlie and Sue are here while I help Charlie fix his car and Sue makes food for us to freeze and then just reheat.

She makes us dinner and while we're eating she asks about Bella. They don't know she's pregnant yet, she wants to wait until after her first appointment to tell everyone.

"She's so stressed and she's trying to do too much and she won't let me help her. She tries to make dinner every night and half the time it's stuff she won't even eat and she won't let me keep Jason even long enough for her to nap or take longer than a 5 minute shower. She'll only let you or Emily keep him." Sue keeps him during the day. "I asked her if she wanted to stop working and she said she would do whatever I wanted her to do. I don't get it, I give her anything she wants, I've never made it seem like she doesn't have a choice in the matter but she said it like she'll stop if I want her to even though she doesn't want to. Plus she is obsessive about the house being clean."

Sue mumbles that bitch; I can't believe she would stoop that low.

"What are you talking about?" Charlie asks her.

"Alison." Alison apologized to Sam and Bella and while they aren't as close as they used to be they have lunch together once every couple of weeks.

"Alison?" I ask her confused.

She asks if Bella started all this about the same time she started talking to Alison again, I think about it and tell her maybe.

"All those things are things that Alison always felt insecure about, she's pushing all that onto Bella." She explains. I will kill her.

"I never made Alison worry about that stuff." I tell her and she looks at me like I'm stupid.

"You were a jerk back then. She used to tell me how you never liked what she cooked and the house was never clean enough and you hated having to watch Sam. And… you made her not work because you liked her at home. I don't know how much was her overreacting and how much was you and it doesn't even matter. You're not that person anymore. You and Alison were terrible for each other, everyone knew it. What matters now is Bella is killing herself trying to be perfect for you because Alison is telling her if she's not doing this and this you're going to leave her just like before. And that's why she said she would quit working if you wanted her to. Bella grew up thinking about Alison as a mother, so she isn't going to realize what she's doing. You have to talk to her, I'll talk to Alison. Leave Sam out of it, Bella will just feel guilty if screws things up for them even more. Actually let me talk to Bella too, she might listen to me more than you since I still don't think she completely trusts you on matters of you leaving Alison." She tells me.

"She's very sensitive right now, she doesn't people to know yet so please don't tell her but she's pregnant." I tell them and Charlie's eyes widen.

"Why so soon?" He asks.

"It's because he's so much older than her Charlie, she worries about everything. You know this." She tells him. "But you need to learn to tell her no sometimes. It's so hard to have babies so close together, especially with her insisting on working. You could've waited until Jason was at least a year or so." She tells me. "When is she planning on announcing it? As horrible as this sounds using the pregnancy may be the best way to get her to relax. She won't want to hurt the baby by overworking herself."

I tell her I think her first appointment is in a couple of weeks and then she wants to tell people.

"OK then I can't use it but you can. Guilt her into it if you have to, but I'll try to talk to her about what Alison is doing. And I'll talk to Alison and tell her if she doesn't stop I'll tell Sam." Sue tells me and I agree with everything, I would much rather her deal with it than me having too. "Do you want me to try and talk her into quitting work too? The reason she won't quit is because she wants to be able to care of herself if you leave."

Damn, I don't think she's ever going to trust me.

"I think she likes working though." I tell them and Sue says that's because you've never seen her drop Jason off. She cries almost every time, she hates it.

I am an awful person, it's like I don't know anything about her.

It would be so much better for her to stay home with the babies, then she wouldn't be so stressed all the time.

"I'll try to talk to her about it again; I just don't want her to feel like I'm making her." I tell them.

"You might have to make her, she'll be pissed at first but then she'll be happier. And if not than she can go back, they love her there." Sue tells me and I look at Charlie because this is his little girl and he looks torn but in the end agrees with her.

After they leave I clean up everything so Bella won't do it and wait for her to get home.

She comes home in a really good mood and I figure now is as good a time as any to talk to her.

"Bella can I talk to you about something?" I ask her and she says of course, what?

I know Sue said she would talk to her about Alison but I decide to just start with that.

"Is Alison telling you things about me?" I ask her, I can tell by the look on her face it's true but she plays dumb.

"Like what?" She asks me completely innocently. I know her act.

"Is she telling you that if you don't keep everything around here perfect I am going to leave you?"

"No! She's just trying to help by telling me all the things that made you leave her!" She yells at me.

"Bella you have to see she's not really trying to help you, she's trying to set you up for failure."

"You never tell me anything! You just walk around pretending it's OK I can't cook and that the house is a mess and that I'm always too tired to have sex with you! She's trying to help!" She's clearly delusional. I should have listened to Sue.

"Sweetheart it is OK that you can't cook and the house is a mess and you're too tired to have sex with me. I don't care, that's why I don't say anything about it. And maybe you wouldn't be so damn tired all the time if you let me help you. You hardly even let me hold Jason, Bella we need to sort all this out before you kill yourself. I don't think you see should Alison anymore."

That was a really stupid thing to say.

"You cannot control me!" She screams. I'm glad Jason is a good sleeper.

"I am not trying to control you Bella. I just don't want her trying to turn you against me."

"She's not, she is trying to help. You made her give up working just like you're trying to make me. You want me to give up everything I love!" She screams.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"You made me give up my puppy." She tells me, only that was her decision because the stupid dog barked all night and constantly woke Jason up. Screaming he can sleep through, barking no. Jake took him and Bella sees him all the time. So I tell her no, I didn't.

"You made me give up my nanny job; I only came here because I didn't want to see you all the time!" Once again, not my fault I tell her and also a lie, she belongs here. She's being irrational, she has to see this.

"And worst of all, you made me give up Sam." She's gone from screaming to quiet and bitter. "I'm leaving. I'll take Jason, wouldn't want you to have to take care of him and decide to run away."

"I didn't make you give up Sam! Dammit all I want to do right now is call Sam because you're being insane but you decided you couldn't go to him anymore. Not me Bella! All of those things you gave up all on your own. I've done everything I can to make you happy! I've given you anything you've asked for. I love you and I'll promise you again like I have a thousand times before I am not going to leave you. Why can't you just trust me? At least until I give you any reason not to." I yell at her and I realize when she looks at me with her big brown full of tears eyes that I've never yelled at her before.

"Alison said that you were happy with her but then you got bored with her and annoyed at things like her cooking and the house and her leaving Sam with you. I don't want you to get bored with me. I love you; I just want everything to be perfect. I want to be perfect for you." She whispers.

"Sweetheart you are perfect for me. I love you so much. You have to see that what happened with me and Alison was a long time ago and a totally different situation. I love you."

"Why would she do this to me? Why would she try to hurt me?" She asks me and I don't know what to tell her.

"I really don't know, maybe it's hard for her to see me with you when I was so awful to her. I don't know but can you trust me? Can you relax and let me take care of Jason?" She shakes her head yes.

I hold my arms out to her and she lays her head on my chest and sobs into me.

"I'm so sorry. I know none of that stuff was your fault; it's just that Alison was saying all of it and I have a hard time thinking about her wanting to hurt me. She raised me; she's supposed to love me. I don't understand. Oh but don't tell Sam, he'll stop talking to her again and he's happier now. I love you. I'm exhausted." She cries.

"I love you too, come on let's go to bed. I'm going to get Jason if he wakes up tonight OK?" She starts to say something but just nods her head yes.

She's asleep within minutes of being in the bed.