Bella's POV

I wake up feeling better than I have in a while and I realize it's sunny outside which means I slept all night. It's Saturday which also means Josh should be getting ready for work. I look at my phone, it's 9:00! He should already be at the studio.

I get up and walk downstairs to find Sam sitting on my couch holding Jason, trying to get him to take a bottle.

"Hey I don't think he likes me." He laughs.

"He'll only take a bottle from Emily and Sue, not even Josh. I'm sure that's my fault. Is he mad at me?" I ask him.

"No, why would he be?" Oh I guess the argument would be hard to explain without involving Alison.

"Yeah never mind that. Here let me feed him." He hands me Jason and asks again why Josh would be mad at me.

"We got in a big argument, I was really mean. But I think it's settled. Do you want breakfast? We have frozen pancakes from Emily and frozen burritos or something from Sue. I'm not going to eat them and Josh goes out for breakfast almost every morning. He doesn't like to reheat or something I don't know." I ask him and he says yeah he'll make them himself.

"You know you can still talk to me right Bella?"

"No, not about this I can't. Oh but do you think I should quit my job? He really wants me to and I hate leaving Jason and well I'm pregnant so that will just be another baby I don't want to leave and Sue can't raise my kids forever." I ask him.

"Wow, OK first of all you can talk to me about anything. Um congratulations I guess? Seems a bit soon. And you should do whatever you want to about your job, I think he wants you to quit because it would make you happier but it's your decision."

"We fought about your mom Sam. I don't want you to hate her but every time I have lunch with her she's telling me all this stuff I'm probably doing wrong and Josh is probably secretly hating and he tried to make me see what she was doing and I was defending her but he's right. And then I accused him of making me give up everything I've ever loved including you even though I know it's not true at all."

"Shit Bella I am so sorry she would do that. She's taking this so hard, I think she's jealous or something. Will you hate me if I keep talking to her? I'm kind of all she has right now." He looks guilty.

"No, it's fine. I didn't want you to cut her out again, that's why I wasn't going to tell you but I don't like keeping secrets from you. But can you tell her I don't want to see her anymore?"

"Of course, and as for you being mean Josh luckily loves you and he knows you're a crazy freak when you're pregnant. He knows right?" I stick my tongue out at him but tell him yes, he knows.

"Why so soon Bella?" He asks and I huff because I know I'm going to get this a lot.

"Because he's so much older than me Sam, I want him to be in as much of our kid's lives as he can be."

"So for all of your worrying and insecurity part of you actually believes he'll stay?" He asks and I never really even thought about it like that.

"Yeah I guess you're right." I admit.

"Don't overwork yourself Bella, let him help. And I can help and Emily too I'm sure. Isn't being pregnant going to mess up your wedding dress fitting?" At that I burst into tears and he starts saying I'm sorry, so sorry.

We planned the wedding for when Jason would be 6 months so I would have time to lose all the baby weight.

"I'm going to cancel." I tell him.

"No Bella, it should be fine right? It's in 2 months, you didn't even know you were pregnant before until 3 months and then you didn't show for a couple more. Plus if you cancel Emily and Sue are going to kill you and probably me. You'll be beautiful no matter what."

"Yeah hopefully you're right, I'm only like 6 weeks right now." I tell him still crying. "I need to go to the store you want to come with me?"

"Josh said not to let you out of the house unless you are eating or seeing people. He took your list and said to text him if you need anything else." I just roll my eyes and say fine, keep me hostage.

"then I'm going swimming. You want to come with me?"

"Can you take Jason in there? I can stay with him while you go."

"He can go for little bits of time, he likes it. But if you want to stay with him while I swim that works for me."

He tells me he'll come in for a little while and then get out with Jason and he goes to change while I change me and Jason.

"I can't believe you talked him into putting a heated pool in." He tells me as I float Jason around in his little pool thingy. It's kind of like a car seat that floats.

'"I didn't talk him into it, I said you know what be nice? A pool. And he said I'll get you a pool and I said yeah but it's hardly ever warm enough for a pool and he said it will be heated. So… pool." I motion with my hands and he laughs.

"You're so freaking spoiled Bella." He tells me still laughing.

"I don't mean to be!" I defend myself.

"It's not a bad thing, I'm just glad you're happy."

We keep Jason in for a little while and then Sam gets out while I swim for a little while longer until I'm tired.

I go in and Jason is sleeping in his bassinet so I start to make lunch and figure out what I'm making for dinner. Sam comes back downstairs, he probably took a shower.

"Thanks for getting him down, how long are you staying? I'm about to make lunch and maybe start dinner." I ask him.

"He also said no making dinner, and to order in for lunch. He says you've been running yourself to death and he really wants you to chill today. I'll probably stay all day if you want. Emily is working so don't worry about her. Wait, my mom is the reason you've been so stressed and running yourself to death?" He asks suddenly, I thought we were past this but I guess it just clicked to him what I actually meant.

"Something like that. I let her convince me of things I knew weren't true. It's not a big deal. I was trying to make sure everything was perfect because she convinced me I had to or he would leave." I tell him.

"But you believe him now? That he's not going to leave." Sam asks and I think about it.

"Yeah I think I do." I tell honestly. "Which is why I think I'm going to finish this school year and then not go back next year. I really do hate leaving Jason every day."

"How many kids do you even want? You never talked about kids. Emily wants 4 which seems insane but I guess it's OK. She wants to start trying as soon as we get married." They are getting married a month after Josh and I.

"I'm not really sure yet but I'm thinking if this one is a girl that's good and if not then maybe one more." I tell him.

Sam orders Chinese for lunch, then we take Jason for a walk and then watch movies until Josh gets home.

"Sam was really mean to me today, he called me spoiled and he told me I was going to look fat in my wedding dress." I whine to Josh and Sam looks at me like what the hell?

"She's pregnant." Josh tries to whisper to Sam but I hear him.

"I knew you would tell him! What if Sam really was being mean to me?" I whine for real this time and Sam laughs.

"Has Sam ever really been mean to you?" He asks.

"He did kind of tell me I was going to look fat in my wedding dress, but then he apologized like a million times then took care of Jason so I could swim and got him down for a nap. And he really did call me spoiled."

"You're not going to look fat and you are spoiled. Go get dressed, we're meeting your dad and Sue and Emily for dinner." He tells me.

"Jason's too little to go out for dinner." I tell him shaking my head no.

"It's not like he has to eat dinner, he just has to sit in his car seat. Please Bella? I'll make sure no one touches him or looks at him."

"Fine! But we're inviting Jake and Leah too and then I can tell everyone I'm pregnant since you told Sam and he's going to tell Emily and then Leah will be mad because she didn't know."

"Are you mad that I told Sam?" He asks and I tell him not really because I told him earlier. "Good because I already told your dad and Sue too."

Sam just laughs and goes to get Jason ready.