Sam's POV

Josh calls me this morning saying Bella is gone, is she with me? I tell him no but she probably just got nervous and needed some time alone. They are getting married today and she's a little over 3 months pregnant and she is in general a nervous wreck to the point where is he begging her to just quit her job now because she hates it and it is so much added stress and not wait the two months till summer but she won't. He could tell her to do it and she would but he's not quite there yet.

I call Jake and ask him if he's seen her and he says no but check the beach, she always goes to the beach when she's flipping out about things.

So I drive to the beach and walk to the spot we usually hang out at and she's sitting on a blanket with Jason sleeping next to her writing in a notebook or something. I walk up to her quietly and sit down next to her. She doesn't say anything; she just looks at me and then lays her head on my shoulder.

"I'm scared." She says after a while of silence.

"Why?"

"Marriage never lasts. Out of the 4 of us, none of our parents are still married. Those are bad odds Sam. Maybe marriage is like a curse." She tells me.

"Bella he's not going to leave and you're not going to leave and you are both going to die eventually whether you marry him or not."

"What if he changes?" She asks.

"What do you mean honey?"

"What if once I marry him, it will be like I belong to him, like he can control me?" She explains.

"I don't think that's going to happen but if it does you can divorce him. I'll always be on your side and so will everyone else. Where is this coming from Bella?"

"He made your mom quit her job and my dad made my mom quit her job."

"Well yeah but I think they were just crappy people back then, all of them. Look at Sue and Harry, they were always happy." I tell her.

"Until he died."

"Death is unavoidable. What's in the notebook?" I ask her.

"Songs, poems, some stories, all my deepest, darkest secrets."

"I didn't know you still did that." I tell her and she looks at my funny and says I didn't know you ever knew I did it.

"I don't think there is anything about you I don't know." I tell her honestly.

"Did you know that when we were 10 I kissed Jake?" She asks and I tell her yes, he told me.

"Did you know that when I was 15 I kissed Leah?" I laugh and tell her I know she begged Leah but Leah wouldn't do it. She was having some teenage, maybe I'm a lesbian crisis.

"Did you know that right after I broke it off with Josh I thought I might be in love with you for like a day?" I tell her no, that's probably the one thing I didn't know. "But now I see I was just trying to forget him."

"Did you know that even though you've dated long term and I've met all of them Josh is the first person you've ever kissed in front of me? And I wanted to kill him for it." I ask her and she says hmm, never thought about it and I'm glad you didn't kill him.

"We have a screwed up relationship Sam. I'm glad our kids will be related, even if they are close it won't be so much of a boundary issue thing."

"No they'll probably be all weird with Jake's kids instead." I tell her laughing.

"You think Jake and Leah will have kids?"

"I think Jake will have kids." I tell her honestly. I really don't know if they will be with Leah.

"Do you think I'll be with Josh forever?" She asks.

"I think you're perfect for each other." I tell her and she looks at me and then says I guess that's good enough.

"Do you ever wish that we were together?" She asks. She's in a weird mood.

"I used to wish we had those feelings for each other but we both know we never did. I think I just thought it would be so easy to be with someone you've known your whole life. But this way I still get you but I have Emily and you have Josh and now Jason and this baby. I think everything happened exactly the way it needed to. Even Josh and Renee leaving, not that it makes it OK. I also think you need to get back to get ready for your wedding. Are you ready?" I ask her.

"Few more minutes. I love you Sam."

"I love you too Bella."

We sit there for just a few more minutes and then I carry Jason back to her car and she goes home.

A few hours later she gets married on the beach. She's so beautiful and he looks at her like she's the only thing in the whole world that matters.

She used to be the only thing in the whole world to matter to me. Now I have Emily who is crying and saying how she can't wait for our wedding. I can't wait either, because now as much as I love Bella, Emily is my whole world.

Josh comes up to me and tells me thank you for whatever I told her this morning.

"Take care of her, always." I tell him.

"I will, I promise. Thank you for letting me in your life Sam and thank you for always supporting her." He tells me.

"I will always be on her side." I tell him.

"I know and I'm glad she has you."

Emily and I are getting ready to take Jason home for the night, Bella said she can only stand to be away from him for the night and they'll pick him up tomorrow night. We told Josh if he can convince her to stay gone longer we can keep him as long as they want. They're only going a couple of hours away to some super nice hotel. Bella didn't want to go at all but he talked her into it.

"Sam!" Bella yells from across the beach and I look up at her, she runs to me.

"Thank you for getting me here. Thank you for loving me and supporting me and being my everything and then letting me go." She tells me crying. I just hug her and kiss her head. "If you need anything for Jason please call me, don't worry about bothering us. Josh is trying to get me to stay for three nights but we're coming back tomorrow."

He comes up and puts his arms around her waist and whispers something in her ear. She smiles and says I have to go now.

They come back 3 days later.