Josh's POV

"Are you OK sweetheart?" I ask her. She's lying in the bed with Jason laying on her stomach babbling at her.

"Where is she?" She asks not looking at me.

"Downstairs with Sam and Jake. Bella are you upset that I let her in? I wasn't going to, but then her daughter got sick and she looked awful and Renee said she needed to sleep. I'm sorry."

"I'm not mad at you." She still won't look at me. "It's just weird that she's in my house with my half-sister who could possibly need me to save her life. Did you let her hold him?"

"No, she didn't ask but I wouldn't have let her. You don't have to get tested, you know that right?"

"I don't want to be responsible for her dying. If it was Jason I would want someone to save him. I'm kind of hoping I'm just not a match though." She says guiltily. "I won't be away from Jason and Brooke for too long though. She won't know me if I can't be with her."

"Let's just not worry about it until you get tasted. Do you want to sleep? I can take him back down, I won't let her hold him, Sam or Jake could probably even take him for the night, and then you could sleep late in the morning." I tell her.

"No, I was away from him all day. I missed him and I don't want to sleep, I don't like going to sleep without you." She whines.

"You're exhausted; I can see it in your eyes and hear it in your voice. You were out all day sweetheart and I know you're freaking out about all this. How about I take Jason down to Sam, or Sam can come up to his room and keep him and I will lay with you until you're asleep? Then after their gone and Jason is out I will come to bed."

"How about you lay here and stop trying to talk me into sleep and pretend there is no one downstairs and babble to Jason with me? I missed you too." She pouts so I laugh and tell her fine.

5 minutes later she's asleep. She's so stubborn.

I go back down to Sam and Jake and Renee with Jason. Jake takes him from me.

"She's out already?" Sam asks.

"Yep, fell asleep after whining that she's not tired. What did you do today?"

"Beach, lunch with Emily. That's about it. She's so tired all the time, is she OK?" Sam asks concerned.

"Of course she's tired. She has an infant and she's pregnant, either one of those by themselves is enough to be exhausting but together it can actually be dangerous." Renee says.

"Well I'm sure the stress of knowing she might be the only person that can save her dying sister she doesn't know from a mother that hates her will be helpful." Jake tells her. "Josh I know Bella doesn't want him around her, can I take him home for the night?" Jake loves Jason, I think he actually just wants his own kids but Leah doesn't.

"She said no, I asked her if she wanted me to see if one of you wanted to take him." I tell him.

"Then I'm taking him upstairs." He tells me.

"I thought you said Sam was the protective one." Renee mumbles.

"Doesn't mean I'm the only one that hates you. We all grew up close; Bella is like a sister to Jake. We all hate you." Sam tells her.

"Yet, he leaves and you're fine with him and Bella marries him." She tells him looking at me.

"He didn't tell me I was the biggest mistake of his life and that he never loved me." Sam tells her.

"Of course he didn't. Anyone can look at you and Bella and know that they're not getting to her if you don't want them to. The way you look at her and held her that day you came to my house. He knew that if he told you the truth, that he didn't give a damn about you, he would lose her." Renee tells him and Sam laughs.

"Trying to make him look bad isn't going to make you look like less of a bitch." Sam tells her.

They keep arguing until Jake comes down the stairs and tells them both to shut up before they wake Bella and Jason and probably Renee's daughter too.

"I'm sorry." She tells all of us. "I don't know you, I shouldn't judge. I'm just so worried and stressed about my daughter."

"The daughter you love you mean." Sam says and then says he's going upstairs with Jake.

"Should I just wake her up and go?" She asks.

I'm about to tell her no when Sam walks down with her.

"She looked lost and confused." He tells her and she tells him thank you.

"Who are these people mom?" She asks her, poor thing looks scared to death.

"I'll explain everything on the way the hotel baby." She tells her.

"Thank you Josh, as soon as she gets the results please call me." She hands me her # and they leave.

The next day Bella gets tested and she is a match.

We meet with a doctor who tells us she can do the surgery 24 hours after the baby born as long as everything goes OK and then she would need to be in the hospital for about a week. After she's released, she'll have to stick to light activity and get tons of rest for the next 3 or 4 weeks.

Because that sounds completely possible with two babies.

"Can I breastfeed her?" She asks and he says yes but that will limit the amount and type of pain meds she can have.

"Can they visit me in the hospital?" She asks and he says that really depends on the hospital and the nurses.

"If she can't spend a lot of time with me in the first week will that mess up my bonding with her?" She asks and he says no, a week should be fine.

Then he explains the risks and while they are not high I don't like her doing anything that can end in death.

We leave the hospital and pick Jason up from Sue; Bella didn't want him in the hospital with all the germs.

"Do you want to get lunch?" I ask her.

"Yeah but can we just take it home? I don't feel very good." She tells me.

"You still don't have to do this sweetheart."

"Of course I do. She is dying, might even still die because I can't do it soon enough. If I die during the surgery I want you to make Jake their legal guardian if anything happens to you." She starts crying.

"Nothing is going to happen to you. The risks are practically nothing; you're more likely to get in a car crash." She starts crying harder and I realize that probably wasn't the smartest thing to tell her while we're in a car. "You're not going to die but why Jake?" Sam is their brother.

"Sam will have kids. I think Jake is going to have to break up with Leah if he wants kids and I'm not sure he's willing to do that. Not that if I die you'll die when they are young enough for them to need him, but really we should have legal plans for them anyway. Is Jake not OK with you?" I tell her Jake is fine because no one is dying so it doesn't really matter.

"What about your studio? What happens if you die? I can't run it." She's getting all emotional, she's about to melt down.

"You would sell it. I have a will Bella, you would get everything. The studio, all my savings, the house of course. Why are you thinking about this all the sudden? Are you planning on killing me?" I joke.

"She's only 10. Anyone can die at any time. And you're kind of old. You have savings? See I don't know anything about anything. I get it's your money but if you die I don't know if I can support the kids and keep the house and everything being a teacher." She tells me.

"I have savings sweetheart and life insurance. You and the kids would be fine. I'm not hiding anything from you, you know that right? It's just as much your money as mine. You've just never shown any interest in it." I ignore the fact that she called me old and she's acting like I'm going to drop dead.

"In the city I made decent money and I had only had a few bills, I didn't even have cable or internet because I only spent the nights there. I was at work all day and with Sam all weekend. And the when I moved I actually made a tiny bit less money but Sam never let me pay rent, all I paid was for half the electricity and then you never let me pay anything. And now I have no money so I just don't know how I would do if I was suddenly responsible for me and two kids completely." She explains.

"You have money Bella, you have all my money. Don't think like that. We can sit down and talk about all this one day OK? I don't want you stressing right now. Let's get lunch and go home and just relax for a while." I try to calm her down.

Once we get home with our lunch and eat and feed Jason she puts him down for a nap.

"I'm really tired; I'm going to take a nap. Come with me?" She asks.

I lay with her until she falls asleep and then get up and try to clean up the house and figure out what to do for dinner. She's been trying to make sure we eat more at home because she doesn't want the kids to grow up eating out all the time. She's still very picky but thanks to Emily she'll eat a lot more than she used too. I need to go to the store but she'll flip out if I leave while she's asleep plus I want to make sure I get Jason if he wakes up before her. She'll probably flip out if I'm not in there with her when she wakes up but she'll have to get over it. She's very clingy lately not that I mind, it's just not her. It's probably the pregnancy. I've known her pregnant more than not. I'm hoping she wants Brooke to be it but if not I think we'll have to wait at least a year or two.

Someone knocks at the door and I open it to Jake.

"Can I talk to Bella?" I let him in and tell him she's sleeping but he can stay and wait.

"Leah's pregnant, she doesn't want it. She said she'll have it and I can raise it but she doesn't want to be involved. I knew she didn't want kids and lately I've been considering breaking up with her because I really do want kids. Even more that I spend time with Jason but I don't get how she can just be so cold, like it's no big deal. I could see if Bella had turned out like that, or Sam but not Leah. Leah had this perfect childhood with two parents who loved her until her dad died but she was older than. I mean I'll do it, I'll raise it alone but what makes a parent walk out on their kid?" He tells me.

"Are you asking me why I think Leah wants to walk out or are you asking me why I walked out on Sam?" I ask him.

"Oh I'm sorry I guess that did seem like I was judging you. I'm not; you're clearly not going to leave Bella so I don't really care what you did before. I mean I was a baby." He's guiltily rambling.

"People do the same things for different reasons. I walked out because I was young and overwhelmed and selfish. I think Renee walked out because she resented Charlie and Bella. I can't tell you Leah's reasoning. Maybe she'll change her mind, when did she find out?" I ask him and he says just a few days ago. "Leah has Sue here too, that's something neither me nor Renee had, I don't know if it will make a difference but she has Sue and her shop, plus you and Leah love each other. You're together because you love each other not because you got married out of high school because all your friends did or because she got pregnant."

"Thanks, I think I'll just go. Bella doesn't need to hear my problems anyways."

"No, she'll be happy to see you. She found out she's a match and she's trying to pretend everything is fine."

"You're really going to let her donate a kidney?" He asks.

"I don't want her to but it's her decision. She doesn't want the girl to die, I don't want her to die either but I don't like it." I tell him.

"If you told her no she would listen."

"I know but I'm not going to use that against her. Do you remember how mad at me she was when I made her quit her job before the summer? And that was something that made her miserable. If I told her no, she can't do this she will end up feeling guilty and probably hating me for the rest of her life. No, I won't do that. I know she'll listen if I tell her no, but I'm only going to do that if it's really for her own good. I don't want to control her." I tell him.

Bella didn't talk to me for a week after I made her quit her job. She was so miserable though, she cried every morning and as soon as she would get home she would fall asleep and sleep all night. Jason cried all the time because he wasn't getting any time with her. I thought she was going to leave me. Everyone tried talking her into talking to me. Sam, Jake, Sue, even Leah. Finally it was Charlie that got through to her.

I didn't know she saw it the same as me making Alison quit and Charlie making Renee quit. Charlie finally convinced her that I made her quit because I was worried about her, it wasn't a power trip thing like it was with Alison and it wasn't a because that's what all our friends are doing thing like it was with Charlie and Renee.

"Is it weird for you her being so much younger than you? Younger than Sam?" He asks.

"Not really, but I think she's starting to worry about it. She's worried about me dying and leaving her to take care of the kids by herself. She wants you to take them if we both die."

"Not Sam?" He asks surprised.

"She says she knows Sam will have lots of kids but she's not sure about you. But I really think it has more to do with the fact that Sam is Jason and Brooke's brother, he'll always be a part of them. She wants you to be family to them too. Also, I know Sam loves Jason but you are the one that seems more drawn to him. At this point Sam wants kids for Emily, you want them for you. But really I'm not planning on either of us dying."

"You're not that old. I mean you're a lot older than her but not that old." He tells me.

"Bella tends to over worry."

"She's not nearly as bad when she's not pregnant. Are you going to have more after Brooke?" I laugh and tell him I hope not.

"I would like to get to know the non-hormonal Bella."

"But you won't tell her no?" He asks.

"Probably not but I will tell her we need to wait a while this time. I was stupid to let her get pregnant so soon."

Jason starts crying and I get him and bring him down and Jake takes him.

"You're good with him Jake. You'll make a good father with or without Leah." He looks upset but says thanks. "I need to go to the store, are you going to wait for her to wake up? She is going to be upset that I left, she's very clingy lately but if you're here she'll probably be OK."

"Yeah go, I'll keep him if you want." He offers.

I ask him if he's staying for dinner and tell him to tell her I'll bring something home.