AN... THIS CHAPTER IS HEAVY BE WARNED YOU MAY CRY I KNOW I DID WHEN I WROTE IT AFTER THIS CHAPTER THE TITLE AND DESCRIPTION START TO MAKE MORE SINCE ENJOY.
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SADLY I DON'T OWN CHUCK OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS BUT MAYBE SOMEDAY...
9 Years Without You
By CharmingCharles2896
Chapter 2: The Letter
1 year later 8:00 A.M.
As the sun shined in through the Morgan door waking chuck from his wrestles sleep. Chucks outstretched arm dangling idly over the empty side usually occupied by Sarah, it felt cold and lonely. As chuck slowly raised from his bed to start the day he noticed something was different, he looked around the room looking for what was out of place.
"That's it" he clumsily got out of bed and walked over to his Tron poster and straitened it. While walking down the hallway he smelled a familiar smell, Bacon and pancakes his favorite it brought a smile to his face that his loving wife made him breakfast.
"Sarah" he called but there was no reply.
As he eat his breakfast he noticed a piece of paper on the coffee table.
"Huh that's unusual he grabbed a piece of Sarah's amazing bacon and walked over to the table to look at the unassuming piece of paper. It was a letter from Sarah; his heart skipped a beat at the thought that she wrote him a letter.
Dear Chuck,
I'm leaving and I'm not coming back, though I love you and will always cherish the last year with you I just can't live this life anymore. I'm rejoining the C.I.A. and I'm going to do what I do best don't count on me coming back so please move on it's what's best. I know that this is going to hurt but please forgive me it's nothing that you did it is just me I can't give you what you deserve. Let's face it the last year was rough we fought and we argued maybe not at first but it is clear that we can never be together yes we tried but in the end we will never work out. I can't continue putting such a burden on your shoulders. I can't keep letting you work yourself to death trying to cure my amnesia it isn't right for you to work so hard while I do nothing. So I'm leaving, actually I've already left by the time you read this I'll probably be outside L.A. I got rid of my cell and all of the tracking devices so don't come after me. Goodbye Chuck I'll always love you good luck in your future in devours.
Sincerely your loving wife Sarah Bartowski.
P.S. there is an envelope on the coffee table that has some things for you inside. Once again I'm sorry that it had to end like this.
Chuck was speechless his mind was reeling, his palms were sweaty and his lip was quivering. As he sat down he looked at the table, there was the envelope. As he stared down at the envelope he mused to himself how could this day get any worse. He scolded himself for saying those infamous words. As he opened the envelope he saw a piece of paper inside chuck thought he new what it was but didn't dare find out his body betrayed his mind and pulled out the piece of paper. While unfolding the piece of paper chuck noticed how afraid he really was of what was on that paper. As soon as he saw the heading on the piece of paper he dropped every thing he was folding at that moment like they were hot coals.
"No no no it can't be, it can't end like this please god stop this oh my god no" it was a divorce paper with her signature at the bottom. When he dropped the envelope he heard a clanking sound. He picked the envelope back up and a ring fell out and into his hand, it was her wedding ring. As he read the inscription on it a lone tear ran down his cheek
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"Looks like forever wasn't enough" as chuck looked further into the envelope he gasped at what he saw next his mothers and formerly Sarah's charm bracelet, on it there was a new charm… a broken heart. That was all it took all of his walls came crashing down his world was officially destroyed by a charm bracelet.
"Oh my god" Chuck buried his face in his hands he started to cry a heart wrenching cry of anguish and despair.
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Sarah had the windows open, the radio blasting and was driving at 138 miles per hour but that didn't stop the tears from flowing down her face. Not even 3 hours ago she had given up a life with the man of her dreams she had hurt the only man in the world that didn't deserve it and above all she had given up any and all dreams of a family, her family. She was afraid of the intimacy the feelings. She wasn't good enough for him no matter how many times he told her different. He deserved better then her. He didn't deserve a burnt out CIA slut who had been whored out by the agency for over 10 years. No he deserved a girl who could actually love him both physically and emotionally someone that could share their feelings someone who wasn't damaged goods.
"Yes that's what he deserves." She said it out loud hoping desperately to convince herself too. As Sarah's car sped off into the early morning sun it was truly the end of an era a very good era but it was the end of an era nonetheless.
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Morgan was not a fan of waking up early but when he heard a ruckus in chucks apartment he being chucks hetero life partner was obligated to check up on chuck. As he walked the few feet over to Chuck and Sarah's place he heard a faint sound he could not identify it.
As chuck continued to sob in his family room he heard something to his left.
"Hey buddy is everything all righ…" the words died on Morgan's tongue as he observed the scene in front of him, the last time Chuck was this emotional was after Jill broke up with him so many years ago.
"What's wrong Chuck why are you crying?" Chuck just handed Morgan the letter and continued to cry.
"She's gone buddy, she's gone for good and it's all my fault" as Morgan finished the letter his own tears were welling up in his eyes, the best thing to happen to Chuck in almost a decade left without a goodbye. It was tragic when you looked at it, everyone chuck gets close to has hurt him yet chuck finds a way to love everyone time and again. Everyone thought that Sarah was the one they where perfect for each other and yet destiny through a monkey wrench in there plans.
"Morgan don't you have work today?" ask chuck as the sobs started to subside.
"Yes but I think that you need me more than the buy more does which by the way is much less intense without Jeff and Lester." Morgan was trying to lighten the mood.
"No Morgan I'll be fine got to work" Morgan was skeptic.
"You sure cause I'm here for you."
"Yes Morgan go I'll be fine go to work" Truth be told chuck really did need Morgan but he put on a brave face Morgan was the manager of the buy more now he can't just miss work and with Ellie thousands of miles away he was alone on this one but he didn't mind being alone. He often felt alone during his 5 years in the spy life. As Morgan walked through the courtyard he remembered all of the moment's chuck and Sarah had out here chuck told him pretty much everything so he new about most of there talks. There rehearsal dinner was out here the night that Vivian Winterbottom used the Norsman device. It was truly a place were magic happened.
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8:35 P.M. 10 hours later
Chuck was at an all time low point in his life no job not that he needed one no wife just chuck and a bottle of vodka, Chuck had bine nursing the bottle for over an hour. Chuck never could do a straight shot he always had to do something else with it like orange juice. Casey always teased him about it but didn't care; as a matter of fact he didn't care about much of anything at the moment, Sarah was gone no goodbyes just gone and now Chuck was reduced to crying for 10 hours while consuming all the alcohol in the apartment and listening to band of horses. But after searching he finally found the item he was looking for. It was heavy and cold, indiscriminant and deadly. Chuck had been staring at the gun for over an hour it was loaded and cocked, chuck had been contemplating doing it but didn't have the courage. How pathetic he couldn't do it he had shot other people before namely Daniel Shaw 3 times in the chest.
"This is how it ends, News flash chuck Bartowski found dead on living room floor after committing suicide. How tragic" chuck looked at the gun as he lifted it up towards his temple. A lone tear crept down his cheek he breathed in one deep breath. In his other hand was a picture of him and Sarah at there wedding. He wanted the last thing he ever saw to be Sarah happy something he hadn't see in a long time. He was trembling he didn't want it to end this way but at the same time he did. He brought the gun down from his temple and looked at it again.
"I'm sorry Sarah I wish it could have been different but that's not gonna happen any time soon so goodbye." He brought the gun back up quickly his trigger finger moved toward the trigger.
"CHUCK NO!" screamed Ellie as she ran towards him. Chuck looked up in shock his lip was quivering.
"Don't do it please" by now Ellie had taken the gun from Chuck and gotten rid of it. Chuck was sitting on the floor with Ellie a mere 2 feet away.
"But I have nothing to live for the only girl that could ever love me left because I loved her to much it's the only way out." The tears were streaming down Ellie's face as she looked upon her younger brother. Chuck leapt into her arms and cried he buried his face into her shoulder as the sadness gripped him.
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Sarah was sobbing as she watched the scene unfold in front of her. She was sitting in her car in a Wal-Mart parking lot at 10:00 P.M. as she watched the security cameras that were still inside chuck's apartment she had been watching for a good hour when she saw him pull out the gun. Lets get this out there Sarah Lisa Walker Bartowski never gets scared but when chuck took out that gun she was the most scared she had ever been ever in her life. She never thought it would go this far she new he would probably break down but suicide that was never even an after thought. But when that gun was pointed at his temple the saddest feeling of guilt over came her she had caused this all of it because she was afraid, she was in her eyes not worthy and now he wanted to kill himself. That was something that she would never forget, the look on his face as he looked at the picture of there wedding day. As he brought the gun up the second time she closed the laptop unable to continue watching she opened up he car door and proceeded to empty the contents of her stomach. She new that at that moment she was no longer a hero who saved lives, no she was a murderer. She killed an innocent man all because of her selfish reasons. She would live with the fact that he died an innocent man caught up in her own selfish games.
AN... NOW I KNOW THAT WAS NOT WHAT YOU EXPECTED BUT BARE WITH ME.