AN... THANK YOU FOR POINTING OUT PLOT HOLES IT IS MUCH APPRECIATED PLEASE CONTINUE THE REVIEWS AND CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS ALWAYS APPRECIATED.
AN... I KNOW THAT THIS CHAPTER STILL LEAVES A FEW LOOSE ENDS BUT I THINK IT WAS NECESSARY TO WRITE THIS ONE THE WAY IT IS
AN... IN MY OPINION THIS IS THE BEST CHAPTER OF THE STORY IT WAS CERTAINLY MY FAVORITE I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AS MUCH AS I ENJOYED WRITING IT.
AN... I THINK THIS CHAPTER PORTRAYS A REALISTIC VERSION OF WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF THEY DID MEET AGAIN.
AN... I DON'T OWN CHUCK BUT GOD WOULD THAT BE AWESOME.
9 Years Without You
By CharmingCharles2896
Chapter 4: A Chance Encounter
Shock pure shock that's the only way to describe it, Chuck was speechless there she was after all these years. Sarah couldn't believe it either he was alive after all; her heart was bursting with joy for the first time in as long as she could remember.
"Sarah?" was all he could say.
"Chuck?" she choked out. The rest of the group was speechless especially Ellie who actually stayed in la for a good 2 months after Chuck gave everyone a little scare. They slowly walked closer to each other hesitantly almost as if they were making sure the other was actually there. They were mere feet from each other when chuck opened his mouth to speak. Sarah was afraid of what he would say, it had been nine years since they had talked last and she knew he must have been looking for her considering this is Chuck were talking about. He closed his mouth almost as if rethinking the first thing he would say to her, she decided to speak first.
"I'm sorry" she was going to say more but he cut her off.
"Sorry, Your Sorry" it was almost a whisper he was so mad.
"After all this time your sorry. You left because I worked to hard, instead of telling me, you left. I nearly killed myself, and all you have to say is Sorry!" Sarah was actually kind of shocked by his sudden outburst. A feeble 'well' was all she could get out before he ranted again.
"God you know I spent nine years of my life trying to find you and fix your amnesia but it just dawned on me… you don't want your memories back, all this time and effort wasted on a girl who didn't want what I had to give. Wow I feel like an idiot now." Tears were welling up in her eyes, no she couldn't breakdown and cry not now.
"I even took the time to make a par of glasses for you to fix it all." Chuck walked over to Ellie. He snatched the coat from her hands and went into the pocket and pulled out a par of glasses.
"Here if you ever decide you want your life back just put these on and watch." He turned around to walk away; he looked over at Ellie who had a weird look in her eyes as If she was trying to tell him that he was out of line. The tears were flowing now; he hated her, had for some time now not that she had known. She thought he had killed himself and since he was no longer a spy the agency never told her one way or another, figures as much. Since she had been trying to keep busy for most of the last nine years. She never kept up on pop culture she never even bothered. But now this changed everything he was alive and he actually solved the memory problem even though he might not have ever seen her again. Chuck turned around to see her crying into one hand while the other one cover he bare chest. He was such an idiot he had let his anger get the best of him and look what it had done.
"Sarah I'm sorry I'm really not that mad at you actually. Although I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at all but that's beside the point."
"Your not mad?" she was desperately trying to stop crying at this point but it was useless.
"No not really I'm more shocked to see you" everybody watched in awe as the two conversed.
"Oh" she quietly giggled a little.
"Here ware this" chuck handed her his coat.
"Oh gosh I'm naked aren't I how embarrassing, thank you for the coat." She quickly put on the coat and turned to the rest of them and spoke
"Well it was nice seeing you all again I have to be going" she turned to walk away but stopped.
"Thanks for saving me Chuck I'm eternally grateful, goodbye." She started walking away. Chuck was flabbergasted to say the least, there she was the woman of his dreams after all these years, suddenly Morgan interrupted his private musings.
"Chuck don't just stand there go after her you can't let her walk home alone warring what she's warring."
"She's fine she's got training she can handle it." Truth be told Morgan was right Chuck was just too scared to go after her. Ellie came up to him next.
"Go after her you numb skull, GO!" Chuck yelled after her
"Sarah wait!" but she didn't hear him so he ran to his car. Inside his car he quickly proceeded to fumble with the starter key before finally starting it, the car roar to life just as chuck floored the motor in an attempt to catch up to her. His hand just happened to hit the radio in all of the chaos; the radio was playing drive by the cars.
You can't go on, thinking, nothings wrong
What now
whose gonna drive you home, tonight
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Sarah was crying again, she was so happy to see him again it was as if a massive weight had been lifted off her shoulders. She had become so angry with everyone that they gave her the nickname of black widow. She had refused to do any seduction missions in the last nine years out of respect to him or at least that's what she told her self. She always thought it was gross or revolting to do one, she only did red ops it was really one of the few things they would let her do. She had to take months of CIA sanctioned therapy sessions before they would even think about letting her back into the CIA. Even then her age limited her to curtain missions. But they gave her lots of missions; she was still the best at what she did. Then came BLACKSPARROW a yearlong deep cover mission that ended badly.
"Sarah, Sarah, wait" she turned around to see Chuck in the most beautiful car she had ever laid eye's on. When Chuck pulled up next to her she was awe struck, he opened the passenger side door and spoke.
"Sarah get in I'll give you a ride home, this is no town to walk home while warring that so get in." she did as he said still awe struck by the car.
"Wow what a car, Chuck ware did you get this?" she was mesmerized by the car it was beautiful. She must not know anything about the past nine years he mused to himself.
"Sarah I think we need to talk" Sarah had a bad feeling about this; about a month before she left him she had a dream. It was Chuck with longer hair sitting at the fountain with her at their old place in Echo-park. He was telling her about how he wanted a real life and that they could never work, she later learned from chuck that it was a memory from years earlier. That dream haunted her so bad that she started thinking about if it happened again if he changed his mind and dumped her. She decided to leave him if only to save her the pain of losing him. It was the biggest mistake of her life she did irreversible damage to him. Everyday she regretted that decision, she wished she could do it different, to right the wrongs.
"Chuck I'm sorry I'd love to answer all your questions but please just take me home I'm really tired." Chuck was a little disappointed but most of all upset that he couldn't tell her what he was about to.
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It was funny Sarah was so tired that right be for she fell asleep she told him her address then off she went into dream land. Now they were in front of her building with Sarah asleep in his passenger seat.
"Okay Sarah lets get you off to bed" he got out of the car and opened up her door before proceeding to pick her up and carrying her to her apartment. They were getting close to the door of her apartment when she stirred a little.
"Chuck what are you doing?" asked a very groggy Sarah as she took in her surroundings quickly realizing that he carried her all the way up to her apartment.
"I'm taking you to your apartment" he had a very unmistakable grin on his face, he had forgotten how cute she was when she was just waking up, it brought back so many good memories. The door opened and Chuck gently let her down onto the floor.
"Thanks for the ride Chuck that was really nice of you."
"It's no big deal really," Chuck never could take a compliment he was too bashful about it. She politely excused her self and went to go change. Chuck took the time to look around her apartment. The place was very empty almost lifeless although there was one picture on the desk, he walked over to it and picked it up. The picture was of Chuck and the rest of the Bartowski's at the wedding reception of his wedding, in sharpie was the word FAMILY on the back. He had to smile at the picture it was a picture he always loved. He missed those times when everybody was happy, when everything was good, and most of all when he wasn't alone in his big old mansion with nobody to share it with, nobody to hold at night. He turned around after putting the photo down and spoke to Sarah who was walking back into the room.
"Before anything else is said I just have to say this, it's so good to see you." Sarah said nothing just crept closer her eye's became foggier and foggier while filling with tears her lip was quivering. She closed the distance between them and captured him in a sad hug sobbing loudly while burying her head in his chest. He didn't know where this was coming from but did the only thing that felt right in this situation he hugged her back, tightly securely, she was inconsolable, nine years of depression and repressed guilt came bubbling up to the surface and continued to poor out.
"Shhh shh sh it's okay let it out I'm hear, I'm hear." She continued to cry for several minutes until she finally spoke.
"I missed you so much I thought you had killed yourself, after I watched the security cameras in our apartment I cried and cried that day cause I killed you, I had murdered an innocent man because I was afraid you would dump me. I missed you for so long and I made the biggest mistake in leaving you I'm so sorry Chuck I'm so sorry about everything I was a fool for doing what I did and I know that I don't deserve forgiveness but will you forgive me Chuck please forgive me" chuck was practically crying now as Sarah spoke.
"Look at me, you don't deserve forgiveness, do you know why?"
"No why?" she was looking into his eye's now, they where like deep pools of brown.
"There is nothing to forgive you did nothing wrong, you acted how you thought was necessary and I can respect that. But if you seriously do need to hear it then yes I forgive you." She broke out into a timid smile as if the dark cloud over her life was finally gone.
"Thank you Chuck, thank you for always being there when I need you most." She kissed him on the lips, she needed the kiss, and she needed the closure that went with it. The kiss was almost cautious, timid even like they were afraid. Sarah was putting everything she had into the kiss but Chuck was holding back. She quickly realized that something was wrong.
"What's wrong?" she was truly concerned by the look on his face.
"I can't do this, I can't loose you again. If this were to escalate any further it will crush me. Then tomorrow you'll go back to Washington and I'll never see you again, I can't loose you twice my heart can't take it, I can't take the thought of going home to my big empty house. I refuse to get hurt again I'm sorry I just can't do it." Chuck was backing away while shaking his head side to side.
"It's okay I probably shouldn't either, well it was great seeing you maybe we can get coffee sometime."
"That would be great. Well I have to get going." He was walking towards the door when Sarah grabbed him and spun him around.
"I'm glad your not dead Chuck" she said that with such sincerity and finality that it shook him to the core.
"You have a nice life, goodbye Sarah" he closed the door and walked away from her apartment it was the end of an era, an era of tragedy and heartbreak of sadness and depression. As his car sped off into the distance the signature Bartowski smile made its triumphant return. he was happy for the first time in a long time.
AN... YES THIS WAS KIND OF SAPPY BUT LETS BE REAL IF YOU LEFT SOMEONE YOU LOVED AND YOU THOUGHT THEY KILLED THEMSELVES BECAUSE OF IT HOW WOULD FEEL HOW WOULD YOU DEAL WITH THE GUILT. I THINK THAT SARAH BREAKING DOWN LKE SHE DID IN HER APARTMENT IS HOW ANYONE WOULD REACT IF THAT LOVED ONE TURNED OUT TO BE ALIVE AFTER ALL. HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT.