I got up early the next morning. Well technically I didn't even go to sleep I was too excited. This reminded me when my high school pep assembly on channel 4 news and I ad to be there at 5:30 in the morning. I survived the whole day thanks to two 5 hour energies, coffee, and mountain dew. I still feel bad for my teachers they had to deal with me like that, I couldn't stay in my seat I was so hyper.
But I was ten times more hyper now and I haven't had anything. No red bull, no 5 hour energy, no coffee, no mountain dew, not even water. I ran into the bathroom taking a quick shower. After I was done I changed into one of my favorite shirts a dark green shirt, with blue jean shorts. After adding a cool mustache necklace and of course converse, I step into the penthouse suite's living room.
Yes I said penthouse suite, the network gave us this room till we got on our feet. Taking a deep breathe I let out the scram I've been holding in, doing a little fist pump. "Whoa whoa where's the fire?" Harley mumbled, as she walked into the living room her hair a mess as if she just woke up. "Sorry did I wake you?" I whispered looking at the floor a little ashamed, but the smile was still firmly plated on my face.
"No, no another girl was running around this suite, not able to stand still for a moment." Harley hissed. I thought she was talking about me until I saw flash of black hair run by me." "Hey girls guess what they have star bucks in the lobby and it never closes ever never." The brunette shouted, I could feel my cinnamon brown eyes widen as I looked at the brunette.
"Let me guess the network said they pay for it." Harley mumbled. Scar nodded like 50 times really fast, I could barley make out any of her facial features she was nodding so fast. Wow, I thought I was hyper. I felt a huge pounding in my head, it felt like I was being punched in the temple repetitively. Maybe I should have gotten more sleep.
I made my way over to the couch and lied down; shutting my eyes so no light came in. I ignored the questions I was getting from Harley and Scar. Well I couldn't focus on what they were saying it was so painful. I let the darkness take over me sighing as the pain started to go away.
"Scar what the heck are you doing?" I screamed, watching as the brunette ran all over the room. "I LOVE STARBUCKS!" She shouted. She jumped up grabbing the chandelier, and began swinging from it. "Scar let go of that!" I yelled, though secretly I wanted to swing on it too.
"Ok whatever you say." She said before letting go. I wanted to cream she was falling and fast. But I didn't notice she was falling at an angle and was heading right at me. Next thing I know, I'm laying on the floor with a killer headache. I couldn't move since there was something right on top of me. (*1)
I opened my eyes to see that I'm right back in the hotel room. And Mandi was next to Harley trying to calm Scar down. I noticed that my sudden headache was gone and I was feeling a lot better. Well I actually really tired, but what do expect I was up the whole night.
"Oh nice to see your finally able to help us." Harley mumbled as she held Scar back from running out the door. "Sorry just seeing her like this brings back painful memories." I mumbled. At least I think that's what it was, but how come it was so different from the other memories. I shrugged it off, best not to think about, plus who can I talk to about this. Everyone would think I was crazy, though who says I'm not.
I slowly walked over to my friends and grabbed Scar from Harley. "Connor what they he..." "Remember the last time she had coffee." I mumbled before I pulled Scar over to the kitchen. I handed her a bottle of water, demanding her to drink it while I heated up some tea. When it was done I added some honey and made her drink that too.
By the time she finished her tea she was calm again. "Feeling better?" I asked. As I took a sip of some of the tea I made. "Not really I feel like I have a hangover." Scar mumbled as she rubbed her temples. "Well maybe next time you shouldn't drink 500 cups of coffee." I sighed before taking another sip.
"Well they had some many different flavors, and I want to try them all." Scar whined. I almost spit out my tea. I swallowed it before I let out a quick laugh. "Ok, why not try a new one each day." I mumbled. "No that would take to long." I sighed, and began coughing fit when I saw the time.
"Scar you might want to change." I coughed out. "Why, what wrong with the way I am?" She asked with a pout on her face. "Well I don't think you would want your boyfriend to she you at his work in your Pj's" I replied grabbing her arms. I saw her eyes widen, and before I knew it she was gone to go change.
I walked back into the living room to see that both Mandi and Harley had already changed. "So you calm the crazy down?" Harley basked fixing her Nickleback t-shirt. Before I could answer Scar hopped into the living room. "I would just love to see you after you drank 500 cups of coffee." Harley opened her mouth to reply, but I quickly covered it with my hand.
"No time for one of your smart butt replies we have to go." I said, before she licked my hand, it was disgusting I might add. I wiped my hand off on her shirt and grabbed the keys before she could say anything. I ran out the door, regaining my excitement from earlier, I ran down the stairs knowing I couldn't stand the ride in the elevator.
By the time I was down stairs we only had 15 minutes to get to the studio. I was about to take off to the studio, but remembered about those losers I call my friends. I waited for them for 5 minutes until finally the elevator door opened to revival them. "Come on 10 minutes till were late." I groaned, knowing that we were doomed.
Finally after a 3 minute augment with Harley about why she couldn't drive we were off. I drove there, but was constantly looking at the clock, going full speed to the studio when I saw it was the time we promised to be there. But even with all my efforts we made it 20 minutes late. And it's not the best thing to show up to an audition late.
Yes, I said audition; we had one more to pass. And this audition was in front of the whole cast of Big Time Rush. Yes everyone and we were going to have to recite a few scenes for them then sing something.
Opening the door to the room, I could feel my heart beat pick up. It wasn't because of the 30 other girls that were there, were staring at us, or that I was audition for a part on TV. Well maybe a little, But I think the main reason it was beating so fast as because as soon as I opened the door I saw that boy I haven't been able to get out of my head.
Ok, it was just a poster, but seeing it made me realize that I would see him again. Be in the same room with him, even say lines with him. I couldn't move my legs, they felt like gelatin and I didn't dare let go of the door out of far that I would fall. "Connor move it." Harley hissed, as she pushed me into the room.
Even though I wanted to kill her, for causing me to lose my balance and almost end up kissing the carpet. I secretly thanked her, since it caused me to return back to my normal state. Well if you could call it normal. Walking over to the secretary I felt all eyes on us, the girls there looked pissed.
I wanted to die, they were glaring at me. But then again who was I? I never took any acting classes, or even acted, I only watched. Weather it was because I was filming or was just watching TV. I was about to run away, but as I was about to turn I made it to the secretaries desk.
"Hi... um..." I spat out. I was so nervous; I just continued looking at my dark green converse. "Name please." The women croaked out, she sounded exhausted "Um... Connor Reich." I mumbled. "Your late.' she hissed which cause me to flinch."I know, I'm really sorry but there was a lot of traffic..." "Not good enough." She hissed as she slammed her hand on the desk. "These girls were here on time, early in fact." "But..." I spat out. "But nothing!" My shoulders fell in defeat; I was never going to be able to see him again.
I repeated that over and over again until I felt a sudden anger rise in me. Who was she to saw it wasn't good enough, I drove hours to get here. Being late only a few minutes wasn't that bad. I stormed back over to the women, slamming my hand down on her desk. I started in her eyes, and she stared right back as if she was daring me to speak.
"Listen, I know I was late. But give me a break I drove hours to get here. I'm sorry that you have to sit behind this desk and just call out people's names, but please give me a chance. I bet they told me to be here earlier just incase they were running a head, or someone didn't show. I bet if I was here on time, I would still be in my seat waiting to be called. So please I beg of you, forget what time I came here and just let me audition. I promise I won't let you down." I said calmly, never letting my eyes drop from hers.
"Your number 75." She said with a smile, as she handed me a four scripts and a number. I let out the breathe I was holding in. "Thank you so much." I said letting her know how much I meant it. "Just don't let me regret it." She said back. I couldn't hold it in anymore; I let out a squeal and hugged her. "Let go child, I'm a secretary not a teddy bear." She said it annoyed, but I could tell she didn't really mean it. "Thank you." I said again, before I walked back to my friends and handed them their scripts.
"What was that about?" Mandi asked as she took her script. "Oh, just never knew how nice people in L.A. can be." I replied back before I sat down and began to go over my script. Giving me a look, Mandi sat down next to me without another question. I knew we were going to have to talk about this later, but right now it was time to focus on this script.
"75." a voice called breaking me out of my day dream. I looked over at my friends, and we made are way over to the man that was standing the door, that had called my number. "Hi, I'm number 75." I replied. He raised an eyebrow but showed us to the room.
"Keep, quite until I give you the ok." He said before he headed into a closed door, that had auditions written on it. My heart beat sky rocketed, as the door closed. Kendall was on the other side of that door. He was so close, and I couldn't calm myself down. The door opened again, and the man came out. "You may enter."
Gulping, and using all my confidence I walked into the room. I walked over to the table were the produces were sitting and I handed them my number and told them my name. Then my eyes landed on the other table, well on someone who sat at the other table. The guy I have been thinking about none stop. He wasn't looking at me, in fact he was glaring at the table. He didn't seem o happy, but then again he already had to say the same lines 74 times before now.
"Ok, Ms. Reich. This is suppose to be when the boys first see you, and their boys so there girl crazy. So just say the lines, and interpret them anyway you would like. I nodded my head and waited for Kendall to start since it was suppose to be a scene between the two of us.
"HI I'm Kendall I would like to welcome you to the palm woods." Kendall said light heartedly. You could tell he was bored and wasn't putting all his heart into it. "Thanks, Bye." I said annoyed. Shock appeared on his face, ass his head shot up. He had a huge smile that spread to hi green eyes.
But I was acting the scene and couldn't let that faze me. It took a few seconds to remember where we were but now the less he started his lines again. After many scene of acting it was time for the real audition. Yeah, everyone in the building I'm sure could act, but how many of them could sing and act. Finally we were set up and ready to blow there minds.
(A.N: Connor, Mandi, Scar, Harley, all)
Nothing I say comes out right,
I cant love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.
I'm so sick of wasting time,
But nothings moving in my mind,
Inspiration cant be found,
I get up and fall but,
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and Ill sleep when I die,
Ill live my life, I'm Alive!
Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.
All my friends just run away,
When I'm having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed, but I know there's a reason.
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and Ill sleep when I die,
Ill live my life, I'm Alive!
When I'm bored to death at home,
When he wont pick up the phone,
When I'm stuck in second place,
Those regrets I cant erase.
Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There's no time for misery,
I wont feel sorry for me.
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and Ill sleep when I die,
Ill live my life, ohhhh!
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight,and Ill sleep when I die,Ill live my hard life,
Ill live my life,
I'm Alive!
I took a huge breathe after the song ended. I was expecting them to be speechless again like the first time but there was nothing? "Thank." One of them finally said. "We'll call you with the results." They finished.
'We failed' was all I could think. I mean they said nothing, nothing at all. I began to fall into depression again. The other people probably just set us here so they could laugh at us. Yeah that's it, and worst of all Kendall got to see how bad I was. I placed down the guitar and slowly exited the room.
Not soon after I closed the door it opened again to revile the familiar blonde and green eyes celebrity. "Hey Connor wait up." I stooped in my tracks and turned to face him. "Why didn't you tell me you were in L.A. let alone auditioning?" He asked, putting one of his hands on my shoulder, causing my whole body to shiver.
"I wanted to surprise you. But apparently I surprised you with my horrible acting skills." I mumbled looking anywhere but his eyes. "Connor, what re you talking about? You were amazing!" Kendall exclaimed.
I looked up searching his eyes for any hinting of joking but he looked sincere. "Really?' I asked though I already knew the answer. "Yes." He whispered. I was getting lost in those amazing green eyes, and I could swear we were getting closer.
Well sorry for not updating sooner, but here it is. What do you think? And yes I have a cliffhanger sorry just needed it. I just hope that this chapter is long enough for you, and it makes up for me not posting in like forever.
Don't own song. Wish I did but nope.
(*1) It's a flashback/Memory that 'happened' when Connor was about 17. But I didn't feel like writing flash back
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