Kendall was so close I could feel his warm breathe on my cheek. It sent thousands of shivers down my spine. My body was filled with warmth as his arm wrapped around my waist. I could feel my legs starting to go numb, and I'm sure if it wasn't for him holding my up I'd be flat on the ground.

This is it! Kendall is about to kiss me! My biggest crush ever is about to kiss me! A 14 year old girl, is about to be kissed by Kendall out of his own free will. Because he wants to not out of pity, anger, no but because he wants to. But why does this seem so familiar. Is it about Brain, no no it can't be because of that it's something else but what?

"Connor are you ok?" A voice filled with sorrow asked, pulling me out of my thoughts. "Huh?" escaped from my lips then it started to sink in. I too, busy thinking about why this was so familiar that.. oh no. "Oh yeah I'm fine." I spat out a little uneasy. I mentally slapped myself, and if Kendall wasn't there I would have.

"Are you sure?" He asked, his voice filled more with worry now. I nodded looking anywhere but at him. I couldn't dare look at him. But it was no such luck since he lift up my chin forcing me to look him in the eyes. His eyes were filled with such sorrow, worry, and caring. But there was also so much pain, which made me flinch because I knew I caused it.

But there was something else, it was overwhelming. It was more powerful than any of the others and it caused my stomachs to do flips. "I think you should, go back." I whispered, I barley heard myself, but apparently he did since a brief flash f pain filled his beautiful green eyes, "I mean, you still have a lot of auditions to do." I said trying to put a point behind it; I didn't want him to think I hated him. But no such luck, there was still a lot of pain in his eyes. His arm fell from my waist, taking all the warmth with it. And then he was gone.

I let out a huge breathe as the door closed behind him. But that relief was short lived, as I started to drown in a ocean of my regrets. I can't believe I did this to him. He must think I hate him. as salty tears started to fall from my eyes. I almost had him, I swear that he was going to kiss me but I messed it all up. Why?

I picked myself off the ground, and walked outside. I wiped away all my tears hoping that my friends wouldn't notice that I cried. I mean I barley cried. Well that was before I met him. I cried more in the month since I met him, then I did in my entire life. But at least my friends were so use to my tear stained face, so they didn't notice.

"You ready to go?" I asked, my voice cracking a little at the end. Yeah you ok?" Mandi asked her voice filled with care. "Yeah, just the auditions really got to me." I whispered afraid that my voice would crack again. She nodded her head, which lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. "Can you drive? I don't think I could handle it." I asked, she again nodded. And for once since i turned 20, Harley didn't ask if she could drive.

As soon as I sat down, Kendall started to fill my mind. Since the first time I saw him on the T.V. to our almost kiss a few minutes ago. Does he like me? My heart started to beat rapidly as soon as the thought passed through my mind. I could feel my face start to redden and I took me at least 5 minutes till I could control myself again. What is he doing to me? What is this feeling? Why does this seem so familiar?

Wait... It's vague but I think I have it. I'm my 14 year old self again, and I'm at a computer. What am I doing? My head was pounding I was thinking to hard. Wait why does it hurt so much, could it be because that's the real me. The 14 year old me, that was 14 only a month ago. My head really hurts; it feels like someone has being using it as a drum for the past hour.

"Connor we're back at the hotel." Scar called me out of my deep thoughts. "Oh thanks." I mumbled, I've been getting lost in thought a lot more lately i wonder why. But I pushed that aside and decided since it was probably my last day in L.A. it was time to have fun. So as soon as I got back to the room I brought the idea up to the girls.

"Ok, so earlier was a little downer." I said getting their attention. "Thanks for stating the obvious Connor." Harley mumbled as she jumped onto the couch. "Well come on stop moping and let's go out. Were in L.A. after all." I announced excited. "NO" Harley said grumpily. "What if I let you pick my outfit." I said, wincing knowing I was going to be wearing a skirt, or worse a dress.

"Ok" Harley said, but before Scar or Mandi could say anything an annoying ringing sound filled the room. I looked around until I noticed it was coming from my back pocket. I pulled out my xenon, and my heart almost leaped out of my chest when I saw the name. With my shaky finger I pressed the answer button. "Hello?" I mumbled. "Hey, Connor." Kendall's voice replied from the other side of the line. I couldn't help but think about earlier and wonder if he was upset about it.

"Um hello?" Kendall said breaking m out of my thoughts. "Oh sorry, just was about to go out and enjoy L.A." I replied, really fast I wasn't sure if he picked it up. "Well, that's why I called. Want me and the boys to give you a tour?" He asked, I could have sworn there was a little bit of begging in his voice. But that's probably my imagination; he must hate me for earlier. "That sounds like a great idea." I said a little too excited. "I mean, we'd probably get lost in this huge city. It be nice to have tour guides."

"Sounds like a plan pick you up in 30." he replied. "Wait you know where we're staying?" I more stated then asked. "Yeah, penthouse suite at the Beverly Hills hotel." He said, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Ok, see you in half an hour." I replied before ending the call.

"What was that?" Scar asked, as she pulled out one of her favorite hats. "Oh Kendall called." I mumbled. "And he said that he and the boys would give us a tour L.A. and pick us up in 30 minutes." I replied. "What? I can't spend a day with Carlos looking like this." Scar said before she ran back into 'her' room to change into something more suitable. I started to follow Scar's example and change but Harley stopped me at the door.

"Oh, no remember you said I get to pick your outfit." Harley said. "But come on, James will be there you would go just for James." I replied, winking at her. Harley gagged, but knew that it was fake. "Yeah right that's the main reason I don't want to go. I' m only going to give you and Kendall support." Harley said patting my shoulder. "But Kendall and I..." I didn't get to finish my sentence since she slammed the door to my room to pick an outfit.

Well at least now I don't have to worry about the right thing to wear. I thought as I lied down on the couch. I couldn't help but think about what I was about to say before Harley slammed the door in my face 'and I don't need any support since we aren't anything.' But aren't we? I mean friends don't just almost kiss in the middle of the hallway. I shook the thought from my head, and walked towards my bedroom wondering if Harley picked out anything yet.

"Here" Harley said shoving a bunch of clothes in my face, I just shrugged it off and walked into the bathroom to change. After I was finished I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked like I was about to jump on a back of a motorcycle. But it honestly wasn't that bad, and it gave me that bad girl impression.

I walked out of the bathroom seeing we still had, 15 minutes before the boys would get here. I sat down on the couch, to get use to crossing my legs. I sighed; this was going to be a long afternoon. I still wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad thing. "Hey ConCon." Mandi said, walking into the room. I mentally thanked her for wearing a dress since now I wouldn't look too dressed up.

"hey Mandi you ready?" I asked though I was sure she was. "yep, but the real question is are you ready?" I'm sure I had a stupid look on my face, what did she mean by that. As if she read my mind she started to answer the question. "Oh come on Connor it's obvious you like Kendall." OK, that only more confusing I have to admit. "Were basically going on a quadruple date." She said shaking me like I was an idiot.

"Mandi, there giving us a tour as friends." I laughed, but I made sure I emphasized the word friends. "Believe what you like Connor, but remember the beach we all broke off into groups of two. It will happen again and you will be with Kendall." She said, before she left to answer the knock on the door. I started to ponder on what she was saying.

Sure I liked Kendall, I mean who couldn't, but more then a friend. No, it's just the fact that his a celebrity. That's why my heart always skips a beat, I feel electricity whenever we touch, seeing him sends shivers down my spine, and I blush. His famous and I'm scared I'll make a fool of myself. I don't like him like that, do I? I me I don't act that way around Carlos or Logan, Or even James whose suppose to be the handsome one. Which makes no sense to me?

I mean there all handsome, and I would say Kendall's the most. He stands out more than the others with his blonde hair, and his cute eyebrows. And who could forget those beautiful green eyes. They were so hypnotizing, I could get lost in them for hours. And let's not even mention his abs. All together his one of the hottest guys on the planet.

Ok it's official, I like Kendall Schmidt. "Connor." Speaking of the devil, or should I say celebrity. "Hey" I greeted him, getting up from the couch. I blushed seeing how well his shirt showed off his muscles. "Good to see you again." He said, his smile reaching to his amazing green eyes. "Same here." I muttered, losing myself in those familiar green eyes. It almost seemed like a routine. Yep I defiantly liked him.

"Is everyone ready?" He asked, looking around the room. Getting a nod, or a small yes from everyone in the room we headed out. We walked down the hall to the elevator with a casual conversation. Though I almost twisted my ankle several times thanks to the high heel boots Harley made me wear. Though it seemed luck was on my side today, i even learned more about Kendall.

"So where are we going by the way?" I asked as we walked into the elevator. "Well, a few places. You know the must sees in L.A." Kendall explained. "So you're going to keep it a secret till we get there." I asked. He didn't say anything, but a smirk formed on his lips. I shook my head but then I realized something. "Hey what's the plan for splitting up cars?"

"Oh Carlos, James, Scar, and Harley in one car. Logan, Mandi, you, and me in the other." He said. I nodded my head but blushed when I realized what Mandi had said before was true, well partly. I followed Kendall to the car, and stopped when I got to the door. Logan and Mandi we in the back seat which only left shotgun. Normally I would be happy about having shotgun, but right now it only made me extremely nervous.

But it soon faded away when Kendall turned on the radio, and it so happened to be there own song paralyzed. I couldn't help but laugh. "Oh some big shot you are. Trying to rub it in my face your famous I didn't think you were that kind of person." "Hey, it just happened to be on. It's not my fault the radio station had good taste in music." He said in defense. I just shook my head ad continued to laugh.

But it soon died when 'crush' came on. I couldn't stop blushing since I was hearing someone sing about there crush when I'm sitting right next to mine. "Man Kendall do you make a playlist of love songs or something?" I asked trying to break the silence. "No, if I did it be better coordinated, and i wouldn't' be playing it right now." I raised an eyebrow and started to look at him. "So then you do have a playlist of love songs?" "Yes... No... Ugh!" He muttered, before he focused on the road.

I sighed, and looked out the window hoping we get there soon. Luck really was on my side, since we stopped 5 minutes later. Hey maybe i should enter the lottery or something. I could win, but then i'd lose the ticket. I let out a little chuckle, before I looked aver at Kendall. "So where are we?" He raised an eyebrow, before he got out. "Kendall!" I shouted, as I opened my door, but my jaw dropped when it sunk in were we where.

"If you keep your mouth open it will attract flies." The green eye boy said. As soon as he said it, I chomped my mouth closed. "So what do you think?" He asked, putting his arm over my shoulder. "Can't believe I'm here." I replied. "So are you going to give me a tour?" I asked. "Only of the important people." He replied, before we got a map, and started to look for our favorite stars. (A/N: Incase you don't understand it right now, their going on the Hollywood walk of fame. And the map they have is the map of the stars.)

"Ok where to first?" Logan asked. As all of us looked at our maps. "Johnny Depp." I announced. "Of course." Harley mumbled, shaking her head. "What do you mean by that?" I asked glaring at her. "Oh come on, you've been in love with Johnny Depp since forever!" Scar said, Harley nodding in agreement. "Yeah you even did a report on him once." "Come on, Johnny Depp is awesome, and I even learned some much about him because of that report. Like he started of want to be a musical artist. And his still extremely hot, even though he tries to make himself ugly." I reported back. (A/N: Yes, I actually had to do a report on someone famous and I picked Johnny Depp. So all the facts Connor stated are true, so says me!)

"Come on Connor, you and Katie would always fight over who got to be Mrs. Johnny Depp. You do know his already to a French model right?" Mandi said joining in with them. "You too Mandi. Why'd you go to the dark side?" I mumbled. "Easy we have cookies." Scar exclaimed. "I want cookies." I shouted. "Too bad, you can't have any." A smirk forming on Harley's face.

We heard a cough, which brought us back to reality. "So I'm guessing we going to see Johnny Depp's Star." Kendall grumbled through clenched teeth. Since when did he get so mad? I shrugged it off, and then looked at the map to see we were actually really close to his star. "Come on!" I said pulling Kendal with me as I ran, which i might add is not easy in high heels and a dress, to Johnny's star. (A/N: Hehe I called him Johnny.)

"Hold on a second." I heard Mandi yell from behind. "No way slow poke." I yelled back. But I stopped, by my lead weight. "What is it?" I hissed, as a sent him an evil glare. "Well I didn't think you would want to pass up his star." Kendall said, giving me the most innocent look. I raised an eyebrow, out of confusion. He just signaled me to look down.

I gasped taking a step back. I had just stood on Johnny Depp's star. That's it I can die happy now, my life is complete. Then realization sunk in about how I was acting the past couple of minutes. "Um, sorry about that." I mumbled, looking show to hide my embarrassment. "it's ok, at least your not freaking out about Justine Bieber." As soon as he said that the awkwardness disappeared, and I couldn't help but laugh. "Oh, I have better taste then that 12 year old." I said in between my laughs.

"Man, you run fast." Harley mumbled, as she took deep breathes. "It's Johnny Depp." I said letting out a fake fan girl squeal. We started laughing again. After it was quite I got an idea. I took out my camera and demanded we took a picture. "Honestly do you always have a camera on you?" Harley asked as she posed with the rock on hand sign. "Do you really want to know?" I stated as I took the picture.

After we all had turns taking a picture with Johnny, yes even the boys we forced them, and a group shot thanks to a nice bystander, we went to look at other stars. We went to go see Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, Mickey Mouse, Clint Eastwood, Mel Gibson, Tinkerbell, The Simpsons, Louis Armstrong, The Beetles, The Beach Boys, and some many others that I forget but I got a picture of them all.

"Man that was fun." I said getting into the backseat of the car. "That's not the end of it." Kendall said as he sat next to me, Logan was driving. "There's more?" I asked raising an eyebrow. He nodded his head, a smirk forming on his face. This was defiantly going to be a long day. "Let me guess, it's going to be a surprise." Kendall just answers my question by smirking. Man I wish I could just kiss that smirk off his face. Wait... where the heck did that come from? I mean smack right, smack that smirk f his face. Yep that sounds right, but why does it not feel right.

I shook the thought out of my head, and looked over at the blonde and green eyed guy next to me. "Ok since we have a while to get to the next surprise, let's play a game." He nodded in agreement "Ok what about just a simple question and answer game." "Sounds fun you first." I said. "Ok, simple what's your favorite color?" "Green." Wait what, no my favorite colors not green it's blue. Ok I like the colors of his eyes better then any other shade ever, so I guess green is my new favorite color.

"Same here." Kendall said breaking me out of my thoughts. "Ok, favorite animal?" "Python or Boa Constrictor" I shiver went down my spine when he said that. "You.. You like snakes?" I whimpered. "Yeah you ok?" He asked his voice full of concern. "I'm terrified of snakes." I mumbled. Kendall sighed, and pulled me onto a warm embrace. I couldn't help but melt into it. It was only because I was thinking about snakes that's it. "It's ok I don't own one." He said which surprisingly calmed me down. "At the moment." I tensed and, bit my lip to keep myself from screaming.

I felt a cold chill take over me. Turning my head to see where it came from my eyes landed on a certain blonde hippie who was holding the open car door smile lie a mad man. "I just wanted to let you know we were here, but it seems that you two seem pretty comfortable." I jumped out of Kendall's embrace, opening and closing my mouth repetitively trying to say something, but failing. "Just admit you liked it." Mandi said.

That was it! I jumped out of the car to chase her. But I didn't take more than two steps, before I stopped. "Wow..." I whispered softly, as I took in the sight of multiple different sets and studios. "Come were going to miss the bus." Kendall said, before he grabbed my hand and dragged me to the bus. Once we were safely on the bus we still hand 5 minutes to spare.

So I took out my video camera, well the best i could with one hand. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, Kendall was still holding my hand i think his just zoned out. But hey I'm not complaining. Let him zone out, only gives me more time to hold his hand. I set up my camera just as the guide hoped on the bus. "Welcome to Hollywood Universal Studios." He announced in a forced cheerful voice. And with that we began our tour.

When the tour was done we had free time just to explore the sets. I demanded we took countless photos much to Harley's annoyance. "You're just a sourpuss." I said in a little kid's voice and pouted. "Well when you have to spend a whole day with a stalker, who spends a majority of his time looking in his mirror, talk to me about being a sourpuss." She grumbled crossing her arms over her chest. "Hey at least you have a hot stalker." James said as he put his arm around Harley, which she quickly stepped out of it.

"Don't worry we have one more stop, then you can get away from him." Logan announced. I had gotten my old feeling of depression back, I felt lonely all over again. Like a piece of me was gone. Why did it have to end it was only... I checked my phone real quick for the time and my eyes widened when I saw it. It was 7:30. We left the suite at noon and I was already 7:30. Man time really does fly.

"Good." Harley grumbled as she stomped away towards he car. I sighed and reluctantly walked towards the car. Wishing that today didn't have to end right now. I got into the car, but felt electricity shot threw me again when Kendall's hand accidentally brushed against mine. The depression faded in seconds only because his hand touched mine. "So can I get a hint about the last place?" I asked giving him puppy dog eyes. "Dinner." He answered with one word.

I started at him, my mouth wide open in disbelief. I don't know if it's because he answered the question or how he answered it that shocked me. Either way I shacked it off and looked out the window, hoping that time would just stop right now. "Favorite superhero?" My head whipped around, as I looked back at Kendall. "What?"

"What's your favorite superhero?" He asked again. Then it sunk in, it was the game we were playing earlier. "Spiderman hands down." I said as if was the most obvious thin in the world. "I do love spidey, but I also like the Green Lantern" Kendall said shrugging his shoulders. "I'll give you that, at least you didn't say Batman, and all he has is a utility belt." I murmured the last part. "Yeah, why doesn't he just spend all his money to get real super powers?" "I know right." I giggled.

Logan stopped the car all too soon for my liking, but I still got out. "Ok, the restaurant right across this road." Logan said. "Um, why can't you just give your car to a vale?" I asked. "You have no idea the crazy things fans will do." Kendall replied. I just shrugged and followed after us. But suddenly my luck seemed to change. "Oh my gosh it's Big Time Rush!" Some girl shouted and before I knew it, Kendall was running along dragging me behind him.

Then the heels decided that they hated me, since I feel and ended up twisting my ankle. "Go on I'll caught up." I yelled, looking at everyone's fearful. They all looked at Kendall wondering what he thought. He gave a quick nod, and then they all ran off. Well let me rephrase that everyone but Kendall ran off. He put my arm over his shoulder. And put his arm around my waist to give me some support.

"What are you doing your going to be attacked?" I yelled at him. "Not if we hid in that book store." He replied. As fast as we could we headed into the book store, ducking behind the farthest back section which just happened to be fiction. "Man these fans are crazy." Kendall mumbled. I only really herd the word fan since I was reading the sign that said fiction. Wait what fan fiction, fanfiction. Why does that sound so familiar? What does a computer and fanfiction mean?

"Hey you ok?" Kendall asked. "Yeah though my ankles killing me." I replied, as I rubbed my twisted ankle. "Well we'll be here a while. I asked Logan to text me when we were clear." Kendall said looking over at me to see if I understood. I just simply nodded. "Ok, Favorite sport?" "No" "what?" Kendall asked a little shocked. "It's my turn to ask the questions here." I replied back with a smirk on my face. "Favorite Band, and please don't tell me it's you own because that shouldn't count?"

"Taking Back Sunday, though Big time Rush is a close second." I rolled my eyes, of course. "Now favorite sport?" "OK, Hockey. And no it's not because it's your favorite sport on your show. I actually played it when I was 3, till I was 14." (A/N: I actually played hockey since I was 2 and started skating as soon as I could walk. without any help, I never needed one of those helpers or anything.) "You played hockey. Cool." Kendall said a little astonished. I nodded my head, then looked down.

"I'm sorry I made you have to stop and get me." I murmured unable to look into his eyes. "Hey don't worry about it." Kendall said, resting his hand on my shoulder. "Yeah, but i could have gotten you attack by crazy fan girls." I whispered, starting at the floor watching as it started to become blurry. "Hey it's ok, honestly I hate that restaurant." Kendall said ands he lifted up my chin, whipping away a few escape tears.

I started to have those feelings I had earlier today. My heartbeat was going wild, and he was so lose I'm sure he could hear it. His fingered moved from my chin so that they were now cupping my chin. Leaving a trail of warmth behind them. We started to lean in closer and closer. I closed my eyes, imagine the gorgeous man in front of me. Though I knew my imagination was nothing compared to the real thing. Our lips were just brushing, when a loud ring filled the room.

I instantly jumped back, a little scared of the noise. It turned out to be Kendall's phone that went off. "It's from Logan were all clear." I nodded, and started to get up, but as soon as I put weight on my ankle I fell forward right into Kendall's chest. "Sorry." I mumbled my face completely red. "It's ok." He said softly. I looked up into is green eyes that were so hypnotizing. "We better hurry before they come looking for us." Kendall said, as he helped me up and out to the door.

"Logan let me drive I have an idea." Kendall said after he handed me to Mandi who helped me into the car. After driving in silence he pulled up into a... McDonalds? "You do know we're at McDonald's right?" I said in disbelief. "Yeah, I've been to McDonalds before. What do you want?" After we pulled out of McDonalds I tried to figure out where we were going.

But I didn't know this city, and it was dark out which only made it more confusing. I gave up, when it looked like Kendall was driving up a hill. "Close your eyes." "What?" I questioned. "Close your eyes and don't peak." He said as if I was a five year old. None the less I closed my eyes just like he said. I heard of lot of ruffling around, and then a chill as the door opened. "Take my hand, but keep your eyes close." I sighed but did as he said.

Slowly we made our way to where ever. "OK, now sit. I slowly sat down feeling the cooled hood of the car under my legs. "OK now open your eyes." He whispered in my ear, causing it to tickle. "You sure?" I asked. "Connor just open your eyes." Kendall said a little annoyed. I rolled my eyes and looked at him. But stopped to look back at the view. And my mouth once again dropped.

This was better than the stars, this was better then getting tour of sets, heck I doubt even meting Johnny Depp would be better than this. "Kendall it's beautiful." I said, finally able to speak. "Glad you like it." He said, his voice so cheerful. "Your food milady." He said bowing and handing me my McDonalds. I let out a laugh and took it from him.

After taking the first bite of my Big Mac, I learned how hungry I truly was. I devoured the whole thing in less than a minute. I started on my fries, finish them quickly. But I didn't chug my drink at all, I just took a sip. I looked over at Kendall who just finished. I felt really tired and leaned against his shoulder which he didn't seem to mind.

He even put his arm around me pulling me closer. "Thanks Kendall today was really amazing." I mumbled. "Well there be a lot more of these days. That's if we get a break from rehearsal." I back away a little so I could get a better look at him. "What do you mean, by that?" I asked. "Well I'm not really supposed to tell you, but you made it." He said a huge smile on his face.

"Really?" I asked attacking him in a hug. "Do the others know? I asked after we pulled away take a look for yourself." My eyes followed to where his fingers were pointing. Mandi had just talked Logan, ending up giving him a kiss on the cheek. Then Scar was kissing Carlos. A little gross, but still sweet. And Harley wasn't even looking at James, but you could tell she was happy.

"Oh man." I heard Kendall mumble. "What?" I asked as I looked over at his shoulder, it was his phone and it said it was 11:00. "Just have a early rehearsal tomorrow, which you have to go to." He said sliding off the hood of the car. I followed after him trying my hardest not to complain. We finally got to the hotel at 12:07. We said our goodbyes before we went to our rooms.

I quickly changed and jumped on my bed before sleep took over me. But as I feel asleep I had two things on my head. The almost kisses I had with Kendall and why the heck does the word fanfiction mean so much to me?

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Ok there you go. It was updated pretty quickly, and it was pretty long. This is the longest chapter I have written an there's no song lyrics which is a bonus. A song usually is like half of my chapters but not this time. The whole thing with her and Johnny Depp is suppose to show the difference between her real crush Kendall and celebrity crush Johnny.

Relationship Status:
And yes Scar and Carlos are together same with Mandi and Logan.I will explain how it happened in the next chapter.
Though Harley, James, Connor, and Kendall still remain single. Though it's obvious they like each other.

Also, I would like your thoughts. More bonding between characters, fights, I did horrible on this, I did well on this. And please just review I only had one review for the last three chapters so I want to know if I should continue or just end it.

Now for the pictures of stuff.

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