Chapter #5

Cheers to the club and tears to the tournament of confusion

"Hey Kuwabara can I talk to you", I asked. "Sure, why", he said. "Look, Kuwabara, you are Yusuke's best friend. Tell him to get with Amy before it is too late", I said. "What do you mean Bell", he asked. "Look Kuwabara, be a friend, and don't tell him we ever talked please just talk to him for me", I said. "Whatever you say, Bell", he said then walked off. "Hey Botan, can we talk please", I asked. "Sure, you know as your friend, you can talk to me anytime you want", she said. "Look, tell Kurama to go out with Micella, okay? I can't explain right now, but just please tell him that, and don't tell him I told you to", I said. "Okay, I'll do as you say Bell", she said. Then I walked into my room and laid down on my bed and fell asleep.

(With Yusuke and Kuwabara)

"Yusuke, look, you should totally go out with Amy", Kuwabara said to his best friend and rival. "Why, I like Bell, not her sister Amy? I like Bell and I will keep it that way", Yusuke said. "Look Bell and Amy almost look the same. What is your favorite element", Kuwabara asked. "Water, why", Yusuke said. "Amy is the goddess, and princess of water", Kuwabara. "How you know so much about Amy, Kuwabara. Even if she is, Isabella would still be the better choice because she is the only one who can use all the elements", Yusuke asked. "I know because I went to talk to Koemma, and don't be so shallow. Give Amy a chance. She is a sweet girl, and she is water major. Don't forget that", Kuwabara said. "I am not changing my mind", Yusuke said. "Whatever, I tried", Kuwabara said walking off without explaining.

(With Kurama and Botan)

"Hey Kurama, I think you should go out with Micella. She is your type of girl", Botan said in her usual happy peppy voice. "What on earth do you mean? I like Bell, why would I want to go out with her sister", Kurama asked. "Because she is nice and smart. She is also the goddess and princess of earth, and can help you with your plants", she said. "Thanks Botan, for the information, but I have reasons as to why I like Bell. She is a fighter to the end. Plus she has the element of Earth within her as well. I like Bell, and that is final," Kurama said looking at her as if to say 'just drop it'. "Ugh your hopeless", Botan said while walking out.

(With me)

"Bell, let's go to the dance club down the street", Amy said." Why", I said back to her. "Well, I was thinking about the boys and all the girls getting together, and having a good time just dancing", Amy said with a smile. She was wearing a black halter that was a little loose but not much and baggy black pants with some black tennis shoes. Micella came around the corner with a red outfit just like Amy's outfit. "Okay, I'll go just this once", I said and walked towards my room to get dressed.

"What should I wear", I asked myself looking in my closet. I found a tight black halter that had lime green streaks through it, and showed a little much, but not too much. I also had matching tight leather pants. I found some high heeled sandals they were black also. Then I brushed my hair and made it straight and changed clothes and walked downstairs. Everybody turned their heads and all the boys stared. "Way to go, Bell, you stole their attention", Amy said glaring at me. Micella was too but not as deadly as Amy's was. "Sorry", I said sadly. Amy softened at my expression as did Micella. "Bell, what is wrong", Amy asked. "Nothing, I am staying here you guys go ahead", I said running back upstairs crying silently so no one could hear me.

I walked in my room laid down on my bed, and just let the tears come as they wanted to. "I have gotten myself in a tournament of confusion", I said still crying so it was a little shaky. "Bell, can I come in, it is Kurama", a voice said from the door. "Just go away, I don't know what you want, but just go away, and leave me alone. Ever since I got here, I was hoping this would not happen, and as I now see it did", I said crying all through it. "You have to learn to let someone in, so why not me", He asked pleadingly. "You would never understand a girl like me! All of you think you get it, you think my life is perfect, and well if you think that, you all are fooled by the fake smile I wear to keep you from worrying. Did you ever stop to wonder why I am the Goddess of darkness? I have nothing but my sisters, and I don't need anything else! So why don't you leave me alone", I asked crying. The door opened and Yusuke, Kurama, and Hiei poured in and sat on my bed surrounding me.

"We will not force you to be with any of us, and we did not know that we were all crushing on the same Sachi sister. However, that does not give you the right to be cold to us", Yusuke said. "If you think I'm being cold, then maybe you all should leave. Get the fuck out of my room. None of you understand me, except maybe Hiei. He would have been my choice anyways", I said with fresh tears streaming down my face. "Why in the world would you choose him? He is incredibly cold and distant. Why him? Why does it have to be….", Yusuke was shut up by Kurama putting his hand on his shoulder. "Let's just go, Yusuke. She doesn't want us here, and she has made that very clear", Kurama said. "Kurama wait", I said. "What Bell, aren't you happy now? Isn't this what you wanted? You just wanted yourself to be happy, that is all you ever cared about. Your selfish and inconsiderate to others feelings. I really liked you! Yusuke really liked you, and you turned us both down because you wanted to be with Hiei because you thought that we could not understand you. Well guess what? We probably understand you more than you think", Kurama said harshly and walking out. Yusuke followed Kurama out, and left me and Hiei there alone. "What have I done? What did I do wrong? I just wanted everything to be okay", I said getting up and walking over to the window.

"I guess now is not the time to tell you that we are entering a tournament, and your presence is requested, Hiei said walking over to me putting his hand on my shoulder. "No it's not. I am not requested there because I'm leaving. I am not coming back, and I will make sure you cannot follow me. I am going to swipe everybody's memory clean, and I am going to turn myself over to the spiritual jail", I said storming past him. "Turn yourself in for what? Bell, what could you have possibly done to go to jail", Hiei asked. "I am guilty of being mentally incapable of making my own damned decisions", I said walking out. Hiei stormed behind me. "Bell, you can't do this I won't let you, he said. He grabbed my hand and pulled me against his chest. I am not letting you walk away from me. Not again. I know how you felt when you lost Naomi, but she is better off where she is. You have to move on, and right now, I need you in my life. I am not letting go this time", Hiei said. "How do you know Naomi? Only one person knows about my history with her, and that person is Koemma. How do you know that name, and what do you mean this time", I asked him. "I looked through your files. I needed to know more about you so I looked through your files. I found out some pretty shocking facts about you. About this time, don't worry about that part", Hiei said. I pulled away from him and took off. I sent a memory beam back and it swiped everybody's memory except Koemma's. Koemma would still remember me at least.

I went back to my original apartment and thought about all the lost love I had just cost myself and my sisters. The only boy on my mind right now didn't even remember me. I guess I really am better off alone, I thought to myself. Just then I heard a loud knock at my door. I picked up my katana just as I usually would and went to answer it. "Bell, what happened? I asked Yusuke about you, and he doesn't remember you. No one remembers you. No one except me. Why is that", Koemma asked me carefully although he knew very well what I had done. "I swiped their memories clean of me. They are better off not knowing who I am, and what I am", I said looking at him pleadingly. "I don't understand, Bell, what happened to make you leave. I have never heard of you doing something so reckless in all my years of knowing you", he asked silently. "They all fell for me except for Kuwabara. I had to get away I hate fighting and you and I both know what happens when I see fighting and I am the cause of it. I had a dream before I woke up and found them outside about to kill each other. I woke up to my very own nightmare with one exception. I did not kill myself. I found a better way to deal with the pain…", I said trailing off. "Bell, what else did you do besides swipe their memories", he asked with horror evident in his eyes.