Ch. 8 I want my daughter back, why am I in your bed, and THE TRUTH, AGAIN?

Instantly I was surrounded by warm, loving arms, and I started calming down little by little. I opened my eyes, and there he was. He looked at me with deep crimson eyes full of question. "What happened, and why are you out here by yourself", he asked looking at me. "Hiei, I can't tell you that, but I need…", I started but I passed out before I could finish. He caught me, picked me up, and started running towards Koemma's mansion. It took him five minutes to run nine hundred yards. I was still out, and so when he got there he laid me on the couch and walked away knowing that someone would be in there asking questions if we stayed. Then he picked me back up and was carrying me upstairs to his room. He laid me on his bed and shut the door. I was lying on my back and he stretched out beside me on his stomach. Eventually, while waiting for me to wake up, he fell asleep. I somehow managed to get under his comforter, and curl up in a ball next to him. I am still not sure how all this happened, but apparently he got cold too, and soon followed.

Hiei, being a fire- based demon, should not get cold, but he was sure enough cuddling closer to me. However, when he got too close, I woke up. I took one look at his sleeping face, and noticed I couldn't move. He had somehow wrapped an arm around my stomach, and when I noticed it, he woke up. "Um, Hiei, I can't move", I said. He looked down, and turned a light shade of pink. He then released me. I looked at him and then the reality of it all hit me. "What am I doing in your bed", I asked him. "I was going to lay you down on the couch, but I wanted to make sure you would be okay. So, I put you beside me on my bed", Hiei said. "I'm fine, just a little shocked", I said. "Why are you shocked", he asked. "Why did you want to make sure I was okay? Why do you even care", I asked him. "I wanted to talk to you about why you were out there alone in the woods all by yourself", he asked.

"I saw my dad, and we talked about Naomi", I said. He just looked at me like I was crazy. "Yeah, I know, my dad is dead. However, you know I can see the dead", I said. "I just don't understand. How did you talk to him", he asked "Well apparently, not only can I see the dead, but I can also talk to them. I have something to tell you", I said. "What", he asked back. "Naomi may still be alive", I said. "Who exactly is Naomi? All I know is that she is really important to you, and that her name is your file", he asked. "She was, or is, my daughter", I said turning away from him. No one knows about what happened between me and Sensui, and that is the way I would like to keep it. This, however, shocked Hiei because I could feel him starring at me from behind. I started having chills run up and down my spine and started to get up and leave. I got up and finally realized that he would never understand. He didn't even try to stop me as I walked out the door. I went out of his room, and went to my own room and lay down.

About an hour later I had cried myself to sleep. I wondered why he couldn't understand the fact that the baby that I had had was not supposed to be born. I knew that maybe I should have explained the fact that it was rape, but at this point I did not care. He said he loved me. He said he respected me. However the question was: did he mean it? I knew deep down that no one could ever love me, but I always hoped that someone would. Now I knew that hopes are nothing but a mere illusion to what can never be.

About five hours later I woke up and it was six o'clock in the morning. I started cooking bacon and sausage omelets. I made enough for everyone to have two except for me. I never eat hardly anything in the mornings anyways. I heard footsteps coming down the stairs, and I instantly knew it wasn't Hiei. It was almost as if I had memorized his footsteps completely. Kurama eventually popped his head around the corner. "Good morning", he said with a smile. "Morning, I trust you slept well", I said with a blank expression. "Yes, I did, but how did you get home the last I seen you were going towards the woods and no one could stop you", Kurama asked. "Yeah, Hiei kind of went and got me", I said. "Oh, wow, I didn't know you two were like that", Kurama said with a depressed expression. "We're not. I have an announcement to make and I would like everybody to be included. This includes: Hiei, Botan, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Kayko, Yukina, Koemma, Ayame, my sisters, and you of course", I said. "Can I get a preview briefing", he asked. "No it's important for everyone to be present and accounted for when I make this announcement. It's rather big, and I'm pretty sure that once I make it, that no one will want me here anymore", I said. "How can anything be that bad that we would want to kick out one of our closest friends", he asked. "You really won't understand if I explained it to you individually", I said.

Eventually, everybody had woken up, and ate breakfast. I walked in and looked at everybody took a deep breath and begun to speak. "There is something you all should know. Something I have hidden from everyone that I really should not have been so selfish about keeping from you all. I have a daughter, her name is Naomi. She is the result of Sensui raping me. At the age of one she went missing and I told myself she was dead. This however, may not be the case. She may still be out there, and if she takes after her father, she may destroy everything. If she takes after me, then we have to worry about humans knowing about demons. I have kept this from you all out of embarrassment due to the fact that I was weak enough to let this happen. If she was to take after her father, well, then she must be stopped at all costs. I didn't exactly know how to tell you all this before, but I want my daughter back. I want her alive no matter how evil she is. I know I can change her for the better. If you will please give me the chance to try to work with her when I find her, I would be like mega grateful", I said looking at everybody with pleading eyes. Everyone was quiet some of them couldn't even make eye contact with me. I started to get really upset and finally broke down and cried. "I thought you were all my friends, people I could count on. Now I see the truth is all so clear. You all are a bunch of self-righteous cowards. You cannot accept the fact that my daughter, my own flesh and blood, could be evil. Did you even hear about the raping me part? No, you chose to overlook that and look at me as if I am some kind of apocalypse-bringer", I said through tears.

Kurama finally spoke. "It is not that we think that. We are mainly concerned for your safety if the child was to ever revolt against you. You have given us much to process in a short amount of time. What if we lose you in the process of trying to save her", he asked. "Anything is worth the risk if it means saving my daughter's life. I would give anything, no everything, to insure her safety and know that she is not apocalyptic as what everyone may think. She is just a little girl, nothing more, nothing less", I said calmly. "We understand, trust me, but is this really worth losing your life over", Yusuke asked. "She is only four, she has not even lived her life yet, and she deserves to. She deserves to have the life I never had. A life filled with family, love, and happiness. I never got that, but she will. I just need to find her so I can make her life a happy one. I will do this, even if it means giving up my own life", I said defiantly. Everyone just kind of stared at me for a while. I guess they had no idea what to say, not that I blame them. I had just given them everything they needed to absolutely hate me. I walked out, and just let them bake in their silence.

I kept walking on towards my room. I knew that they would never understand what I was going through. I laid down on the bed, and curled up in a little ball. I eventually passed out. I knew it was during the day, but at this point I didn't really care. I knew that I needed to have some time alone away from everybody. No one understood that I would give my life to get her with her family. I knew that in order to get her back safely I would more than likely lose my life in the process. I haven't had a good life anyways, but at least I would end it on a good note. I would end it by trading my life for the one that deserved to live, and I would do it behind everyone else's back. I didn't dream, this wasn't abnormal because I hardly ever do. My mind was blank, and all was calm. I didn't even hear the door open and shut, only the hand running up and down my back in a soothing state. I didn't want to look up and see who it was, nor did I care, but I knew eventually I would have to look up because I was beginning to stir. About five minutes of the hand smoothing up and down my back, I lifted my and discovered who it was. "This is what you couldn't tell me last night isn't it", Hiei said. "I really didn't know how to tell you", I said calmly. "I'm just glad I finally understand now. I thought you had really hooked up with him", Hiei said. "I would never hook up with someone as twisted as that", I said quietly.

I had decided that I had heard enough and walked out of the room. I kept walking along the hallways and realized there was an eerie feeling about them. Something was up, and I was pretty sure that I was going to find out as soon as walked into the living room.