Well all I really wanna do is love you

A kind much closer than friends use

But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me

As the feeling inside keeps building

And I will find a way to you if it kills me - If it kills me - by Jason Mraz

A/N: and you were right Finn is the dad :D I absolutely love Finn and Tanc Sade who played him on the show is perfect and I can't get enough of his accent...anyhooo on we go with the story

It's Thursday night and I am meant to have dinner with Collin, Steph and Finn.

Finn...my one and only love, the father of my children. I haven't loved another guy since he broke up with me. I know that Steph wants me to talk to him and tell him about the twins but I just can't. He hurt me so much 4 years ago when he broke up with me, I can't do it and hopefully Steph will understand that. I took my phone out to text her:

"Hey Steph, I know that I am meant to come to dinner but I just can't. I can't be in the same room as him and pretend that he didn't rip my heart out. I won't keep the twins from him any longer since he is moving back so if you can try and bring him to the party on Saturday. I would rather talk to him in an environment where I feel comfortable. Please tell Collin I'm sorry xx"

Steph's POV

I was getting ready to bring Finn his drink when my phone alerted me of a text, it was from Rory. I handed finn his drink and turned my attention back to the text I received from Rory.

As I read it I frowned and showed Collin it before quickly replying telling her that I understand.

Collin and Finn were talking about work when I sat down "So Finn, what made you move back to Hartford? I thought you liked the travelling?". Finn gave me one of his bright smiles "Well love, you are right. I did love travelling and opening more hotels and learning about the different cultures at the same time but I think it's time to settle down in one place. I mean you two are getting married in 4 months and even Logan has settled down. I want that too with someone. I always thought it would happen with Rory but obviously it wasn't meant to be". Collin and I looked at each other and he nodded his head at me before I spoke "Finn there is something you should know. I met Rory last week in Boston and I spend last weekend at her house in New York. There are important things well more like reasons that she has to talk to you about. 4 years ago after her graduation she tried getting in touch with you through us but of course we didn't tell her but trust me we really should have. So please please do me this favour Finn and come to stars hollow with us on Saturday for the party".

I looked over at Finn who just sat there speechless. He looked at us and just said three words "What's for dinner" and with that the conversation was dropped. I just really hope he will come with us.

Finn's POV

Rory...the only women I have ever loved. I haven't thought of her in 4 years ever since she cheated on me.

Well that's a lie. Every time I saw a young couple holding hands or holding a baby, I thought it would have been us. I wanted to marry her so badly and have an army of children with her. Well not an army literally but at least 3. I wonder what she has been doing with herself these years. I might go with Collin and Steph on Saturday just to see what she wants from me. "Fine, I'll come with you to that party to see what she wants". I looked up and saw both of them give a huge sigh of relieve. I really hoped I made the right decision.

No ones POV

It was late Friday night and Rory, Lorelai and various Stars Hollows residents were preparing the town square for the party tomorrow whilst Luke was at the house looking after the twins who were sleeping.

Rory who was trying to tie a knot to make this banner stay in place looked over to her mum "mum there is something I have to tell you" Lorelai looked up and waited for Rory to continue " last week when we were in Boston visiting dad. I ran into Steph, well technically it was Riley but still. That weekend she came to stay at my house whilst you had the twins. We talked about everything that happened these past 4 years and I was meant to have dinner with her, Collin and Finn yesterday but I couldn't. So I told Steph to try and bring Finn to the party tomorrow so I can tell him about Riley and Amelia". Rory looked up to her mum who was speechless.

"Well babe, I always knew the time would come eventually and although you have done a great job raising them so far they do need their dad in their lives" Lorelai walked over and pulled her into a hug "It will be ok babe, I promise you. Now lets go to bed cause we both know that you will be woken up by two 3 year olds jumping on your bed at 6am". Rory laughed at her mum because she was right. As they had finished preparing everything they could, they walked back to the crap shack to get some sleep before the madness begins tomorrow.

And of course Lorelai had been right. It was 6am when Rory heard her door open and two sets of feet walking over to the bed before climbing on and jumping up and down "mummy mummy wake up. It's our birthday. Wake up mummy" Riley and Amelia were shouting. Rory opened her eyes slowly and started smiling "guys stop shouting or you will wake the whole house up. Now come sit down give me a big hug. Happy birthday you two. I love you so much" she kissed the top of their heads as they sat down next to her...one on each side "we love you too mummy. Amelia looked up to her mum with a bright smile which Rory couldn't help but give her back "now how about we watch finding memo before grandma comes in later with breakfast before the party starts" she looked at her children and took her laptop and started the movie. She couldn't believe how lucky she got with them. She just hoped that if Finn comes later that he will want to be a part of their lives because Amelia had started asking recently where their daddy was and why he wasn't here.

The party was in full swing and the twins were enjoying themselves. Rory was walking towards the petting zoo with them when she saw a black SUV arriving. Having a feeling that it was Collin, Steph and hopefully Finn arriving she asked her mum to take them. She wanted to talk to Finn before introducing Riley and Amelia to him.

Steph and Collin got out of the car and Steph immediately started running over to Rory and hugging "RORY!". Rory turned around before the blonde nearly made them fall over "hey Steph I'm so glad you guys came. Is...is Finn here too?". She looked up into the blondes eyes who saw that Rory was scared "yes he is here Rory but we didn't tell him why". Rory slowly started untangling herself and walked over to the car where the guy who has been haunting her dreams for the past 4 years...Finn

He still looked as gorgeous as the day he left me if not better. His shirt was tight over his stomach and his eyes were still a mesmerising emerald green. As she came to a stop in front of him she took a deep breath before speaking but he interrupted her "Why Rory? Why did you have to cheat on me and break my heart. I wanted to marry you. God I wanted to marry you so badly and have children with you" he looked over to her and saw her wince. Rory looked over to the petting zoo where Lorelai was staring at them whilst holding the twins hands before turning back to him "can we go somewhere else to talk and not here please". She didn't wait for his answer and just started walking towards the diner. She knew that he would follow her.

As she sat on the couch she heard the door to the apartment close "now can you please enlighten to me as to why Steph was begging me to come her today?". He sounded so cold and detached but Rory knew she deserved it. "I never cheated on you Finn. God I loved you too much to ever think of cheating on you. The guy you saw walking out of my dorm that day was Jess, my ex boyfriend" she looked over to Finn who looks like he was about to interrupt her but ignored him "Jess is also Luke's nephew. Yes we dated when we i was in high school but before anything could really happen he left me and I never saw him again until that day. He stopped by to apologise for leaving me the way he did. And to tell me that he wrote a book about me. How bad he felt about leaving me but by doing that he met his now wife Emma who is currently having their second child. I was going to tell you this but you never gave me the chance to tell you any of this before you broke up with me finn. Graduation should have been the best time of my life but without you it felt rather dull. I managed to get a job as a fact checker at the sundowner news in New York straight after graduation. But 3 months later my whole life changed...I found out that I was pregnant with twins. Your twins Finn...god the first thing I tried to do was get in touch with you to let you know but your number was disconnected and then I tried Collin and Steph but thy wouldn't help me either. The only thing they told me was that you left for Asia a week after we broke up. On March 11th 2005 I gave birth to our twins ...Riley Richard and Lorelai Amelia...yes I have Riley your name and Amelia your mothers name so that they would at least have a small something from you. And as you might have guessed today is their third birthday" by now Rory couldn't stop the tears running down her face as much as she tried and suddenly something happened which she had dreamed about for so long.

Finn stared at her and as Rory finished her speech he saw that she was crying. He cupped her face in one hand and wiped the tears away and then pulled her into a hug before whispering in her ear "I am so sorry Rory".

A/N: so this is it for chapter 3. This is my longest by far but hopefully you like it. Please leave reviews I am begging you :)