A/N : Chapter 8~

I'm not good at explaining stuff, so sorry about this chap. I don't have any idea how they will explain their past and just wrote everything that popped out in my my mind. I'm no good at explaining stories too.. I'm more good at art than writing, though I admit my drawings are bad. And thanks for everyone that had took their precious time to take a look at this fic.

Anyway, enjoy. Hope you like it TT_TT

After the incident they went to the HQ immediately.

"How's your automail, Ed?" Allen asked, looking at Ed's automail. Ed was seated at the couch, his black jacket at his side. He is examinating his automail. Poking it with his flesh hand around. Seeing him doing it make Allen wanted to start poking it too. (A/N: one of my bad habit DX)

When the exorcists first saw Ed's right arm, their reaction is all different. Kanda as being Kanda just glanced at it. He didn't take time to look at it properly or even asked Ed how he get it. Lavi being the bookman apprentice and an urge to record it has that delighted face when he saw it. He jump around asking him how it work and all that stuff. Ed, annoyed at his antics growled and told him to ask Winry about it.

Allen, however has a blank look on his face. When Ed and Al saw his face, they can't identified his emotion and it made them kind of uncomfortable. He is used to curious stare or horrified looks from the people who saw his arm or leg but never did he saw a blank look toward him when someone looked at his automail.

"There's some to repair, Winry will do it for me." Ed said, unnerved by Allen's stare. Al sighed. "Brother, what will Winry say to you? You just broke her automail a while ago."

Ed paled slightly, imaginating what will Winry to him. "Can't do anything about it. If I don't tell her, she can't repair it and I can't do my job." Ed replied, face becoming paler. Sweats rolled down his face. He rolled up his left pants and began examine his automail.

Allen can't take it anymore, he crouched down on one knee and start poking Ed's automail. Everyone stare at Allen's strange behavior. It's strange to find the usually polite teenager to start poking someone prosthetic limbs.

"Uhh... Allen?" Ed asked. He swear he saw stars twinkling around Allen's face. His eyes were wide, looking much like a little child who just found a new toy to play with.

"Allen!" Ed said louder, trying to get Allen's attention to him. Allen head shot up and look at Ed in the eyes. "Sorry!" Allen shot up so quick, almost slamming his head into Ed's face.

Allen blushed. "Sorry, didn't mean to do it." he mumbled.

Lavi whined. "Ehhh... Allen get to poke it, but I'm not." he pouted.

Kanda growled. "Stop doing it stupid rabbit. It's disgusting." he glared.

"Ehhh..." Lavi whined again.

"Do that again and I'll make sure you'll lose another eye." Kanda threaten.

"You mean, you make him lose his right eye?" Al asked, growing wary.

"Of course I'm not, armor boy!" Kanda snapped. Al flinched, not happy with that comment.

Allen saw Al flinched and narrowed his eyes at Kanda. "That's not so nice, Kanda. It's not like he wants to wear it." he said, not realizing it made the older Elric flinched and lowered his head.

"Che." Kanda didn't feel like argue with anyone right now, especially with the beansprout. He'll let it pass now.

Allen sighed and glanced at Ed. Ed had his head lowered. His bangs shadowing his eyes. "Ed? What's wrong?"

Ed looked up. "Nothing. Mustang, we're be going now. We'll report again tomorrow."

Colonel Mustang turned toward Ed, his onyx eyes bore into Ed. "Right then, be sure to be here on time." Roy said, dismissing them.

Ed sighed, he rolled down his pants and put on his black jacket. "Come on, I've got some lecture to get when we got back." Al laughed lightly.

On the street shined by the evening light five figure walk through it. The tallest of them and a golden haired boy walked in the front and three teenagers with strange feature walk behind them. The golden haired boy and the man in the armor looked to be in a serious conversation.

"Al.." the golden haired boy finally said.

The armor beside him hummed, answering him. "Al, I have decided. I will tell Allen everything when we got back." Ed said.

Al looked at his older brother. His brother's golden eyes burned with fire, reflecting the warm light from the sun. "Why?" Al asked.

"He.. He's really concerned about us. When we were attacked by Scar and akuma, he came and save us. And.." Ed trailed off.

"And?" Al tilted his head. "And I think he's hiding something from us too. That's why. I want to know everything about what happened to him. He's hiding something, just like us and I got a feeling it's something as bad as our's." Ed said, determined.

Al nodded. "You're right. I feel it too. Something is off about him, it was like, he is still him but not him at all."

Ed looked down, his eyes covered by his hair but Al can see a smirk on his face. "Yeah.. I wonder what had happened to him."

Al looked at his older brother, not saying anything.

"Ed? Al? What's wrong?" Ed jumped. He looked back and saw Allen. It seems like he had cut off his conversation with his fellow exorcists when he saw Ed bowed his head. Lavi and Kanda observed them from behind Allen.

"Nah.. It's nothing." Ed smiled nervously. "Oh, and I want to talk to you about something later okay?" Ed said. He swear he saw Lavi's ear perked up and Kanda's eyes narrowed at him when he said that.

"Something? About what? Can't you say it now?" Lavi said, eager to find out what the golden haired boy want to talk about.

"No." Ed said. "I just want to talk to Allen." he stated.

Lavi opened his mouth to talk but close it again. He will not stuck his nose into other people's business when it doesn't concern being bookman. After all, he knew other people have some secret they don't want other people to know. He shrugged. "Well..." he purposely dragged the word. "If you don't want to, it's all right for me. But let me tell you something." he stuck out one of his finger in front of Ed's face. "When I want to know something, I'll always know it 'cause I am just so great."

Ed rolled his eyes and slapped Lavi's hand away from his face. "Yeah, yeah. Come on Al." and the two brothers walked toward the hotel.

The three exorcists looked at Ed and Al for a moment and Lavi turned toward Allen.

"Any idea what he want to talk about?" he asked.

Allen shook his head. "But I think it's really important. I can feel something different about them from the last time I'm with them. Maybe it has some connection with Al doesn't have a body and Ed having automail limbs." he said, his silver eyes gazing at where the brothers stood before.

"Those brats, they're hiding something from us." Kanda growled.

"Come on, the faster we got back, the faster we'll know." Allen said.

Winry threw another wrench toward Ed. It hit him square on his head. "Ghh.." Ed groaned.

"How many times do I have to repair you automail? I just repair it moments ago." Winry fummed.

Ed let out a nervous laugh. "Sorry 'bout that."

"Don't say sorry! You're lucky I haven't got home yet. I'll be going back to Resembool tomorrow." Winry said as he examine Ed's automail.

"Sorry." Ed muttered, rubbing his head where Winry threw her wrench at.

Winry sighed and stood up. "It's done. You better not broken it again." she warned.

Ed stood up and flexed his automail limbs. "Thanks Winry."

Winry sighed again." You're not listening are you." she said. She stretched and yawned. "I'll go to sleep now. Have a train to catch up tomorrow morning." she walked toward her room, getting ready for sleep.

When Ed just get dressed, Allen poked his head into the room. "Ed? You're done already?"

"Yup." Ed answered while clapsing his belt.

Allen walked in the room and closed the door. "What do you want to talk about?" Allen asked as he took a seat in front of Ed and Al.

Ed gulped. "I.. do you want to know what happened to mom?"

Allen's eyes widened when he heard Ed's words and nodded his head slowly.

"Well.. where to start. After.. you got separated from us, mom got sick." Ed said slowly. Allen's eyes widened again. "What's her illness? Is she okay now?" Allen asked, worried.

Ed shook his head and smiled sadly at Allen, his golden eyes full of sorrow. Allen realized what that smile mean and lowered his head. "So.. she's not here anymore?" Allen asked, sounded much like a statement than a question.

"She died. It seems like she has hid her illness long time ago." Allen looked up. "And? What happened? What about both of you?"

Ed gulped again. "We.. we tried to bring mom back to life using alchemy and that's how we end up like this." he said without looking at Allen. His hands clenched tightly at his side. Allen bit his lips, he clenched his left hand. He can't take it anymore. He stood up and stand in front of Ed. Ed and Al looked at Allen. Empty glowing red orbs, golden and silver eyes met. They stare at each other for a moment when suddenly Allen smiled. Ed and Al never expected that reaction. Whenever they told someone their past, either that person looked at them in pity and fright or hugged them, like their teacher.

Allen open his mouth, his smile still lingering on his lips. "Everyone has sorrow in their heart. Either they're something small or big like yours. And I, myself has one." Ed and Al never expected that too. People always keep quiet, say sorry to them, say that everyone will do that too if someone they love gone or even taunt them. Calling them names and saying that they had tried to go in the god's territory, everything, but never this.

Al looked at Allen. "So you do hid something from us too, huh?" Allen looked at him and nodded, his smile still plastered on his face. "Yes."

"Why don't you tell us? We had already tell you our's, now it's yours. Equivalent exchange, right?" Ed said, now a smirk on his face though his eyes still showing a slight sorrow in it.

Allen smiled and sat down again. He began speaking. "Well, after we got separated, I was taken by the men to some kind of orphanage."

"Orphanage? Why did they took you there?" Ed asked, confused.

Allen shrugged. "Dunno 'bout that, but after some time I manage to get away and found my way into a circus."

"Circus? You mean, you actually work in a circus once?" this time, Al is the one who asked.

Allen nodded. "Yes, there I was called Red, because of my deformed red arm. I never bother to tell them my name. Then one day I met this dog named Allen."

Ed cough, trying to hid his small laughter. "Allen? He has the same name as yours."

Allen smiled. "I know. He's the only one who wants to play with me. Everyone in the circus always tried to get away from me."

"Ohh.." Ed said, don't know what to say.

"And one day, he died." Allen said but cut off again.

"What? Why?" Al said.

"I don't really know, but I think he got beaten up by this clown named Cosimo (A/N : name? Is it right? I don't remember)."

"Cruel." Al muttered.

Allen laughed. "Yes, I frequently got beaten up by him too." At that Ed growled, he didn't like this at all. If he got to met this clown, he's gonna beat him up, real hard. "But, then I met Mana." at that a gentle smile crept up his face. Ed and Al glanced at each other, wanting to know about this 'Mana' more.

"He's the owner of Allen and a new clown at the circus. At first, I don't really like him but he showered me with so much love. He even adopt me as his foster son. I travel with him for a while."

"That's great." Al piped up.

Allen smiled. "Yes, I really love those moments. But.. he died. He tried to shield me from a carriage and died."

"..." Ed and Al didn't say anything.

"And.. when I didn't know what to do, I met the Millenium Earl."

"You don't.." Ed said.

"Yes I am. I trust him and bring Mana back. Mana tried to kill me but then my innocence active and killed him." Allen clutched his left hand with his right hand. "Before I killed him, he gave me this curse and my hair turned white." he touch his curse. "And after that, I met my master and become an exorcist." Allen finished his story.

"..." There's a silent for a while. After a while, Ed stood up. "I'm sleepy, gotta go to sleep now."

Allen stood up too. "Yes. Oh, and Ed? Al?" Ed and Al looked at Allen.

"Thanks.. " Allen said and left the room. He was glad they didn't react like what normal people would do. They share the same sorrow, of losing someone they lose and killing it when they tried to called them back.

"That would be my line." Ed said and went to his room. If Al had a body now, he would be smiling now.

Allen walked out the room and close it. When he glanced to the side, he saw Lavi and Kanda. Lavi was grinning from ear to ear at him and Kanda leaning againts the wall. His eyes are closed and arms crossed over his chest.

"So, you hear all of it?" Allen asked, sounded more like a statement.

If possible, Lavi's grin widened and ran toward his room. Kanda pushed of his back from the wall and walked toward his room. Allen looked at his back for a moment and rubbed the back of his head.

He yawned. "Well, gotta go to sleep now. Good night." he walked toward his room. "Oh, and if both of you want to eavesdrop, better luck next time." he said loud enough for Kanda and Lavi to hear. He heard a thump from Lavi's room and smirk.

In the dark, a figure sat on the floor. Her back againts her room's door. Her blond hair covering her face. Tears fall down her face.

"Idiots... Three of them are just the same." she hugged her knees.

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