Chapter 18

I have been at my new job for a month and things seem to be going great. Happy, Koz and I are in a good place and things have been good with Juice. Walking into the house after work, Juice is sitting on the couch with a beer. I walk over and kiss him softly and say "Hey baby." He smiles and says "Hey babe. How was work?" he asked. "Good." I told him. I sit beside him and he takes my hand and looks down at my fingers. "What's up?" I asked. "We have to leave in the morning on a run." he tells me. "How long?" I asked. "We'll be gone a week. It's gonna be Clay, Jax, me and a few others. Happy will be with us but Koz is going to stay here." he says. "Okay. But why do I get the feeling something else is going on?" I asked. "I just worry about you being here with Koz. I know he still has feelings for you." he tells me. "Juice, I'm with you. He's happy for us but if it will make you feel better, I'll keep my distance until you get home. I'll be busy working anyway." I tell him. "Thank you baby." he tells me before kissing me. "I trust you but I just worry." he says. "I know baby. It's good." I tell him.

The next morning, we are at the clubhouse to say goodbye to the guys. Standing at Juice's bike, I kiss him softly and say "Be careful. Call me when you can." He kisses me again and says "I will Princess. I love you." Smiling I say "I love you too." I back away and the guys head out of the lot and onto the road. I say my goodbye to Gemma and head to work. Once work is done, I head home to an empty house and wait on Juice to call. It's almost midnight when my phone rings. "Hey." I say. "Hey baby. We made it. How was your day?" he asked. "Good. Got a lot done. How was the ride?" I asked. "Tiring. Think I'm gonna head to bed. We have a long day tomorrow so it might be this time tomorrow before I get to call." he tells me. "That's fine. Just let me know you're okay." I tell him. We say our goodnights and I love yous and I drift off to sleep.

It's been a long week and the guys are due home today. I took the day off to be here to greet the guys and to see my man. I am standing with Gemma when we hear the roar of the bikes coming down the road. We see them pull in and I see Juice getting off his bike. I walk up to him and kiss him before pulling him into a hug. He doesn't hug me back as tight as he normally does but maybe he's just tired.

That evening, we are home and Juice goes right to the shower. I go to get in behind him and he gets out, leaving me there alone. Getting out of the shower, I see him in the bedroom, getting into bed. "Hey, talk to me." I say. "Just tired." he says. "Yeah, okay." I say. I get into bed and curl up behind him and he pulls away from me. I sit up. "You're not just tired. Why are you pushing me away?" I asked. "I just want to go to sleep." he says. I get up and get a blanket and my pillow and go to the couch, leaving him in bed alone.

Waking up the next morning, I head out to work without a word to Juice. Once my work day is done, I drive around for a while to clear my head. I'm sitting at the bluffs that Juice showed me when my phone rings. "Where are you?" I hear Happy on the other end. "Out. What do you want?" I asked. "What's going on? Juice is crashed in the dorm and no one has heard from you." he asked. "Don't worry about it." I tell him before hanging up. I am still sitting there when the sun comes up and my phone has blown up all night long but none of them are Juice.

I keep a change of clothes in my car so I change and head to work. Sitting in my office, my assistant come to my door. "There's a Kozik here to see you." she says. "Send him in." I say. He walks in the door and closes it. Sitting in the chair across from me he asks "Where did you go?" Sighing, I say "I was at the cliffs all night." He look at me and asks "Why didn't you go home?" Laughing I ask "Needed time to think. Anything else you need because I have work to do?" I asked. He shakes his head and walks out.

I leave work and head home. Juice isn't there so I walk in and grab a bottled water out of the fridge. A little later he walks in. "Where did you go last night?" he asked, still not looking at me. "We need to talk." I say without answering his question. "What's going on? Everything was fine before you left but since you came back, you won't look at me and you won't even let me touch you." I say. Sitting down on the couch, he puts his head in his hands. I sit next to him thinking it's just stress but he says "I fucked up." I look at him and ask "How?" He raises his head but doesn't look at me and says "I got drunk and hooked up with a sweetbutt." he says. I stand up. "How many times?" I asked. "Almost the whole week." he tells me. I don't say anything. I go to the bedroom and calmly start packing my things. "Where are you going?" he asked. "Doesn't matter." I say in a calm voice.

I carry my bags out to the car and go to get in. "Please don't leave. I need you." he tells me with tears in his eyes. "You need me? This was the same reason that I left Happy and Koz. You know, the same one you asked me to keep my distance from because you were worried but you can just dip your dick in any whore you want and that's fine. Fuck you Juice." I say getting into the car and driving off.

I drive for a few hours and get a motel room. I pay cash so it can't be traced. I buy a burner phone and power off my traceable one. Using the burner, I call my mom. "Hey baby, what's going on?" she asked. "Momma." I say as the tears start to fall. "Baby. What's wrong?" she asked. "I left Juice." I tell her. "What happened?" she asked. "He was on a run all week and the entire time he was hooking up with a sweetbutt but asked me to keep my distance from Koz because he was worried something would happen." I tell her. "Where are you?" she asked. "I'm staying in a motel for a few days. I don't know where I'm headed yet." I tell her. "Okay well just check in." she says. "I will." I say and end the call. I dial one more number.

"Hello?" he asked on the other end. "Hey Uncle Tiggy." I say. "Doll Face where the hell are you? We've been looking all over for you." he says. "I left. I'm not telling anyone where I am but wanted to let you know I'm safe." I tell him. "What phone are you calling from?" He asked. "Burner. Other one is powered off so that I can't be tracked." I tell him. "Fuck. What happened?" he asked. "Apparently Juice didn't want me near Koz while he was gone because he was scared something would happen but couldn't keep his dick to himself the entire week he was on the run." I tell him. "I'll kill him." he seethes. "Don't. It's not worth it. I'm going to take a couple of days and figure out where I'm gonna go." I tell him. "Okay sweetheart. Just check in and let me know you're okay." he says. "I will Tiggy. I love you." I say. "I love you too sweetheart."