Previously
"Don't say that josh…..don't start saying goodbye"
"I have to…owwwwww…I love you and I will always watch over you and even though I'm saying goodbye it's not forever…owww" I feel my eyelids close
"Josh open your eyes….please……I love you too Josh and I need you to open your eyes for me…please…say something…anything" I hear her begging me and so with all the strength left in me I open my eyes to look into hers one last time and whisper the words
"I will always love you"
"Josh?" he does answer or open his eyes. He doesn't even make any movement to show that he's alive. No I'm not going to think like that of course he's alive. I hope. I can hear the ambulance pull up and the paramedics run up to me.
"Excuse me miss?"
"You have to help please he's not answering"
"What's your name?"
"Gabriella"
"What's his?"
"Josh Tyler…please help him"
"Gabriella I'm afraid you're going to have to move"
"Ok...but please be careful he's really hurt"
"We will…just lay his head slowly on this" I lay his head down and slowly get up and let go of him. The paramedics start checking him and talking quietly to each other as if they don't want me to here. Why what are they saying about him
"What's going on is he going to be ok"
"We'll do everything we can but right now we need to get him to the hospital" they get a stretcher and slowly place him on it then in the ambulance. As they are doing this I go over to my mom.
"Mom I'm going to go with him in the ambulance ok"
"Ok sweetie we'll follow behind in the car. Your dad is ringing his parents and telling them to meet us there"
"Ok" as I go to leave my mom pulls back into a hug.
"He's going to be fine you know. He loves you and he'll pull through" I pull away and look at her. She never could lie.
"I'm not so sure" and with that I left and got in the ambulance. I hold his hand as we leave. One of the paramedics is fussing around hooking him up to oxygen and other machines. He looks so helpless.
"You can talk to him you know. He will be able to hear you"
"I don't know what to say to him"
"Talk about anything. I'll be in the front if you need me. We will be there in about 5 minutes"
"Ok thank you" I look at him and stroke his dark gorgeous hair. What am I supposed to say? We've been dating for 3 years but I have no idea what to say. Ok here goes nothing
"Josh it's me Gabriella. The paramedic told me I should talk to you because you can hear me. I can't believe you got hit by a car. And at that moment as well. You sounded like you had something important to say. Do remember the first time you told me you loved me. Well really Chris told the whole school over the P.A system. I remember that so clearly, you were embarrassed that everyone heard but I couldn't care less I was just so happy to hear that you were in love with me. I had wanted to tell you for ages but I just didn't know how. I never thought to announce it although Taylor did threaten to do that but Chris beat her to it. That was one of the best moments of my life. I just want you to know that I'm here for you and I love you so, so much. I'll never let go so don't you."
I can hear her voice but I can't see anything. I don't know if my eyes are open, I don't know where I am or what is happening to me but I know Gabriella's here with me. She always has been.
"…I'll never let go so don't you." I want to let her know that I'm trying. I'm keeping my self awake for her because if I fall asleep I probably won't wake up again. With the last bit of strength left in me I make pitiful attempt to squeeze her hand. I know she felt it because I feel her squeeze back. With out even saying anything that gesture means so much to both of us.
Feeling him squeeze my hand just gave my a tiny bit more hope. I don't know how I'm going to survive with out him. He's been my entire life for the past three years. What do I do with out him? We've just arrived at the hospital and they are pulling him out. I manage to get out with out falling over which is surprising since I'm in a dress and high heels. I hold onto his hand as the paramedic's wheel him into the hospital. There is a doctor and nurse waiting for us when we get inside.
"What do we have?"
"18 year old male hit on the right side by a car. The right side of his body has been cut open and he's lost a lot of blood. We also suspect internal bleeding"
"I'm guessing he has internal bleeding as well. Alright we need to get him…" the doctor continues to tell them what is going to happen. It's like another language and I just switch off from what there saying. I don't think I wan to hear it anyway
"I'm sorry miss you can't come past here" I hear the doctor say
"Why? He needs me"
"He's being taken into surgery"
"Is he going to be ok?"
"I don't know. We'll try our best" I kiss his lips one last time before he's wheeled of into surgery. And then I'm left alone. I'm alone and that may be the last time I ever see him.
"Gabriella" I turn to see mine and josh's parents running towards me
"What's happened where's my son?"
"He's been taken into surgery"
"Did they say anything?"
"All I know is that he's lost a lot of blood and has internal bleeding"
"Oh my god" josh's mom Helen clings to her husband mark for support. I can see she's been crying as well. My dad pulls me into a hug and I cry into his shoulder. I tried but I just can't stop the tears. We all sit down and wait. Wait for news. Wait for life. Wait for death. Wait for anything. 30 minutes later I see the same doctor as before coming down the corridor. It takes him a couple of minutes to approach us but it seems like an eternity. He knows. He knows and he is here to tell us whether josh is alive or not.
"Josh Tyler?" we all 5 stand up and walk closer to him. This is it.
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