"I just don't understand why it had to happen. Josh was the nicest guy in the world. He would always know when something was wrong and he would always be there for you no matter what. You know that time I started drinking all time he was the one who made me realize what I was doing and pulled me out of it. And even when I was completely drunk and swore at him and hit him he still made sure I got home safe and wasn't mad at all. He was such a good friend to me and I cant help but think about all the times I've acted like jerk to him and how he still found away to forgive me. He was never out of second chances. It shouldn't have been him. He was gonna have such a great life. It shouldn't have been him. If had to be someone it should have been me"

"Don't say that. Don't even think that do hear me. It shouldn't have been anyone. Nobody deserves it. Not you, not josh, no one. You can't blame it on yourself or you'll go crazy trying to figure out why it happened"

"Why did it happen?"

"I don't know. We'll never know" I can see tears rolling down his cheeks. He stands up and I hug him. I can feel the tears on my face as well. We just stand here hugging each other and crying. We're both lost in our own thoughts about Josh. He really didn't deserve this.

Chris and I are now on the way to Gabriella's house. I'm kinda nervous to see her. I don't know why we've been friends since we were three and best friends since we started school. I mine we are practically like sisters. We have still been really close even when I moved to Albuquerque. I was so upset when my parents told me and I went straight to Gabby's house. She was so sweet and comforted me and told me that we'd still be like sisters just in different states. We made a pact that we would make sure we stay as close as we were. We thought it would be easy to get through it and then after we've both graduated we would be both going to the same collage. Yale or Stanford. Gabriella always said she wanted to go to Stanford but I knew she was saying it more for her mom than herself. Her mom never got the chance to go to Stanford so passed her dream on to Gabriella. Gabriella once told me that she would love to go to a collage like Julliard. When I asked her if she would apply she said she could never do that to her mom. That's one of the great things about Gabriella; she is always putting other people in front of herself. I hope she isn't doing that now. At this time she needs to think about herself more than anyone. Apart from his parents, she will have taken this worse. They were so in love, all you had to do was look at them and you could see it straight away, they adored each other. I honestly don't know if she will ever get over this. I just have to make sure that I'm there to help her and there for her when ever she needs me.

"Taylor"

"Yeah?"

"We're here. I've been trying to get your attention for 5 minutes now. What were you thinking about?"

"Gabriella and how she might be handling all this"

"You ready to go in?"

"I think so. The sooner the better" we walk to the door and knock. The second it opens her mother pulls me into a hug. When she lets go she moves on to Chris. When she releases Chris she motions us inside.

"So how have you been Taylor"

"Good what about you?"

"Fine. So how's school?"

"It's great" we sit in silence for about 5 minutes. We both now what's coming but neither one of us wants to ask the question.

"How's Gabriella doing?"

"Not good. Terrible actually. She's been completely torn up since it happened. She hasn't eaten anything, she never leaves her room and she's barely talking to anyone. All she does is cry and look at pictures. Taylor I'm really worried about her. She clings to that box like her life depends on it"

"What box?"

"The doctor gave it to her. He found it in Josh's pocket and his parents told him it was meant for Gabriella. Se hasn't opened it but she hasn't let go of it since she got it"

"Can I see her?"

"Of course. She might talk to you just please, please make sure she's ok. I'm so worried about her. And if you could get her to eat something that would be great"

"I'll try my best" I slowly walk up the familiar stairs. Everything looks the same as last time I was here but the atmosphere has completely changed.

Its feels so weird right now. The house is completely silent where usually it's loud and bubbly and there is always something going on or someone is always round visiting. This was always the house we would come to. The houses that holds so many memories that I will never in my lifetime forget. As I turn the corner I see a picture that makes my heart stop. It's a picture of Josh and Gabriella. It's one taken when we were camping. I remember taking it. Gabby had just jumped on to Josh's back while he was attempting and failing to put the tent up. The look on his face was priceless. He stood up and she clung on I remember getting the camera and taking it with neither of them knowing. He had turned his head to look at her and they were both smiling. It was the cutest picture ever. It was so natural. It was so them.

I realize I've been standing outside Gabriella's door for about 10 minutes now. I don't know why I keep putting off seeing her. She's my best friend and we've been there for each through everything. I guess I just don't want to see her in the state everyone is saying she's in. I'm lifting my hand to knock but before I do I hear her crying. She's sobbing and mumbling something I can't hear but I know it will be about Josh. That's it I know what I have to do. I have to be there for my best friend. I knock on the door. Nothing. I knock again. She doesn't respond so I slowly open the door. She doesn't notice me come in and close the door behind myself.

She's on the floor leaning against her bed. She is surrounded by pictures and all sorts of things. I can see movie stubs, a teddy bear, scrapbooks as well as different pieces of jewelry. Some people may think she's crazy as at this moment she's holding a small box and a picture and crying her eyes out. But I know that, that box is the one Josh got for her and that picture is a picture of him. I know that nearly everything in this room is going to remind her of josh. Looking at her now she looks so helpless but I am determined to help her through this. I'm going to promise myself now that I will do whatever it takes to get her through this.

"Gabriella?"

PLEASE REVIEW. Sorry it's been so long since I uploaded but I have been having total writers block with this story. Anyway today I suddenly felt in th emood to write. I hope you liked it. PLEASE REVIEW and tell me what you think. I take critiscim. Love Tashii xx